There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret- or life is yours to miss.
No other road
No other way
No day but today
Rent-No day but today
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Almost ten minutes later, she was back in her office getting ready for work. He was in the boys locker room, changing clothes, trying to get his mind off of his beautiful teacher, so he could concentrate on school.
They hadn't been caught. One of Shelby's colleagues had entered the auditorium, but Shelby and Jesse had separated fast enough. They had told the guy that she had forgotten her keys (which was the truth ) and that they had been sitting over set lists all night to get through ( which, as you know, wasn't really everything that had happened ). The teacher had believed them, knowing Shelby long enough to consider her totally professional.
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They went through the day, only seeing each other twice in the hallway. Later they had VA rehearsals and everything went as normal as it could, considering that they hadn't acted normal in quite a time, because of... well, let's call it daydreams. Nobody wondered why they avoided every single touch, even being close to each other wasn't an option.
Both knew they needed to talk about last night.
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Sex always means something. Some might say sex needs love, others might argue that sex is only supposed to feel good, make people forget, make them have fun, decrease stress.
Shelby and Jesse both weren't people that say that sex needs love.
Shelby described it as essential. It was her own way to forget about everything she lost, or never had, her way of calming down, her only way to ever feel close to somebody. She wasn't a woman to sleep around, fucking every guy that wants her (she wouldn't have time for anything else anymore !). She just wanted to feel alive, get her thoughts off of her unaccomplished dreams.
He was young, still trying to find a meaning to his life. He wanted to experience the pleasure sex gave him, over and over and over. He wasn't a guy who fucks every girl that comes around. He definitely wasn't the guy who fucks his teacher just to fuck her, to know how it feels. Sure that was one of the reasons too, but not the only one. Since puberty he had liked her. She had been the first woman who got him thinking about sex, but he had come to care about her in a deeper, more intimate way.
Shelby had always seen him as her star, the one who would get her lots of trophies, but she had started to think about him in an entirely different way, when he began to slightly flirt with her. She was an experienced woman, while the boys and girls in VA never realized he was flirting, she did. He did, too. He knew what he was doing, he knew it was wrong, but he couldn't stop himself.
But when the flirting wasn't enough anymore, he actually started to worry about himself. He should have never started this in the first place. So he tried to hide his upcoming feelings and avoided her.
She knew what that meant and, starting to feel it herself, she did the exact same thing. She didn't want to hurt him, or loose him in any way.
Now they had made a huge mistake. What started out as flirting between a student and a teacher, which didn't really mean anything to them, had become a serious attraction that had found it's climax in... well, their way too intimate encounter last night.
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This had become serious. No fun anymore, at least not while they were apart and thinking of it.
It should never have happened in the first place ! Why the hell did I do that ?
At this moment Jesse entered her office. Practice had been over for more than an hour, what was he still doing here ?
Oh, right that's why I did that ! Scanning him from his head to his feet, she remembered why she had flirted with him in the first place, why she had began to like him and why she had let him fuck her last night.
"We should talk !" Wow, sometimes he is more mature than I am !
"I know, you wanna have a seat ?"
"Sure." He seemed a little nervous, which was totally normal considering the fact that he still had all the memories of last night in his head, still fresh and still arousing him way too much.
"So, … Last night !... I … I don't know how to put this !... Maybe we should just try to... well, … forget about it ! It's not like it meant anything right ?" It felt weird saying this, she didn't feel so herself, so why should she want him to think so. But she was the adult in here, she needed to control the situation, she needed to end this before they make any more faults. What more faults could I make ? I mean, we had sex , right ? How are we supposed to get more intimate ? Maybe I should just stop thinking about it ! It's still wrong, just that we already had sex doesn't make it any better !
Jesse was hurt, knowing she didn't really mean what she said. She was just professional and he wanted her to act on her feelings. How could I ever think she would change ! Maybe I should just go and leave her to herself. She knows she wants me and still she thinks keeping our distance will make it better !
"Sure, whatever you say !", with that he left, anger written on his face as much as sadness and a glimpse of love, when he looked back at her before he closed the door behind him.
Shelby sank deeper in the chair, holding her hands to her head, feeling the tears build up inside of her. God, why can't this be easy ?
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TBC
A/N: Well, that's it for today ! Wow it's only 15:12 here ^^ I can't remember writing a story while the sun was still up ^^ Ok, bye then, hope you liked this chapter, REVIEWS would be nice !