Sixth Chapter is up. Honestly, I'm not sure how you guys will feel about this Chapter...you might be mad at me...Oh well if so, the next chapter will be better...pinky swear. Anyway, please Review...This fic get barely any and I'd love to get more. it's a great motivator, *hint hint*. Any Enjoy.

Chapter 6

"I almost kissed her." Rachel said as she sat in the front seat of Santana's car. Santana hit the brakes stopping in the middle of the highway. Luckily there was no one in sight she pulled over to the shoulder.

"You did what," Santana questioned.

"I, Rachel Berry, almost kissed Quinn Fabray." Santana looked at Rachel. She was confused. She knew Rachel hadn't really seen Quinn in nearly two weeks and now they were on spring break. Santana wasn't exactly sure if they would see each other. "And she almost kissed me." Rachel said.

"When," Santana said with pure curiosity.

"The night Finn posted that video," Santana looked at Rachel in disbelief. "We almost kissed and then she pulled away." Santana looked at her.

"Did she know that you and Finn broke up?"

"Yeah I told her right before our almost kiss." Santana finally got an all knowing look on her face.

"That was your mistake. You made her feel like a rebound." Santana said. Rachel still didn't look like her mind was at ease. Rachel had felt avoided since the almost kiss. She hadn't seen Quinn or talked to her since. She thought Quinn was dead until she found out that Santana and Quinn were still hang out but that met that something was wrong between her and Quinn.

"Is that why she's been avoiding me?" Santana looked at Rachel. The girl seemed honestly distraught over not being able to see Quinn but what could Santana do. She thought everything was peachy between the two girls. She had even thought about the fact of letting the events play out but now that she thought of it. Quinn hadn't mentioned Rachel once in the last two weeks and Rachel hadn't said a word about Quinn. "I like her but she seems to be uninterested all of a sudden." Rachel said. "Maybe, I scared her and she never wants to seem my face ever again."

"Rachel, stop panicking," Santana said.

"But I haven't seen her; it's the fact that she's been avoiding me."

"Don't you two have class together?" Santana said.

"No, I heard she was moved to another English class. I don't even see her in the hall ways. I've even been going out of my way to see her."

"She's been going to class. I've seen her." Rachel looked as if she was about to cry. "Rachel, please don't cry, I'm sure it's just a huge misunderstanding."

"It's that whole almost kiss thing."

"Rachel you're thinking too much about it. She doesn't hate you and I guarantee you this is probably a huge mis communication." Santana said attempting for comfort the short brunette. "You really do like her…" Santana said. She sighed immediately scrapping there original Spring break plans. She turned the car around and began to head back to Lima. "I guess it was good thing we didn't order our ticket like you wanted to." Santana joked as she sped down the highway.

"Where are we going?"

"You're going to talk to Quinn."

Quinn stared at her window as she jogged on her treadmill and listened to some acoustic music. Quinn ran had been exercising a lot to rid her body of a lot of sexual tension. She had accepted the fact that exercising was better than self-serving all the time. She ran faster and faster. It had been her response to get Rachel off her mind. Avoiding Rachel had been the hardest thing she had ever had to do. She got her English teacher changed after she realized if she stayed in the class she would see Rachel every single day. She had even learned despites her growing distaste for Sue Sylvester, the woman work out plan was amazing for relieving stress.

She heard her phone ring. She sent the call to her Bluetooth. "Hello," She spoke into the receiver. She kept running.

"I haven't heard you huffing and puffing like that in a while." Quinn halted her workout as she listened to the voice. She frowned.

"Hey Lila," Quinn said deciding to just be civil. "Why are you calling me, not to be rude or anything?" Quinn said wiping the sweat off her face.

"I was calling just to check on you." She said. "So, what's got you breathing so hard?" Lila asked in a very flirtatious manner.

"You caught me in the middle of a work out."

"Sexy," Lila said. "I'm a little turned on thinking about you sweaty and sexy."

"Lila come on, we are so broken up it's not even funny."

"I know, but I was hoping to see my favorite girl since I'm in Ohio,"

"Stalking much," Quinn said. Lila laughed.

"Don't flatter yourself it's not what you think. I'm actually on my way to New York and then I'll be coming back through to head to Chicago."

"And what does that have to do with me Lila?"

"Well since I'm nearby, I just thought we could have a little R&R. You know getting that talk I was supposed to get before we broke up. So come on, the only thing I need is your address and I'll come and see you." Quinn was about to respond when she heard the call waiting beep on the other line.

"Hold on someone's waiting on the other line. Give me a sec,"

"Don't take too long. I do have places to be you know." Quinn rolled her eyes before switching over.

"Hello," She said.

"Quinn," She paused. It was the very person she was trying to avoid. She knew she couldn't hang up Rachel would then know that Quinn was going out of her way to avoid her.

"Yeah hey Rachel, long time no talk." Quinn said in a very nonchalant way.

"I've been trying to get in touch with you for a while now. I was wondering if we can talk. Maybe some time today?" Quinn began to panic. She could think up a good excuse. Her mind completely went blank. "Just for a few minutes," Quinn began to thin quickly. Thought were racing through her mind. For some reason, she had suspected something like this would happen but she figured it would be later when she had enough to think up a great excuse. "Please Quinn," She then came up with an idea; one that would keep Rachel away instead of her having to avoid Rachel.

"Yeah, of course, when will you be here?" There was a pause. "In another two hours or so," Rachel said sounding almost thrilled that Quinn had agreed to see her. Quinn felt a lump grow in her stomach. It was almost painful as it formed.

"So, I'll see you in a few hours. Oh yeah and if you don't get a response I might be working out so I'll have my head buds in. If so, there's a key under the mat, let yourself in, I'll leave the alarm off." Quinn said before hearing Rachel respond with a high pitched hum which obviously met yes. "Bye Rachel," She said before clicking over to Lila who was still on the other line. "Lila, you still there,"

"Yeah," Lila responded her tone a bit annoyed.

"You want to have that talk, fine, write down this address because I'm only going to say it once." She gave Lila here address. "How quickly can you get here?"

"The GPS says Thirty minutes,"

"Then I'll be ready in Thirty minutes I won't wait too long so don't make me." She couldn't see Lila but she knew there had to be smile on Lila's lips. She hung up the phone. She had a strange sick feeling in the pit of her stomach. She felt like she was going to vomit. She knew what she was thinking about doing was horrible but she didn't know why she was dwelling so much about it. It would solve her problem once and for all. However, it didn't get rid of that awful sinking feeling in her stomach.

"Hey," Lila said giving Quinn a tight hug. Quinn hugged her back reluctantly. She was a bit disappointed. She was convinced that if Lila didn't come, it was a sign from god that she should go through with her plan but Lila was there even a bit earlier than she said she would be. She greeted Lila back and allowed her in. Lila looked around the house. "This is a nice place."

"Yeah, I guess, most of the time it just feels empty." Quinn closed the door and lead Lila to her living room. She offered the girl a seat.

She noticed that Lila had changed a bit from what she remembered. She got rid of the purple streaks that were in her hair so it was simply jet black. She had lost a bit weight and she seemed to be towering, even more so, over Quinn. Though she only thought that most of it changed because she hadn't seen Lila in a while.

"It's nice to see you." Lila said catching Quinn off guard. "I didn't want to let it on but I was really excited when you agreed to meet me. I honestly thought you were going to say no. I wasn't expecting to say yes. What made you change your mind?" Quinn smiled a bit.

"I guess you can say I came to my senses." Quinn said making it sound almost sincere. She knew she was full of shit but Lila didn't need to know that. "I figured I never really got to hear you out and that's not what you deserve. You know after the amazing two months we had." Quinn didn't know why it was becoming increasingly harder for her to lie to Lila. "So, I'm giving you a chance to say what you have to say. I want to hear you out." Quinn said with a flirtatious grin. "I do," Lila smiled at the answer. "Now, what did you want to talk about?"

"I hated the fact that we broke up the way we did." Lila said. "We were actually having a great time together. Maybe, it didn't feel like love to you but I was in love with you completely and truly." Quinn acted attentive to everything Lila was saying and she heard every word but it was like a part of her didn't comprehend the words. Her mind kept going to Rachel. She didn't know why the only thing going through her mind was hurting Rachel. It was something that she didn't want to do but she'd end up hurting her any way in the long run. "But Quinn, I don't want to not be with you. I'm better when I'm with you. I don't care if we're states away." Quinn tuned out for a bit. She was figuring it was going to be harder to get Rachel out of her head than she thought. "And I want us to try again." Quinn looked Lila in the eyes.

"You want to try us again?" Quinn said.

"Yeah," Lila said. "I miss everything about you." Quinn she had to make her move or she was going to lose her nerve. She moved closer to Lila and brushed her lips against hers. She light kissed. She felt Lila smile against her lips before deepening it. Quinn couldn't bring herself to enjoy the human contact like she usually would. Lila let her hands travel down to Quinn's hips and slowly pushing her against the couch. Quinn felt Lila's tongue run over the entrance of Quinn's lips. Quinn reluctantly allowed the intrusion. This whole encounter felt wrong. She knew why, but it still didn't ease her mind. Lila moaned into the kiss. Quinn however wasn't nearly as enthused. However, she had to get through it, for her sake and Rachel's. At least, that's what she said to convince her heart.

"Let's take this upstairs to my room." Quinn said.

"Of course, whatever you want baby."

"We're here Santana she just told me to walk in but I don't know whether this is a good idea. Maybe I was just paranoid and she was just busy and didn't have time to talk to me. She didn't sound like she was avoiding me over the phone." Santana looked at Rachel unimpressed. "Don't make me go in there." Santana parked the car in her drive.

"You made me waist three quarters of a tank of gas. You better go in there and talk to her or I will hurt you." Rachel sighed.

"Fine Santana, you win. I'll go talk to her."

"If everything goes wrong just kiss her, I'm sure that will get her to shut up." Rachel blushed.

"I can't just kiss her. She doesn't even know I like her."

"Then make her know," Rachel got out of the car. She sighed as she gave Santana a final look. "We should have headed to New York. Why'd you turn around?" Rachel saw a vulnerable smile on Santana said.

"You're my best friend Rach; I want you to be happy." Santana said. "Now, go in there and talk to her. If I don't see you in about an hour, I'm gone assume you two are fucking." Santana said.

"Fine Santana, I'll be back soon because we're just going to talk." Rachel said to Santana letting Santana know that was the only thing that was going to happen. Rachel walked across the street to Quinn's house. She took a breath before knocking on Quinn's door. She tried at 3 times before getting the spare key. She opened the door and stepped in. "Hello," She said aloud. She received no answer. She stepped in the house. "Quinn, are you in here?" She walked towards the living room where she heard the television blaring. "Quinn," She looked down and saw Quinn sleeping on the couch. She smiled lightly at the sight. She walked in front of the couch and knelt in front of her. She lightly touched her shoulder before lightly calling her name.

"Quinn," Quinn shook her off. "Quinn, it's me, Rachel," Quinn stirred a bit before settling again. "Quinn, wake up,"

"Go away," Quinn fussed.

"You said we would talk." Quinn finally sat up and wiped her eye in a sleepy haze. "Sorry for waking you up Ms. Fabray." Quinn scratched her head and looked at Rachel.

"Rachel," Her voice croaked. "I must have fallen asleep." Quinn said. She reached for the T.V. remote shutting it off. "I almost forgot that you were going. Her voice was raspy almost like she couldn't talk.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah," Quinn said quickly. Rachel sat next to Quinn. "So what did you want to talk about?" Rachel became nervous all of a sudden. "You can tell me,"

"I wanted to know…why you were avoiding me." Quinn knew the question had been coming. Rachel looked hurt and confused at the same time. "I mean you might not have been avoiding me… maybe I'm paranoid."

"I have been avoiding you Rachel." Quinn said bluntly.

"Why, did I do something wrong?" Rachel said in a worried fit.

"No, it wasn't because of you. It was all on me." She said. Quinn took Rachel hands in hers. "I was afraid…"

"Of me," Rachel questioned.

"No," Quinn said. "I don't want to make things weird between because I like having you as a friend and it seems the more I hang out with you and the more time we spend together…the more I want to be more." Quinn said. Rachel was taken aback. "I like you Rachel, but I can't be with you." Quinn said. "I'm admitting this because I want us to be friend."

"Why exactly can't you be with me?" Rachel questioned.

"I break everything I touch. I can't keep a relationship going to save my life I like what we have now…it's nice and it's comfortable and I know I can keep a friendship going. I suck as a girlfriend and I know it."

"How do you know that I don't want to try?" Rachel said searching for an answer in Quinn's eyes. "How can you make that kind of decision for both you and me?" Quinn was taken aback by Rachel's forwardness. She seemed angry, even outraged, to the fact that Quinn didn't want to be with her. She made Quinn let go of her hands.

"Rachel…I don't get what you want." Quinn said.

"I want you!" Rachel said in frustration. "You and I are connected somehow. We almost kissed in my bedroom and I know you felt something!" Rachel said. "I'm not an idiot. I know you like me." Rachel kept eye contact with Quinn. "You don't even want to give it a chance."

"Rachel it isn't like that. I like you but do you know I'll probably leave Lima in the next two weeks?" Quinn questioned. "I like you too much to put you through a long distance relationship. Rach, it's too much."

"Too much for me, or too much for you,"

"Too much for both of us," Quinn said. "I can't do that to you. We'd have a limited time together before my dad gets orders to go to Texas, California, Japan, Germany, Russia, or some other place on the planet that's miles away from Lima. We'd only see each other two months out of the year because plane tickets are fucking expensive. You'd end up lonely and angry at me for moving around all the time and we'd always worry about the other being faithful. It's a downward spiral Rachel and I don't want to do that to you." Quinn defended herself.

"Quinn you're here right now and that's all that's matters. If you wanted this to work it would work!" Rachel said. Suddenly they both heard footsteps trailing down the stairs and coming into the living room. Rachel turned to Quinn who whore a look of horror on her face.

"Baby, I woke up and you weren't there." Rachel saw a girl draped only with a bed sheet. "I didn't know we had guest." Rachel looked at Quinn then looked at the girl. Her brain began to put two and two together. She got up feeling like a complete idiot.

"I'm sorry, I'm obviously interrupting something." Rachel said as she raced for the door and past the half necked girl.

"Rachel, it's not what you think," Quinn followed her quickly. She glared at Lila who wore a devious smile on her face when Rachel walked out door. Quinn ran for Rachel, who was waking in the direction of Santana's house in a quick pace. Quinn had to jog just to keep up. "Rachel wait listen to me for just a second." Quinn was finally catching up and stood in front of Rachel stopping her. "It's not what you think, she doesn't mean anything. Rachel she's just a," Before she could finish the rest of the sentence she felt a slap across her check. She held it in surprise. "Rachel,"

"Just leave me alone," Tears began to form in her eyes. "I don't want to see you anymore,"

"Rachel," Quinn said pleading with her. "I swear we didn't do anything."

"Then what was she doing necked in your bedroom." Rachel was pissed.

"I invited her over but nothing happened, we kissed but that's it and I stopped it. I promise you nothing happened just listen to me Rachel." Quinn pleaded.

"Explain to me why she was here in the first place." Quinn became silent. She couldn't explain to Rachel that she was going to sleep with Lila to get Rachel to leave her alone. "What is she doing here, Quinn?" Quinn didn't know how to explain to Rachel what happened without sounding like a complete asshole. She grabbed Rachel's hand.

"Rach," Quinn said. Rachel snatched her hand away.

"That's what I thought," Rachel said. "Stay away from me Quinn," Rachel turned to walk to Santana's house.

"Wait Rachel, why are you going to Santana's?"

"That's for you to think about." Rachel said before running to Santana's door. Quinn watched as Santana opened the door and Rachel engulfed her in a hug. She was immediately enraged and full of jealousy. Santana hugged her back and allowed her in. Quinn felt her heart break seeing Rachel in the arms of another even if it was Santana. She stomped back to her house. She was pissed. She walked through her front door seeing a dressed Lila coming down her stairs.

"Get the fuck out of my house." Quinn ordered. Lila had a devious smile on her face.

"Don't worry I'm way ahead of you." Lila said strutting in front of Quinn. "And I'm glad that you finally know what it's like to have your feelings toyed with." Lila walked out the house. "And don't worry you'll never hear from me ever again." Quinn slammed the door behind her. Quinn paced around her house. She was so frustrated. Everything had fallen apart in mere minutes, in a few sentences, in a few instants.

She knew it was her fault for what had happened but it still hurt to think about. She smashed the first thing she could find. Everything went crashing down one after another. Her vision had become blurred with tears and she was pretty sure was screaming. She didn't know anything could hurt so badly. Her heart felt like it was going to split in two. If this was what heart break was, she never wanted to feel it again.

"Lucy," Russell stepped to the front door. He felt glass cracking beneath his shoe. He began thinking the worse. "Lucy," He dropped his bag on the ground searching the house for his daughter. He searched the first level that was a mess with shattered glass from the front to the kitchen. He ran up the stairs to her bedroom which looked like a tornado hit it. The lamp shade had gone through the wall. "Lucy, answer me," He walk to the bathroom and before he could open the door, he heard sobbing. He slowly opened the door. He saw Quinn curled up in a fetal position in the empty bathtub. It seemed like she had been crying for a while. He slowly walked in to the bathroom closing the door behind him. "Lucy honey,"

"Daddy," She said in tears. Her father didn't say another word. He climbed in with her and wrapped his arms around her. He hadn't seen her so upset since her mother had died. He held her like a baby. "I'm sorry about the mess. I didn't mean it." She said.

"It's okay baby," He said. "I'm just glad you're okay." He pushed his hand though her blond hair. "You know you're my baby girl and you can talk to me about anything." She continued sobbing.

"It hurts so much, dad."

"What hurts," Her father asked.

"My chest," Quinn said. Her father began to understand.

"What do you say we go somewhere this weekend?" Her father said. "We can go a little road trip and be back by Monday morning."

"I just want to get out of here," Quinn begged wiping her eyes.

"Okay, we can go." Russell said lifting Quinn in the air and stepping out of the bathtub. "But first, you're going to get a good night's sleep and well leave bright and early."

"Rachel, calm down," Santana said to Rachel trying to make her stop crying. "I thought you didn't even think it was going to go anywhere in the first place." Santana said attempting to make Rachel feel better. "Why is this hurting you so much?"

"I don't know what it is of what it was but her and …we had this chemistry." Rachel wiped her eyes with another Kleenex and discarded it in the trash that was already over flowing with tissue. "I liked her, San." Rachel said. "I really like her and I thought she felt the same way but she's not different then Finn." Rachel said cruelly crying into Santana's shoulder.

"You don't mean that," Santana said.

"I do, I never want to see her again."

"Rach, you're being a drama queen. You like her maybe hear her out when you're up to it." Santana said being hopeful for the both of them. "You didn't see her face when you hugged me. It looked like she wanted to bite my head off. She likes you Rachel even if she made a mistake." Rachel pushed away from Santana.

"What is it with you?" Rachel said. She got off of Santana's bed and looked at Santana in disbelief. "You're tell me that I like her and she's good for me and she's amazing but let's take a moment to talk about you're love life." Rachel said with malice and frustration. "You sleep with every girl you find and not because you're attracted to the. You sleep with them because you're trying to fill the void that Brittany left. You want her back but you won't put in the effort to fucking do so. What about the fact that Brittany likes you? You like her." Rachel mocked. "You never know you guys might be soul mates!" Santana stood up and looked Rachel. Her vision looked blurred with anger. Rachel could tell Santana was angry but she didn't care. "The only reason you want Quinn and I together is because you don't have the balls to tell Brittany you're still in love with her!" Santana grabbed Rachel around the collar. She lifted her fist to hit her.

Rachel didn't look scared. She wanted Santana to hit her. "Go ahead and hit me, I dare you." Santana couldn't believe she was about to hit the only friend she had had for a while in this town. In her heart she knew that Rachel was right and that she was only being a bitch because she was hurt. Santana dropped her fist. She grabbed her keys walking out of the room. She didn't care that she was walking out of her own house. She just needed to get away. She got in her car and turned on the ignition. She had to escape anywhere.

Santana climbed up a tree in Lima Park. She wanted to be somewhere where no one could see her cry. She hadn't realized until she climb half way up the tree that she hadn't grabbed her shoes. Rachel was right. She was still in love with Brittany. Brittany was the only thing she really thought about. She wanted nothing more than to be with Brittany but she still blamed herself for Brittany trying to kill herself. She was miserable. Without Brittany, she really didn't care about much else. She was void, angry, depressed and almost a delinquent.

What Rachel had said to her had really gotten to her. Rachel had never let her have it like that. Rachel sugar coated everything she said but she didn't sweeten up the one thing Santana didn't want to think about. Rachel knew exactly where to hit her, make her bleed and to rub salt in the wound.

She blankly looked at the passing people beneath the tree. They didn't see her but she saw them. She saw people walking their dogs, Joggers, bikers, and couples looking for a late night place make out spot. She had to admit she did envy them. Being able to hold someone they cared about was luxury she was not able to afford. She reached in her jacket pocket and found the stuffed animal Brittany had won her at a carnival. She hadn't even wanted it but Brittany wanted to it. Yet, Brittany insisted that she's get it since it was their first year anniversary.

Who would have figured that the one thing she didn't want from Brittany would be the one thing she cherished most from the other girl. A little stuff puppy that stayed in her pocket that she never wanted to part with. She broke down in silent tears. /I hate you,/ Santana said to the dog in Spanish. She was projecting her anger on the toy. /I hate you for making me love you,/ She said begging in a way for the pain to go away.

Santana was just like Rachel and Quinn, the very people she was trying to help; hopelessly and dangerously in love.

Tell me what you think. I want to know. Next chapter will have Brittany in it I swear. anyway good night, have a great one.