Disclaimer: I don't own 7th heaven

Up until now I had lied my whole life just like the stereotype model would. The only time you have a relationship with the opposite sex was through your gay assistant or when you were drunk and ended up going home with either a perverted twenty two year old you met at a bar or a fifty year old guy who hadn't had sex in five years. It's the type of life I lived. Every decent guy I ever got in a relationship with thought I was a stuck up anorexic model who didn't give a damn about anyone but myself. But, not Martin. Martin was different then all those other guys and I had been blind to it all along. He didn't look at me as the top model in New York. He looked at me as Ruthie Camden, the girl who made her boyfriend buy tampons for her when she got her period, the girl who new everything about everyone in the Camden household, the girl who had fallen in love with Martin Brewer in high school and the girl that still has been in love with him all this time.

I knew Martin was up when I heard the shower start to run as I laid in bed at the Hotel. I sat up as I heard him walk from the bathroom back into the main room.

"Hey, your up" Martin said walking over to the bed.

"Yea, I'm up," I said sitting up a little more. Martin walked over to the bed and sat down next to me. He placed his arm around my waist and gave me a quick kiss.

"I'm about to take a shower..." Martin hinted.

"I kinda figured that," I said smiling.

"so do you... uh..." he said. He acted like he was in high school again, the scared, intimidated boy asking a girl to prom.

"are you asking me if I want to take a shower with you?" I asked him smiling.

"Maybe," he said, smiling back at me. I answered him by kissing him on the lips. He knew what my answer was. I crawled up into his lap still passionately kissing him. He scooted over towards the edge of the bed and stood up, still holding me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and I pulled away from his lips.

"Is that a yes?" Martin asked smiling. Once again I responded by kissing him, this time a little harder and a little more passionate, if that was even possible. As we got closer to the bathroom I pulled away from kissing him once again to remove his shirt. I ran my hands up his bare chest until I reached his neck. I wrapped my hands around him and kissed him again. The next time it wasn't me who pulled away but it was Martin. Martin hesitated before the three words rolled off his tongue.

"I love you Ruthie," Martin said smiling. I ran my hands up his bare chest until I reached his neck and I wrapped my hands around him.

"I love you too, I love you so much," I smiled and added, "I always have,"

Martin smiled and then started kissing me again. When we reached the bathroom he set me down and reached his hand into the shower to check the temperature of the water. I started to take off my white tank top I was wearing as he started to take off his boxers. He shared a passionate kiss before we both got into the shower. I don't think I need to say what happened after that.

After the shower and making love a few times more, we finally got dressed and started to get ready to leave the hotel. When we were finally ready we went down to my car. I got in the passengers seat and let Martin drive.

"You okay?" Martin asked me when we were about a half hour into the drive.

"Ya it's just... Is this all we are?" I asked him.

"What do you mean?" he asked me.

"I mean, we had sex and yea it was great but... I wanna be more than that, I wanna start from the beginning, I wanna open a new door in this relationship,"

"That sounds good, it'll be good to open a new door and to start fresh," Martin said smiling.

"You mean it?" I asked smiling back at him.

"I really do," he said.

"do you wanna go grab a bite to eat tonight?" There he was acting like a teenager again, asking a girl out. I laughed and then replied,

"I'd love to," I said

"Seven sound goo to you?" he asked.

"Sounds great," I said smiling. I reached over to Martin leg and placed my hand on his thigh.

"I love you," I said looking up at him.

"I love you too baby," he said. I knew that I had never been happier. I knew that I never would be happier. I knew that we were in love, and we always would be.

When I arrived home I was greeted by a very frantic Roana.

"¡Oh mi dios! ¡Hemos sido enfermo preocupado! ¿dónde el infierno era tú?" which basically translated into, where the hell were you, we've been worried sick.

"Sorry, Roana, my phone must have been off," I said happily.

"Where were you. Denny has been scared to death," Roana said.

"Where is Denny?" I asked her.

"en alli," she said pointing towards his room.

"gracias," I said as I walked towards his room. When I reached his door I cracked it open just enough to see he was asleep. I flipped off his lights off and walked over to my room. I took a quick shower and then started to get dressed for my date that night. After going through many shirts I decided on a black and white striped dress with black shoes, a long necklace, and black chandelier earrings. At exactly seven o'clock I heard a knock on the door. I felt my heart skip a beat as I went to answer the door. What I saw surprised me. It was Martin alright. But he was wearing old jeans with old paint stains on them and an old t-shirt that had too many stains to count.

"I thought we were going out, am I too dressed up? Oh God, umm... let me go change," I started to walked away from the very casually dressed Martin when he grabbed me be the arm.

"We're not going out Ruthie," he said looking angry and sad.

"Why not?" I asked him.

"We can't do this, I can't do this," he said with that look in his eyes, the same look he got when he was about to tell me about Sandy's pregnancy.

"Why not, this morning you were so excited to start a new life to open a new door, what happened?" I said feeling the tears welling up in my eyes.

"Lana called me today..." he said.

"so?" I asked him.

"She's pregnant Ruthie." after Martin had said that I felt my entire world, shatter into a million pieces.

Sorry it took me so long to updates, I've been sick and on top of that school work has been piling up! I'll try to update sooner this time! Tell me what you think!