The clock is now 01:48 and I'm tired(Or do you say the time is??? It sounds more logic. The time is 02:08 now). Still I wanted to update my story to all of you silly heads who's still awake. Go to bed!!! (After you have read this story, of course)
Concerning the pairing votes; here are the results so far:
KiriharaxMarui - 7
SanadaxKirihara - 6 (Currently listening to music from Tenimyu. "Challenge") Love the beginning of that song. Agree?
NiouxKirihara - 3
You can continue to vote until this Friday 06.07. Votes after 24.00 (my time, cause I'm evil) will not be counted.
Now that that's settled, let's continue.
Warning: Angst, tears, mature content and rape.
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis. I do however own Sawada. I created him by throwing everything I hate into a lump of mud. I feel like God. Scratch that last part; I AM GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer2: I do not know nor do I have any claim or relation to God. I am also the furthest from being God as possible.
Beta: May-Linn87. She complained about my grammar. Writing then instead of than. Well, forgive me, but it's frickin' hard to write on a laptop. All the blame for this story's grammar faults will go to my beta. Maybe I should get another one. runs from one pissed off beta-writer
Sorry, I won't waste anymore of your time. Enjoy!
I shivered as I felt something wet trail down my ear.
Sawada chuckled at my reaction and continued, now licking my throat.
"I've wanted to do this to you for a while now" he breathed huskily.
He suddenly pulled harshly at my shirt and a ripping sound told me that it had ripped.
"No" I whimpered in disgust as Sawada bit down on my nipple.
"No?" he asked evilly. "I thought I had explained to you what happened when you defy me"
'You did more than just explain' I thought bitterly.
I wanted to shout it at him, but held my tongue.
I knew that if I struggled he'd become violent and I still remember the pain from last time.
So I just closed my eyes and let him continue.
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"Games set and match won by Niou-san. Game count; 6 games to 3"
I cursed under my breath when the second year loudly announced my loss.
"I must say, it wasn't exactly a difficult match..." I heard Niou boast to Yagyuu, just loud enough for me to hear it.
"Stupid pigtail head" I spat in his direction.
"Akaya" I heard a deep voice say behind me.
I breathed in and turned around. And felt something hit my left cheek with such a force that threw me to the ground.
Sanada.
I lay on the ground and looked up at him.
"Losing is not accepted here at Rikkaidai, not even practice games," his voice thundered over me.
I decided to not care and closed my eyes.
My head hurt and I felt my cheek start to swell.
I opened my eyes and saw Sanada still standing over me.
I realized that he had continued to speak and was now angry because I hadn't paid attention.
"Akaya, listen to me when I speak to you-" he began but stopped when I stood up from the ground.
"Sorry" I told him, sarcasm nearly dripping from my voice "I don't listen to bullshit".
I heard the others around me gasp, but paid then no attention.
"I'll be leaving early today" I told a shocked Sanada and left the courts.
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It was difficult to not fall asleep in class.
I hadn't exactly gotten much sleep lately.
I gently touched my cheek and cursed. Damn Sanada for putting another bruise on me.
Like I didn't get enough of them yesterday.
The thought of yesterday made me shiver with fear and disgust.
After hearing about the break-in in Yukimura's hospital room, I immediately started looking for Sawada.
Not knowing where to find him, I had roamed the streets for almost two days until I found some clues.
I had showed up at his apartment and he was, needles to say, surprised.
"My, my, if it isn't my little lost kitten" he had laughed at me.
Just seeing him had made me weak and scared.
"You heard about Yukimura right?" he stated more than asked.
Feeling my courage leave me I had only nodded.
"Become mine and I will leave him and that redhead alone" he whispered into my ear and pulled me inside.
I sighed and tried to forget everything. I looked at the blackboard and felt like laughing.
What is the point in this anyway?
Living in a world where it is so much pain, and no pleasure?
The laughter kept bubbling up my throat and I couldn't silence it anymore.
"Kirihara-kun?" the teacher looked questioningly at me when I burst out laughing.
"Kirihara-kun, would you mind telling me what's so funny?" she asked strictly.
"Everything" I said between laughing.
"Everything?" the teacher asked.
My classmates looked all looked at me, some with worry in their eyes and others with annoyance.
It all made me laugh louder, seeing those stupid people looking at me.
I continued to laugh loud when I felt another urge fill me.
The urge to cry.
Why was I laughing anyway? The reason people laugh is to forget the hardness of their lives, but what if you don't deserve it?
I kept thinking about my useless life when I felt tears forming in my eyes and started to trail down my cheeks.
"Kirihara" I heard the teacher gasp, but I couldn't see anything.
I started to panic as my sight faded, and soon I was alone in the darkness.
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A sudden light made me blink.
I looked confused around me, not knowing where I was.
"Akaya" I heard and turned towards the voice.
There sat my teammates, all of them looking worriedly at me.
"Where am I?" I asked groggily
"In the schools infirmary" Jackal answered
"What happened?" I asked more to myself than them
"That's what we'd like to know" Marui said "Your homeroom teacher told us that you suddenly started laughing loudly and soon after you cried like a baby and then you fainted".
So that's what happened…embarrassing.
I sat up in the bed and massaged my face and winced when I reached my left cheek. It was still swollen and I was sure that I had a blue eye.
I gently massaged my cheek and shivered at the dull pain.
"Is there something bothering you, Akaya?" Yanagi asked worriedly
"No" I answered, trying to sound normal. "I just haven't gotten any sleep lately"
"And why is that?" Sanada said softly, obviously feeling guilty because he hit me.
"I'm having nightmares"
Nobody asked what I was having nightmares about.
They all knew. At that moment the school nurse interrupted us.
"You're awake? Good." She turned to the others.
"If you wouldn't mind, I'd like to talk to Kirihara-kun alone for a bit".
They left hesitantly and I turned to the nurse.
She coughed gently and sat down on a chair.
"We have all been informed about what happened to you some weeks ago" she started.
"I would like to know if your behaviour has anything to do with that".
"I'm fine" I lied
"No, you are not fine"
I was a little taken aback by her stern voice.
"I'm just having bad dreams," I muttered.
"Listen" the nurses voice was softer now "I now that your doctor recommended that you should visit a psychologist. After hearing about you, the principal decided that you should see one too".
"I don't need a stupid head shrink" I moaned childishly at her.
"Let me rephrase that last bit. If you don't go to a psychologist, you will get suspended".
"What" I croaked out.
"The principal and the teachers think of you as a possible threat to the students here. If you choose not to see one, we will suspend you for the rest of the year.
And that means no tennis either".
The nurse rose from the seat. "Think about it. You can go now" she said and left.
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I opened the infirmary door and went out in the hallway, not really knowing where I went.
I found myself in the schoolyard, and decided to go home.
'No point in overstaying my welcome here' I thought bitterly.
"Akaya" I heard someone shout.
I turned to see the other's running towards me.
I continued to walk to the school gates, not really wanting to see them right now.
"Akaya, why are you going home? School's not over yet" Marui asked.
"It is for me," I snarled back at him.
"Watch your tongue" Niou snarled back.
I ignored him. I didn't even snarl at him.
"Listen" I said angrily. "The nurse told me that if I don't see a fucking psychologist, I'd get suspended for the rest of the year".
If I had been in a lighter mood, I might have laughed at their shocked faces.
"But why would they suspend you? Isn't that a little harsh?" Jackal said.
"Apparently I am a danger to the other students," I muttered.
Nobody said anything, and I felt the anger boil up again.
"I'm going" I said and started walking.
"Wait" Marui said and gripped my hand.
His hand was clutching mine hard. I shuddered as I remembered Sawada'sstrong hands holding mine as I helplessly tried to escape.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" I shouted and shoved Sawada away.
I blinked when I recognized the person lying on the ground as Marui and not Sawada.
I looked at Marui's hurt eyes.
"I'm sorry" I mutterer weakly and ran away.
As I ran I heard someone shouting for me to come back, but I only ran faster.
I clutched my chest and breathed heavily.
Looking around I didn't recognize the place.
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When I came home it was already dark.
"Where have you been?" I jumped when someone shouted.
"Mom?"
"Yes. I have been so worried for you".
I blinked surprised.
"Aren't you on a business trip?"
"I decided to end it early. I got the call from school" I could hear the nervousness in her voice.
Was she scared of me too?
"I have set up a meeting with Dr. Akiyama tomorrow. He is one of the best and will surely help you"
"But I don't need any help" I yelled angrily.
"Don't get so mad" she spoke softly to me. "I know I haven't been here for you, but that will change now. I have quit my job as a spokeswoman and started working as a secretary. So I won't leave you alone anymore"
"But you hate to work in offices" I mumbled weakly.
"You are more important to me than any kind of jobs" mom said and hugged me tightly.
"I will always be on your side," she whispered into my ear and I started to sob, hugging her back, not wanting to let go.
It's weird, you know? That every time a door is closed another one is opened.
I must admit that I was scared when Sawada forcefully shut the door to my childhood.
But standing here doing a simple thing as hugging my mom and crying my heart out, I couldn't help but see the slight crack in the door which led to happiness.
I decided that I wanted to end this chapter like this. Poor Kirihara can't be sad or scared ALL the time. I'm starting to feel unoriginal.
He cries way too much for his own good
Please tell me what you think..!!!