A/N: Hi guys, I just wrote a new part of the story. Hope you like it! I also just checked all the chapters on the same mistake I made and corrected it. Thanks for the people helping me out on this! I'm not offended at all! :)

Warning! This chapter contains a bit of smut ;).

Regina's POV

Regina had crawled out of Emma's arms and had put on her bra and shirt again. She wasn't going to leave the house anymore, so it didn't matter if her blouse wasn't smoothened anymore. It made her think of the wonderful feeling that Emma gave her and it made her smile that the blonde was the first one she did those things with and actually loved it and the person herself.

"I really do love you, but I'm not ready for the next step, if you don't mind", the brunette blurted out, not looking in the beautiful eyes of her beloved girlfriend, "I want you to understand what I've been through, I want to tell you everything, but I can't… Even if I wanted to, I can't find the words to explain you how I feel or felt, I don't know, it's still confusing.."

"It's okay, Regina, I won't push you to do things you do not want to do", the blonde answered.

Regina nodded, "I want to replace those horrible memories with new ones, I want to do those things with you without feeling like I will be abused, like I have to do things I don't want to do. I was so scared when you pushed me down the first time, I felt your bodyweight on me and I just kind of freaked out. I saw Leopold again, the lustful look in his eyes, the pain I caused him and I… I always wanted to forgive him, but he didn't even saw me as a human being", she stuttered. It was pretty difficult to tell, but she managed to do so. She felt the eyes of the blonde burning on her skin, knowing she wasn't able to react right away, so the brunette continued, "I … I was … just his sex toy, I was his release of anger, irritation, frustration and if I was lucky, he wouldn't hurt me that much."

The blondes green eyes were wide, she seemed to be frozen, not being able to say a word and even she had stopped her movement of putting on her shirt. She had dropped the shirt on the floor again and took steps in Regina's direction. She didn't want the brunette to flinch at her touch, so she opened her arms wide before she even touched the woman. She hugged her, and the brunette hugged her back.

"That's something that will never happen again, he is dead and I'm happy he is, because nobody deserves to be threaten like that. You are a beautiful person, you are a human being, and it's normal after all those years of abuse that there is a lot you can't do, that you are scared of the most simple things, but I will help you and I will wait for you. You are important to me", the blonde whispered in the brunettes ear.

The brunette sobbed by those words and kissed the blond full on her lips, she wanted her so badly, but everything in her body told her to stop. The woman wasn't able to open her up already, she just couldn't do anything like that yet. She just hoped the blonde would never ever betray her.

Since Emma had left, she felt lonely again, but she knew she wasn't alone anymore. She wouldn't have to drag those painful thoughts with her anymore, or not alone actually. They were still there, but now she could talk about them with someone and she was sure the blonde would listen to everything she said.

The mayor had eaten something from the fridge, something she normally never does. I was Henry who always ate all the left-overs in the house and Regina always cooked for herself to stay healthy. Now she hadn't had the strength to make something fresh, so the spaghetti bolognaise it was.

After some time on the couch, the brunette went upstairs to take a shower. She undressed herself in the bathroom while she had turned on the shower. She first looked in the mirror on the wall and had to smile and touched her lips, knowing they had touched Emma's. She shook her head and went into the shower. But she couldn't ignore the warm feeling that was running through her. Regina was, in fact for the first time in a very long time, feeling horny. The brunette just couldn't ignore the feeling and imagine Emma being next to her, running her hands over her body, following all her curves. The brunette had closed her eyes and massaged her breasts while she took one of her nipples between her thumb and index and pinched it a bit. A soft moan rolled from her lips, feeling more and more aroused every time she pinched and twisted her nipple.

The brunette leaned against the wall, her eyes closed, her head resting against the wall too. While her left hand kept playing with her nipple, her right hand wandered around on her body. She drew circles on her belly, and went lower till she touched her sex. She ran a finger through her wet folds and gasped by that feeling. She pictured Emma smiling at her because of her reaction and she had to smile too because of that thought. Next thing she did was playing with her clit and once she found the right pressure on her bundle of nerves, she moaned loudly.

"Oh, Emma..", rolled over her lips.

She circled her clit a bit longer before she began circling her entrance. In her mind she heard Emma asking for permission to slip her fingers in. Regina slipped one finger in and moaned loudly, pushing it slowly in and pulling it out again. Not much later she added a second finger and pumped them in faster and harder. She circled her clit again with her thumb and felt herself moving uncontrollable. She loved this feeling, while she kept moaning and imagining it was Emma doing this to her. When she felt herself climbing up the last step to her orgasm, she arched her fingers so she would push right to the most sensitive spot inside her.

"Aaaaaaahhh, Emma, Oh my god, Emma", she moaned pretty loud before opening her eyes and softly pulling her fingers, covered in her own arousal out. She felt the warm feeling drifting away, but still felt the desire to feel Emma next to her. The blonde did something to her she hadn't experienced in a very long time. The brunette hadn't masturbated for a couple of years and right now, she knew it wouldn't be the last time she would do it.

After her masturbation session, she cleaned herself up, washed herself so she could go to sleep again. She had put on her pyjamas and once she got in bed, she just felt she wasn't going to fall asleep. She turned around in her own bed, still smelling the scent of Emma on one of the pillows. She hadn't really slept with the blonde, but she missed her presence in her bed, she wanted to cuddle with the blonde, she wanted to feel her body next to hers.

After an hour or so, she just picked up her phone to message the blonde:

Regina: I miss you. I want to feel you next to me.

She saw what she had typed, read it about ten times and her thumb was circling above the 'send' button. She took in a deep breath and pushed it and once the message was gone, she dropped her cell phone on her nightstand again.