I sit and stare straight into Dr. Aurelius's eyes. I've been here for about an hour and haven't said a word. I've been showing up here for the past week, and when I say that I make it sound like I'm doing it willingly which is not true. I remember last week arguing with Peeta and Haymitch about therapy. "Talking about it will help." they kept telling me, but I refuse to talk. I can't bring myself to say anything and what could talking possibly do? Its not like talking will bring back everyone who was killed because of me, its not like talking could end the war. Talking will most certainly not bring back...

The tears start to well up and spill over, the next thing I know I'm curled up like a ball in my seat with my head in my hands.

"Katniss," Dr. Aurelius tries to talk to me. "are you ready to tell me what happened?"

I lift my head up and stare at him with the look of pure hatred on my face. How dare he ask me again, what a hypocrite! 'You can tell me when you're ready Katniss, no one is pressuring you to say anything.' No one is pressuring me? Bullshit! He has been pressuring me to say what Snow has done to me while I was in the Capitol ever since I was rescued, says he needs it to be documented or something. Why? Why would something like this need to be documented?

I stand up, my eyes are glowing with hate and clouded with tears. I want to yell, scream at him, but nothing good will come out of it, just another drug induced, dreamless sleep. Which now that I think about it, sounds like a good idea but the doctor has been trying to ween me off it and I hate the effects it causes after I wake up. So instead, I say this as calmly as I can. "They killed...they killed my baby." I mumble and the tears start streaming down my face. This is the first time that I have actually said it out loud, I haven't even told Peeta what has happened to his own child. Now that I've said it, my heart breaks all over again, but come to think of it, I don't think my heart was even repaired in the slightest. Now, it just feels like someone gathered all the pieces and stomped all over them. "Do you really want to know what happened?" I say through gritted teeth. "They knocked me out, I woke up to find myself strapped to a table," I can already feel myself losing it, but there is no stopping it now. "They cut me open, and they yanked my unborn child out of me!" I scream as I lift the hem of my shirt to show the long, still red scar on my lower abdomen. "And now you know doctor, now you know the fucking truth!" And I start to go after him but am restrained by guards that stand inside the room and they pull me out.

As they carry me down the halls in the hospital to my room, I'm yelling at the top of my lungs and I even result to kicking to try to break free. I just want to get away, I want to go off into a corner and cry, but I know I can't do that. About halfway to my room, I see a nurse running towards us with a syringe in her hand. I calm down just a little knowing that there is nothing I can do and just let it happen. I don't even feel the pinch of the needle, I just slip into unconsciousness.

When I wake up, I see someone I did not expect sitting next to my bed.

"Gale?"

"Oh Katniss." He says as he crushes me into a hug. "I was so worried about you, I've been wanting to see you for days, ever since you got back but I've been in recovery and then I had to go to work with Beetee. I'm so sorry."

"Its fine." I'm happy to see him but I know he will just mention things that are better left unsaid.

"Katniss, is it true? Were you really pregnant." He asks quietly. I try to hide the pain but he must see it on my face because then he says. "You know, its not important." I turn to look at his face and I see sadness in his eyes and something else, it looks like anger and betrayal. Why would he look as though I betrayed him. We were never together, not at all. But before I can ask him anything about it he looks down at his wrist.

"What's that?" I ask him.

"Its a communicuff. Listen, we have to head down to Command."

"We?"

"Yes" Great, what are they going to ask me to do now?

Gale and I walk into Command and I see Peeta and I walk towards him, it looks like he has already saved me a seat. I wonder if he knows what happened today, or was it yesterday? I don't really know how long I was out. He turns to me and opens his mouth as if he was going to say something but then I see Coin at the front starting to speak.

"To start off, I just wanted to welcome the Victors that were rescued from the Capitol-" That's when I stop listening, I've heard it all and more, when she came to my hospital room.

"Katniss, you know I'm going to have to leave soon. Coin wants to see you and...talk to you as well." Great, I had been expecting this, that she would want to talk to me. I have been here a week after all. I'm kind of nervous because I haven't heard the greatest things about her. After all she is the one who waited so long to have me rescued even after people from the inside told her what was going on and how they were treating Johanna and I, they mostly left Annie alone.

"Katniss Everdeen. It is a pleasure to meet you." I hear a cool voice with a somewhat oozing fake sweetness. I look up to cold, empty gray eyes. "President Coin." I say with a unintentional nervous edge to my voice.

"Solider Mellark, don't you have a propo to be filming?" She says with a tone that basically says 'get out!' .

"Yes ma'am." Peeta bends down to peck my lips. "I'll see you later, okay?" I nod and he walks out. Coin walks over and sits down at the foot of the bed.

"I just wanted to come down and say welcome to my district, as you already know, I am the president." I know that's not all she came down for, why would she waste her time just to welcome me. Just as I am about to ask her if that is all, she starts to speak.

"I also have a favor to ask of you, I want you to be our Mockingjay."

"But, isn't Peeta the Mockingjay?"

"Yes, but when Solider Mellark accepted the role, it was said that if you wanted it, that he would step down and you would take his place." I look at her with a confused look. Why would there be a replacement Mockingjay, if Peeta was already it, that would mean that he is the face of the rebellion and wouldn't it be hard to replace the face of the rebellion?

"But how can you just replace the face of the rebellion?"

"You still are the face of the rebellion, it never stopped. Just because he took the job doesn't mean he be became the face, you were always it. If you took the job, he would be more of an...oh lets say, co-mockingjay. He will be with you in the propos but you will do the talking." Great I've never been good at talking. "You have one week to decide." And with that she walked out of the room.

I feel a little nudge on my side and look over to find Peeta staring at me and his eyes moving up towards Coin, she must have asked me a question. I'm lost, I have no idea what she has asked me and I feel a little embarrassed. I hear little snickers across the room, but then I hear a full blown laugh. I turn towards the sound, recognizing it immediately. I find Finnick laughing with his hand on his stomach. Finnick...I haven't seen him at all since I got here. I look at him and he just winks. I turn back. "I'm sorry, what?" I ask Coin. She sighs a irritated sigh and asks the question again.

"Katniss, will you be our Mockingjay?"

A/N: Wow! I think this is my longest chapter yet! So I know it's been over a month since I've updated and I have no excuse but that I have writers block. If are going to ask why her reunion with Prim and her mother are not in this chapter, I'm sorry, its going to be in the next chapter. Thanks for reading and review please, I love when I read your reviews and suggestions! Love you guys! Bye!