(I know I haven't updated this in a while but not to worry I have lots of time on my hands now to write. I'm currently in Pennsylvania on a work crew for the next eight weeks living in a hotel. Not much to do around here so I got me a lap top and I'm writing like there is no tomorrow.)

Just like every time they were involved in any kind of a shooting the STAR team was placed on leave as the mission was reviewed by a board of inquiry to see if the team had acted out of their authority. However since the San Diego police department had incorporated the shoulder mounted camera's on each member the investigations never lasted more than a day. As soon as Rebecca had finished filling out the medical reports on Jill and the woman with the broken leg she headed out of the building and headed for the hospital to check on Jill.

There was no need for Jill to go to the hospital as Rebecca knew but it was the station policy. Jill was sitting on one of the many beds in the ER with a bandage wrapped tightly around her abdomen and looking a little more than annoyed.

"How are you feeling babe?" Rebecca asked sitting in a chair right next to Jill's bed.

"I'm fine, I just wish these damn doctors will let me get out of here."

Jill hated hospitals ever since her father died in one waiting for help after being stabbed in prison. He simply laid on the bed and bled to death. Jill never wanted to be in a hospital longer that was needed and even that was too long for her. Rebecca took Jill's hand and laced her fingers with hers as they waited for the doctor to come in. It was over an hour later when Jill was finally relieved and she quickly walked to Rebecca's car and climbed in.

"Are you hungry?" Rebecca asked.

"Yeah I am," Jill said. "They tried to make me eat that shit they call food at the hospital but I refused."

"Cant blame you there."

Rebecca pulled out of the parking lot and headed to the Arbys that was across the street and ordered as much food as she could afford. She liked to over order so that she had food back at her apartment to snack on or bring to work if she didn't want to make anything. Jill dove right into the bag of roast beef sandwiches as soon as the bag was in the car and had wolfed down one of them before Rebecca had even paid for them. Rebecca was a little more civilized when it came to eating and waited until they were home before reaching for one.

Before long they were sitting on the couch drinking cokes and watching The L Word on Showtime as Rebecca ran her hand over Jill's stomach. She lightly ran her fingers over the bandage then back over her bear skin. She was always afraid that one day She might lose Jill on one of their missions and today it had almost happened. She put her arms around Jill's waist and leaned her head against her lover's chest and hugged her tightly.

"Ouch!" Jill hissed tensing under Rebecca's arms. "Easy babe I'm a little tender there."

"I'm sorry." Rebecca whispered.

Rebecca loosened her grip around Jill's waist and looked up at her with misty eyes. Jill already knew what was wrong and leaned down and kissed her lover on the lips. Rebecca instantly started moving her hands under Jill's shirt and started massaging her breast's causing Jill to moan and smile. Jill let Rebecca have her way and took off her shirt and bra. Rebecca smiled as she started kissing her way up from Jill's stomach to her breasts then to her lips as she started to take off her shirt to match Jill.

Later that night they were laying completely nude and spent in each others arms running their fingers across each other's skin. Rebecca was beginning to fall asleep feeling as happy as she could ever remember feeling in her life. Jill was simply breathing in the sent of Rebecca's hair occasionally pressing her lips to the back of her head. As they lay their in their after sex bliss they were disturbed by a knock at the front door of Rebecca's apartment.

"Oh man." Rebecca groaned sliding out of Jill's arms and heading down the hallway forgetting to put any clothes on. "Who is it?"

"Rebecca, its Julie." Julie said in a cracked and slurred voice.

Rebecca cracked the door open just enough to lean her head out hiding her nude body behind the door. Julie was standing under the porch light with her head down and her blond hair falling in a mess around her face. Rebecca was about to say something about the time of night when Julie looked up in her eyes. Her eyes were red and puffy and what little make-up she was wearing was streaked down her face.

"Jesus, Julie are you ok?" Rebecca asked opening the door completely and taking the older woman's hand and pulling he in the apartment smelling the alcohol all over her.

Julie seemed not even to notice that Rebecca was standing there completely in the buff as she stood in the living room with her head lowered again. She was gently shacking in the summer heat and Rebecca knew exactly what that shake meant, her heart was broken. Rebecca led her to the couch and sat her down and quickly headed down the hallway back into her room and grabbed her robe off the hook next to the door.

"Who is it?" Jill asked as Rebecca started putting her robe over her shoulders.

"It's Julie. Something wrong, she is drunk and crying. I think she just broke up with someone."

Jill climbed out of the bed and threw on a pair of shorts and a t-shirt and followed Rebecca into the living room to find Julie with her head buried in her hands crying her heart out.

"Julie what's going on?" Jill asked sitting next to her and putting and arm around her shoulders.

"She was cheating on me." was all she said before crying even harder.

"Who was cheating on you?"

"My girlfriend," Julie cried. "Satsu. I caught her in bed with another woman."

This caught Jill and Rebecca by complete surprise. They never had any idea Julie was into women they always thought she was involved with Johnny. Looks like they were dead wrong. It took them both several minutes to calm the obviously distraught Julie down enough to hear her story. It turned out that Julie and Satsu were roommates back in collage and they both wanted to know what it was like to be with another woman. Their planned one night stand had turned into an almost eight year relationship and from what Julie told them they almost never had any problems. That is until Julie came home from work early and found Satsu asleep with another woman completely nude.

She didn't even bother waking her up, she simply left the house and headed to the bar near Rebecca's house and got herself shit-faced before the weight of the situation came down on her shoulders. She paid off her tab and stumbled down the street to Rebecca's. As she was telling her story she pulled out a picture of a beautiful Japanese woman sitting under a tree and smiling with love filled eyes. Just by looking at the picture Jill and Rebecca both knew that Julie was going to be devastated for a long time over her.

Julie leaned her head up against Jill's shoulder as she started sobbing again. Jill knew the pain she was feeling. She felt it the same night she walked away from Rebecca. That pain would not be easy to forget. Jill hugged her friend and teammate as Rebecca took her hands in hers.

"Want to know what's really fucked up?" Julie asked reaching into her pocket. "I just finished paying this off."

She pulled out a small cloth from her pocket and opened it reviling a small diamond ring. Rebecca covered her mouth as she looked at Jill and back at the ring.

"I was going to ask her to be my partner for life."

She drew back and threw the ring across the room and laid her head down in her hands again.

"You fucking bitch!" She yelled through her hands. "I loved you! I gave you my life and this is what happened."

Jill and Rebecca both wrapped their arms around Julie as she cried and screamed profanities to Satsu until she had passed out due to the alcohol. They laid her on the couch and put a spare pillow under her head before covering her with a blanket and down the hall to their room and crawled into the bed. Jill cuddled up next to Rebecca and held her tightly as they fell asleep without talking. So much had happened that day that they were both struggling to sort through it. But soon all of that would seem trivial to what lie ahead.