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Chapter 5:Of Requests and Epiphanies

"It wasn't a request, it was an order. Marry me Isabella, or you the consequences can be severe." He commanded once more, his voice rising a few octaves higher.

And how does one reply to that?

Tears were now freely flowing down my face.

How was I supposed to answer such a question?

"I don't know what to say," I told him honestly.

"Say you'll be mine. I promise I'll love you everyday of forever, I'll worship the very ground you walk on, I'll treat you like a queen and you'll never want for anyone or anything else! Please just say yes!" he told me desperately.

"But why me, I m no one special. We're both on opposite ends of a scale. Your Edward-freakin-Masen, billionaire extraordinaire, the third person on the list of the most eligible bachelors of Washington, heir to Cullen&Masen Co. Whereas me? I m no one, from nowheres-ville Forks, I m just an employee at your company. You can obviously do so much better! So why me?" I asked him perplexed.

He looked at me, his eyes wide as if he was in shock, "You don't see yourself clearly, do you?" he asked, it was clearly a rhetorical question.

"Do you have any idea how special you are? Do you have any idea what I see when I look at you? You obviously don't see the way me and every other man who sees you seems to be drooling over you! Please say yes Isabella, please say you'll marry me!"

I looked into his eyes and all I could see in them was desperation and panic.

Could I really mean so much to a person?

Was it possible that he was so in love in with me?

Could – or should – marry him?

What if this was just some crush or maybe he was just feeling lust?

His thumb was still stroking my cheek lovingly.

But could I say no?

What about my dad and Alice?

He had clearly stated that if I were to decline he would have them hunted down, and no doubt hurt! Could I have that happening on my conscious?

Was accepting his proposal the right thing to do?

Was I ready for such a commitment?

I really didn't have much of a choice on this, but was I willing to tie myself to someone like that?

"Do you really love me? I mean are you sure that this isn't just some crush, passing fancy or overpowering lust? Are you sure that it's love? Are you sure that you wont fall out of love with me?" I asked him, trying to look at his face through my tear driven eyes.

"I m sure that this is nothing but love, I truly love you Isabella. If there were some way for me to show you I would, I guess time alone will show you!" there was nothing but strong conviction in his voice.

"You really, really love me?" I asked him for reassurance.

"Yes, and I plan on using the rest of my life proving it to you. If there were anyway for me to show you how much you mean to me I would, but please don't ask me to stay away. That would truly kill me, please just say that you'll have me!" he said to me desperately.

"Can I please think about it? Can you please give me some time? Please?" I begged.

"Isabella I m no-" he started to say but I immediately cut him off.

"I m not saying no Edward, I m just asking you to give me a few moments by myself. This is a huge life altering decision, so please can I please have a few hours by myself, just to think about it and to get my head around it? Please?" I asked him desperately.

I looked at him through my teary eyes and I could see the uncertainty clearly written all over his face and eyes.

"Please Edward, please." I begged desperately, averting my eyes and instead staring at the ground.

"You have no idea what it does to me seeing you crying and pleading like this," he told me his eyes seeming pained.

"Please," I whispered pleadingly once more.

Lifting my head to look into his eyes I was surprised to see they seemed to be pained yet certain of whatever decision he had come up with.

I held my breath waiting for the final answer.

"Are you sure?" he asked me one last time.

I only nodded at him, not sure if my voice would be able to support me.

He slowly stood up, pulling my up with him.

Once he was standing he cradled my face in his hands and placed a lingering kiss on my forehead.

"Meet me at Starbucks – the one in front of your apartment – at exactly 2 pm sharp tomorrow with your final answer! Please! And I can promise you that if you were to not show up or if you were to decline something disastrous may happen to your father or your best friend." I was once again amazed at the way he was threatening me, as if he was only stating what type of shoes he was wearing.

Could he really be so cold hearted?

"Thank you," I whispered, my voice coming out broken.

"Anything for you my Isabella," he stated firmly, as he once again kissed my forehead.

I was in an extremely numb state as Edward led me to my car and seated me in before closing the door.

I didn't seem to remember the ride home, or my normal get-ready-for-bed routine until I was in my bed and awaken out of my trance.

I was glad that Alice wasn't home yet or she would have definitely asked me millions of questions and I didn't feel like acting normal for anyone, because I certainly felt anything but.

As I lay in bed thinking about everything that happened today, it all seemed unreal to me as though I was in some book or movie. I half expected Edward to call me and say that it was all a joke and that he didn't mean any of it, but I knew that it wasn't possible, this was my life!

Part of me screamed at me to call the police and have him reported, after all in every movie and book I knew with situations like this the same thing would always happen.

Person gets threatened, the one threatening threatens that if he were to be reported to the police something bad would happen to the person being threatened, person being threatened would somehow tell the police and then the one being threatened would live happily ever after.

But I knew exactly why I couldn't call the police, not because I was incapable but because I didn't want to.

Because I had seen something in his eyes, the same something that was in my eyes after I heard about my moms' suicide.

It had taken years of therapy sessions with my shrink to get rid of the ancient sadness in my eyes!

And that's exactly what I had seen in Edward's eyes today, there was ancient sadness and hurt in his eyes.

Some part of me knew that there was a broken and hurting part of Edward and I ached for his pain, but at the same time some sick part of me felt glad that he also felt pain since it was only fair!

About three things I was now absolutely certain

Some part of Edward Masen was hurting, and it was obviously eating him up inside.

I was going to help him get rid of the pain and sadness I had seen in his eyes, no matter how much pain he put me through. Maybe after he was healed he would realize that he really didn't love me nor does he want me.

And I now knew what my answer was going to be for tomorrow.

And with that I fell into a restless and fitful sleep.

Hello – Evanescence

Playground school bell rings, again

Rainclouds come to play, again

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Hello, I m your mind giving you someone to talk to… Hello…

If I smile and don't believe

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don't try to fix me I m not broken

Hello, I m the lie living for you so you can hide…

Don't cry

Suddenly I know that I m not sleeping

Hello, I m still here, all that's left

Of yesterday…

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I know you guys hate me for living a cliffi again!

But rest assured the next chapter will answer the question!

i know that this is the shortest chapter yet, but the next chappie will make up for it! i promise!

And if you might have noticed this story is 'M' rated, and starting from next chappie it will start living upto its rating.

If you guys don't like to read suicidal themes and angst I would advise you to stop reading this story right now!

And the next chappie will be Edwards POV! So that sould keep you all in suspense!

Since lessons have started today I'm not sure when the next update will be, but I'll try to update asap!

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