Can you realize the want?
A slender eyebrow raised as he continued to face her back, he could see her hesitating to turn to face him. He did not blame her too much for it, he knew this encounter was troubling for her, as it was for him, but they both knew that he would be the one not to show it. Even as enemies some part of her had to know that she would still be the only one that he would truly care for. No one else could take her place, it was impossible. His lips twitched a bit, the tone in her voice threatened to cause that heartless smile to fall from his face. A tone that he would have done anything to avoid, to her, he had not only betrayed the soul society that he vowed to give his all to but he had betrayed her even more. Betraying the soul society was one act that he would not regret, that part of his decision was the easiest. Facing her with his traitorous face was far more complicated. But in the end he still chose his path.
Slitted eyes caught the movement of her hand which went to grip the hilt of her zanpakuto, their gazes met just seconds later when she turned to face him. She was just an arm reach away, the strange urge to embrace her was there, but he fought it with everything in him. Things were not the same, he was her enemy and vise versa, oddly enough he had to continuously remind himself of that fact.
His ears perked when she spoke once again. Her explanation stuck to him for a moment, he looked up into the darkened sky of hueco mundo in a thoughtful manner. "Better hm?" he recited before he turned his attention to her once again. "If that were true.." he said as he stepped even closer diminishing the distance that they had between them. "What is that pained look on your face?" he said as he pointed to her with a dainty finger. She was holding something back, whatever she wanted to say, he could see it in her face, in her eyes, in her body language. Did she want to yell, cry, scream, shove her sword through his throat? He knew that she was harboring anger or sadness, he had betrayed her, so why would she not hold such feelings?
Gin then looked at her hand in which seemingly gripped her weapon in a painful manner. "What is it Rangiku? What is it that you want to say." he said with that smile on his face and he took another step forward. "Or are you planning to thrust your weapon into me and end your apparent suffering?" in a way he wanted to instigate her anger, maybe he wanted her to truly despise him. If it would make it easier for her then he would accept that. He just couldn't look at that saddened expression on her face any longer.