My mind was as high as the clouds. I felt myself being pulled from my body; floating away. I almost wished for this escape, it was far better than what I was about to do. Before I could do anything, my self conscience was being violently dragged to my body. It snapped back into my head, making me aware of the person saying my name.
"Clary?" Jonathan asked me. Sebastian and I stood next to each other, the rest of our group sitting on the couches and floor; ready to hear the news we needed to tell them. If things still were the way they were, I would have been crying with fear, trying to tell the people I cared for that I was pregnant before I even reached the age of twenty; but things were different. The world was plagued by fear and evil, and maybe, just maybe, that this small life could fill it with a little more hope. The hope that had left all of us a we watched the ones we cared for die at the hands of monsters that we had once known as people.
"Sorry, my mind drifted. What were we talking about?" I asked stupidly. Jonathan's brows furrowed in suspicion.
"You and Sebastian came in saying that there was something we needed to know." Jonathan said matter-of-factly. Rebecca was holding his hand in her lip as she and him both looked at me, as was everyone else.
"Oh! Right. Sebastian, do you want to lead in with this or..." I lead on. Sebastian looked a mixture of both happy and nervous. We didn't know how our group would react to such news. They didn't treat Isabelle horribly, so maybe we had a chance. I could feel my hands clamming up so I grasped Sebastian's right hand with my left. That seemed to have calmed me a little bit.
"OH MY GOD YOU'RE ENGAGED?!" Isabelle shrieked from her spot on the couch. I could hear our group gasp in unison as all eyes drifted to the beautiful ring on my left hand. I looked at Jace, and the look of pain on his face made me want to hide into Sebastian's arms.
"Shit, we forgot to tell them!" I said to Sebastian. "Yes we are engaged, but there is something else." I choked out.
"Well what is it Clary?" My mom asked. She didn't look angry at the engagement, so maybe she would take the idea of a grandchild smoothly too.
"As you all know, I love Clarissa dearly," Sebastian said while looking into my eyes. Jace flinched at his words, as if they burned him. "And for some amazing reason, she loves me too," Sebastian added. Jace glared at him, while the girls of our group awed at us, like we were puppies.
"Get to the damn point Sebastian!" Jace growled from his seat. For the first time, it seemed like we had made eye contact with each other. His anger cooled into interest as he rested his chin on his hand, waiting a response. I looked to Sebastian, desperately wanting to rip off the bandage of this awkward situation. I had to do it now, or else I'd just end up chickening out and having a child without anyone else knowing.
"We're starting a family." Sebastian said joyously. I heard a scream from Isabelle as she waddled over to me and pulled me into her strong hug. My mother joined her, and along with Tessa, Helen, Aline, Emma, and Rebecca. Magnus, Jem, Alec, Jonathan, Simon, Luke, and Julian Blackthorn shook Sebastian's hand. Jonathan turned and gave me a big hug. Magnus hugged the both of us. Jace surprisingly got up from his seat on the couch and shook Sebastian's hand, and then pulled me in for a hug. I gasped at the contact from him I had not received in months. He held me tight, and I let him. Something about the way he had held me, it made me feel better. Maybe we would be friends again. I desperately needed him in my life.
"Congratulations you two, the love you both share, while it is kinda gross, makes you two capable of bringing life into this horrible world." Jace said to us. Sebastian smiled at him and pulled him in for a hug. Jace laughed and looked at me, drinking the moment in. I smiled at him, and he did the same. "You do know that you won't be able to go on runs, right?" Jace asked me, with amusement and a slight amount of concern.
"Of course she knows that!" Sebastian spoke with alarm. Although the fact that I wouldn't be able to go on an adventure anymore annoyed me, I admitted that it was the best choice to protect me and my baby. Even after our child was born, I would still have to worry about leaving it at home. I told Sebastian if something ever happened while we were out on a run, to not go after the other, because at the end of the day someone has to return home to our child. Sebastian highly disagreed with me, but I made him promise. We would just have to get over the fact that we had lost the other person, but there was still a child we had to raise. I knew that it would be hard for both of us to just let the other get devoured, but sacrifices had to be made.
"So have you two picked out any names?" Jonathan asked us. Sebastian and I hadn't even thought of that. It pained me when I learned that I'd have to wait nine months before I would know the gender of our baby. Well, it's not like I could paint a nursery and host a baby shower. To bad there wasn't a zombie free Walmart.
"No." I said ashamed. I didn't even have a name for my own baby!
"Better think of something before we end up calling the baby It when it's born." Jonathan laughed. Suddenly, a surge of emotions raced through me. I couldn't handle the erratic emotions. My eyes started welling up with tears for some unknown reason. I wasn't even sad! My eyes seemed to think otherwise.
"You okay Clary?" Jace asked with worry. Suddenly, it wasn't sadness that ran through me, but anger. Did he think I wasn't strong? Did he think that because I'm a woman, that meant I also cried a lot. Why are men such assholes!?
"I'm just damn fine Jace!" I snapped. I immediately felt regret, and then the tears were back. What the hell was wrong with me?
"Uh, Clarissa, honey, are you feeling well?" Sebastian asked. That seemed to bring out the emotional car ride to a stop at angerville.
"What Sebastian? Are you just worried about me because you knocked me up? Worried that the girl you banged is crazy!?" I snapped again. I ran out of the living room, leaving the guys in absolute confusion. I slammed my door shut and hid myself under the covers of my bed. I laid there in fetal position. Why am I acting like this? Maybe I was crazy. It wasn't even five minutes after I had stormed off until I heard a soft knock at my door. I could hear someone call my name, but I didn't want to get up. I felt like I was being pulled apart by my emotions. I felt angry at myself for being so rude to them. They were only concerned for me and I just yelled at them. What if Sebastian leaves me because he actually thinks I'm crazy now! Damn these emotions. Is this what they mean by hormones going crazy when you're pregnant, because this feels like total shit!
While I was lost in my own mind, I could feel someone come under the covers with me and wrap their arms around my waist. I shifted to see my loving Sebastian. His eyes were red and concern flooded through them. The guilt I felt was surmounting with each passing moment. I had never been mean to anyone, except maybe Jace, but that was more of a sibling rivalry type thing! I was cruel for making Sebastian feel so worried.
"I'm so sorry!" I cried and buried my face into his chest. He gladly pulled me into his arms and I could hear him sigh in relief.
"I thought you were going to leave me. For a second, I thought that it was over." Sebastian whispered.
"Hormones." I mumbled into his chest. That made him laugh, his muscular chest bouncing. The loved that I held for him burned bright when I looked at his happy expression. A new surge of emotions broke through my mind, and they were very far from bad.
I pulled his head down to mine, and crushed my lips against his full ones. He gasped in surprise before giving himself to me. I feverously attacked his face with my mouth. I needed him. Bad. I wanted to show him just how badly that urge was. I pulled the covers off of us and straddled his waist. I tossed my shirt off, and he looked up at me in amazement. I tugged his shirt off and I didn't even remove my bra before I started working on the buttons of his pants. Crimson flooded to my cheeks as I could see, feel how badly he wanted me too. I cried with relief as I got his pants undone and I took him right then and there. I didn't care that we were half naked, I wanted to experience the release that so badly wanted to escape my body. He panted as our rhythm took off. I was gasping in pleasure as I continued my assault. Sebastian's hands digged into my waist, grinding me against him. I couldn't believe what I was doing. Sebastian's grunts sounded more and more primal as we roughly connected. My hands were balanced on his chest, scratching his amazing muscles. The relief I needed so badly was slowly coming along, burning desire through my skin like slow moving magma. I felt myself being pushed dangerously close to the edge of ecstasy. My vision blurred with pure pleasure. The feeling of Sebastian's hands on me was dulling as all feeling went to the smoldering fire inside me. I was then pushed into the burning fire, the blaze consuming me. My muscles squeezed him, and I cried out in eternal bliss. Sebastian's movements now became wild, putting my sensitive body at his mercy. I could feel his warm breath kiss my neck as he wildly moved around. With one last agonizing grunt, Sebastian pulled my face to his and groaned hard against my mouth. His grip loosened against me, and I could feel him soften. I rolled off of him, amazed at my own actions.
"If that was you're apology, then I accept it." Sebastian laughed. I blushed, not knowing why I decided to do that. Those were the actions of a woman much more skilled than me.
"I don't know why I did that." I whispered.
"When you figure out, let me know so I can trigger it all the time." He teased. I playfully slapped his hard stomach. I guess that wasn't such a good idea, because the fire I had thought I extinguished, returned with a vengeance. "God that was so wild. I still had my pants on! They way you rode me, by the angel it's like you thought you would never get fucked again. I've never heard you scream like that..."
"I think you just triggered it." I gasped. My nerve endings were electrified, just waiting for his touch.
"Lucky me, but let's take it a tad bit slower, I want to make love to you Clarissa, not furiously fuck you like a mad man." He stated.
He turned to me again, this time kissing me slowly, unlike my last approach. His hands ran up my smooth stomach, ending at breast. Sebastian's was breathing rapidly. He moved agonizingly slow, and that wasn't good enough for me. I put my hands behind my back and undid my bra, releasing my now growing breast. I heard him gasp in amazement. My hands grasped the waistline of his jeans. I looked up at him, waiting for a nod, and one he did, I quickly pulled down his jeans, and then I threw off his boxers. He tisked at me, but his smile told me that my dominance excited him. In a short amount of time, we were at it again. I was getting frustrated with him, because he didn't want to match my rapid pace.
"Harder." I moaned into his mouth. Sebastian grunted and flipped me over, catching me by surprise. I had never done this with him. It was new and exciting. Within a short amount of time, we were both grunting in the pleasure that ran through us.
"Could you guys keep it down next time you decide to go at each other?" Isabelle asked Sebastian and I. My jaw dropped as I recalled all the screaming that was made.
"Honestly, it sounded like someone was being murdered!" Simon added. Sebastian pulled me to him, not wanting to feel singled out.
"Normally all we hear is the occasional grunt and oh baby you feel so tight, but not this time. This time we could hear you both screaming out profanities. We all had to talk loudly so your mom didn't guess what was going on." Jace grimaced. Heat rushed to my cheeks as the thought of Jace hearing Sebastian and I make love.
"I didn't think we were that loud." I whispered to Sebastian.
"Loud enough to know who was on top." Magnus teased. I felt so mortified.
"Prove it." Sebastian said with amusement and disbelief.
"Well, I'm guessing Clary was, considering that the bed squeaked every time she moaned. She rode you didn't she? And would it be so wrong to suggest there was a round two? Probably doggy style because the bed moved way to much for missionary." Magnus said with a grin, his brow raised waiting for a reply. We were both speechless.
"Didn't take you as a cowgirl Clary." Jace teased.
"I guess we don't have to wonder how Sebastian managed to get Clary pregnant." Alec said with disgust.
"He could get me pregnant with stamina like that!" Magnus scoffed.
"Guys, could we not talk about this?" I asked embarrassingly. They rolled their eyes at me.
"Zombies are roaming the earth, this is like cable to us now!" Isabelle laughed.