Chapter 6 / Changing Facts

A life without some aspects may change it forever. Positive can turn in negative, beloved can turn in hated and most important of all nerd can turn into bigger nerd. Of course that happened to Alex, she was still Alex but different... If you would compare Lena and Alex, oh Rao she... she... I just don't have any words for it. Maybe it is better?

Nope, definitely not. But I have to give her a chance, this Alexandra. Yes, Lena called her Alexandra. Not Alex. Alexandra... Alex hates that name, truly hates it. This Alex, was less... relaxed. She kinda looked the same, short hair. Surprises me that it isn't long. I can't really talk about her clothes because think it or not... again some sort of medical clothes.

But from the first look, the Alex I see now. She is broken, like terrible things happened to her. Normally I am not good in seeing this clear. But Alex, this Alex has been hurt or is hurt. She doesn't want you to know it probably. However I can see past that protection...

And to say it as a matter of fact she has been through a lot. But this is for later, now I need to act happy. Smile, but I know that every protection I will put up. So they can't see me, the real me. Will just crumble back down, even though I don't know Lena that good... she... she broke almost every protection and read me, knew me for me. Not somebody I was acting as, trying to be some sort of god complex. No, she knew Kara Zor-el, the girl with feelings even though she didn't know my name or my history but she broke so many protections and gave herself room. Let me be better. Of course she didn't broke the ones she didn't know of, including the Supergirl one.

I feel people glaring at me, did I had to say something? The only logical thing to do was ask "What?" I probably say it a bit too irritated? Why on earth would I say it irritated... because Lena raises an eyebrow and says "She asks if you are alright? Kara, where is your head these past days. It is like you miss everything... or... wait, I am sorry."

"Huh, why are you sorry?" I ask confused

"Problems with your brain" she simply states and sighs "Forgot this could happen" she adds while looking down.

"To answer your question Alex, I feel terrible. Numb, like losing control. Nothing feels like me anymore, my mind is fighting with itself and it hurts."

"Alright..." Alex slowly starts... or Alexandra I have no idea anymore. "Okay... numb? You can't move?"

"Head yes, rest no. Absolutely not. It is also like all my senses are off or don't work. I can see, barely. Hearing is getting better. But feel or smell completely gone. And if I can't taste I am going to be mad. Truly mad."

I hear snickering next to me so I slowly turn my head from an Alex whom is standing in the door to a Lena next to me, who is truly holding back her laughter. She stops once she sees that I am staring at her "Sorry, who would have thought it Kara Luthor without her delicious food." she says a bit teasingly but luckily already stopped laughing.

I turn my head back to Alex who stepped closer, more like standing next to Lena, and started talking again "Probably everything is just resetting and your brain... We don't know what is happening to you. But we have to wait, now we should be happy that you are fully awake again. After 5 days."

"Okay good." Knowing if I nodded at that my brain, whom started to be less painful, probably would be again hurting like hell.

"If I could move, or use my arms I would have hugged you. But we all know now I can't so remember that I will hug you later again." A large smile creeps on Alex' face, which was before just neutral with a bit of concern. And she nods.

After a little bit of silence, nobody knowing what to says Lena breaks that silence "My mother and Lex are upstairs,I could get them but if you aren't up to it we could keep it silent that you are awake."

I think for a little time not knowing what to do so I evade the question with another question "Is Lex back?" knowing from the past conversation she said something about Lex and Europe.

"Yes, he is back. When he heard about you he immediately flew back. Mother and him are working on the location of Cadmus." I look confused to her "Ow, I forgot the mention. We think, like 75% sure, that that blonde girl is working for Cadmus."

I slowly nod, this time not regretting it. It hurts a little, but most of the pain isn't that... awful anymore. "That is... bad, yes. It is bad. But about that question some time ago about saying that I am awake, don't. I don't want them to see me this... vulnerable." It was the only excuse I had, what else was I supposed to say? 'Hey, Lena. No, I am not married to you. Your mother and brother or whatever they are, are maniac's. Xenophobic maniacs. So no thanks?'

I couldn't have said that Lena's answer was a bit... new, yes new. "But they are our family, they are as deep into this as we are. Kara, they care about you otherwise they wouldn't have helped you or Alexandra all those years ago. Kept you safe... so let them in, just like you did to me and your sister. I know maybe not everything is normal right now for you. I have no idea what kind of delusional things that girl could have put in your head. But they care about you."

"They mostly helped us because you two were in a relationship" Alex says, probably not thinking about it. But Lena her reaction was marvellous, if looks could kill Alex would be dead.

I sigh and say "Let them come."