Waking Up In Weirds Vill
Chapter 6
By: ShadowsOfTheHeart
"When you're caught in a lie and you got nothing to hide when you've got nowhere to run and got nothing inside"
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho
In the end I couldn't find the strength or the nerves to walk into that gym and face Lucy. I went there, I had my hand on the door, I could hear them inside telling Lucy that I wasn't worth her kindness or trouble. She never defended me like usual, she never said a world, so I walked away from that gym and kept walking until I lost sight of the school and the time.
It was getting dark now, and cold, it will be officially fall in about a week or so, dad's birthday is in the fall, October 10th, and it was always our day. I shivered and looked up at the darkening sky, how long have I been walking around without thinking about others.
I crossed my arms over my chest and took in a breath as I tried not to cry, it was painful to have her mad at me, it was painful knowing that our normal everyday life, that I was finally getting use to was going to change, all because "I couldn't say no" I took a step back, I was off balance and almost fell over. I shivered again, and again, as I looked down at my feet.
Why do I drive people away like that? She did nothing wrong and yet, I snapped like it was her fault, when it was mine.
I snapped.
"Miss Jones?" I snapped my head up and turned away at the same time, I didn't want to see him.
"Come on, let me take you home, it's getting dark, and cold" his voice was sweet and kind, it was not the same as in the school, it was like it he actually met it, but on a deeper lever that I couldn't really understand. It was like he was generally concerned about me, and not playing.
"I'm fine" I lied trying not to turn back around.
"Jones you are not fine" and there it was, the concern was gone and replaced with a type of cool annoyance at irked me.
"I am" I snapped turning and glaring into those green eyes, which seem to shimmer very mystical in the setting sun.
"I can see that you are not, now please, you'll catch a cold" he moved this time, I dropped my hands from my chest.
"You're right I'm not fine" he stopped, his face didn't changed but I could see the slight shock in his eyes. "I haven't been fine" I added looking up towards the sky. "Why are you here?" I looked back down at him.
I could see him thinking it over, "I was walking home when I seen you here, looking lost" he held out his hand to me "Let's go home, your family is probably worried"
I looked at him and at his hand "I can get there myself" I stared to walked, I walked right passed his hand.
"Like I said I'm also on my way home, so I have to go that way" he added just as a passed, the concern was gone out of his voice, and he was back to being his normal almost rude kind self.
I never stopped walking "I heard you"
The walk home was creepy to say the least, he was walking at least 4 pases behind me; he never spoke but I know he was watching me, his eyes burning the back of my body. It was like he was scolding me just by looking at me.
It was seriously getting on my nervous.
"Would you please stop that!" I stressed turned around stopping in the process.
"Humm, I haven't been doing anything" his answer was smooth his face was normal, his eyes somehow, where in-between amused and annoyed.
It was almost cold.
"That, looking at me like that" I spun back around not wanting to meet his eyes that have been looking at me, with a, I don't know, just it was creepy.
"I haven't been looking at you any different than any other day" again that smooth almost sickening voice, it bemuses me sometimes how clam and charming he can be. I started to walk again it was getting darker out, and I was getting hungry.
"Miss Jones, my mother would like you and your family to attend her wedding" that was out of nowhere.
"Okay, I'm sure Sakura would like that, odd time to ask" I stated as I continued to walk.
"Is it? You seem angry I was only changing the light in your mood" His voice changed for a second, I don't know what tone it was, it was odd, deep, and just I don't know, it was a little scary.
I still walked and clutched my arms close to my stomach, trying not to show I was cold or scared in that tiny second of his voice. "Not so much angry, but I guess sad" I answered, I never really hid my emotions, my dad always told me that trapping your emotions will lead to loneliness and separation. When I was a kid I thought it meant my body would separate, I was scared I would die if I didn't share my thought or feelings, it made for some interesting days.
"You should talk with Hinote-san then" I hear his pase quicken, I stopped and turned to him, we were in font to my house, I had just notice when he spoke. He stopped fast almost off balance; I don't think he was expecting me to turn around so fast.
"In time, you missed your house" I pointed out.
"Just making sure you made it all the way home safely" was his answer, reasonable and smooth.
"You live next door, nothing will happen within the 40 or so feet it will take me to get my door" I turned to the path that when to the front door of my house, it was fully dark now, the lights where on, there was no car in the drive way, telling me Sakura wasn't home yet, that leaves Lucy and Hojo.
My body didn't move, I willed it too, but nothing.
"It may take less then five minutes for you to walk from my house to yours, but right now it looks to me you could be standing here gathering up courage to face her, that can be dangerous." His voice was soft yet stern, and there was that challenge again, hidden under his soft tones and kindness. I turned my head to him and raised my eye brow at his answer.
I didn't know how to respond.
The wind blew a cold breeze making me shiver, and looked away from him. I place one foot in front of the other forcing myself, willing myself to move to my house, to that door, where Lucy was, angry and hurt over me.
"Shit" I swore feeling pressure on my heart "This bights, I feel so stupid right now, scared to go to my own house, I messed up, and now" I stopped and looked back at him, his eyes, they hid so much, he never spoke about his feeling, always kind, always ready to help, but never ready to share. Always thinking, always watching, always taking two steps when everyone else was taking one.
"You should tell her that" his swords seems to push me forwards I moved without knowing,
"I know, tell your mother we'll be glad to be at her wedding" He smiled and waved while I turned my head back and run to the door, I have no idea why his words made me move, or why I'm so scared.
"Face your problems head on", something my dad has always told me to do.
I took in a breath as I opened the door and walked in. There was no sound right away, but as I shut the door I could hear the TV, and the water running in the kitchen. Out of habit I knew where she was, it was seven, her drama was on. I never stopped, I went right to the living room, and there she was, sitting in front of the couch, arm over the cushions, eyes on the TV, in groused in her show.
"Lucy, I... we need to talk" I moved to the couch and stood in front of her and the TV.
"We already did, move I'm missing my show" she glared at me, in her eyes was anger, not a nice look for someone who is always smiling.
"No, what I said, I'm sorry, very, very sorry, I should have told you sooner how unhappy I have been in that club, and I never meant for it to come out like it did." I dropped to my knees and looked right in her eyes. "You have all rights to be made at me, and angry, but I can't stand you being hurt over something I did." She didn't say anything, I took off my glasses "You have all rights to hit me as well" I placed my glasses on the floor, she looked at me and moved, I closed my eyes waiting for her hit.
But it never came, instead I found myself in a tight hug, I was shock and confused. "Lucy?"
"Silly, I'm not mad because you want to quit, I'm mad because you thought you couldn't tell me, we're sisters, I want you to tell me. I have been sitting here worried, you weren't home, and no one knew where you where. Holly-chan, please don't hid things for me, ever," she pulled back and looked me in the eyes, I smiled.
"I promise"
"Good, now moved I'm missing my show" I burst out laughing and pushed aside and sat next to her, she giggled as I threw my arm around her shoulder and settle back to finish watching the show.
"So did badly in Math again" she stated looking over at me, I sighed and in laughter and pushed up agents her.
"Horrible" and we laughed again.