Where do we go from here? Chap.6
The next morning Kanda awoke to find Allen had been up for hours as he sat up and stretched his back was sore from sleeping on the hay "Why didn't you wake me sooner now we've lost time baka moyashi" he scowled as Allen turned from where he was looking out of the barn at the sunrise "I know you were up late last night and I know how you get if you don't get your beauty rest." He said laughing as Kanda's eyes narrowed as he snarled "What was that?" But Allen just smiled "Its fine Kanda it's still early don't get upset you needed the rest. You were exhausted and I know you're worried about Alana." Kanda face softened and he sighed "Does it show that bad?" Allen walked over to him and sat down feeling he could tell Kanda the truth "It's actually written all over your face." Kanda realized his mind was in two different places and he had to get it back in the game at hand or he could get him and Allen seriously hurt "Okay moyashi I hear you." Allen stood up and stretched "Well then now that you're up maybe we should go check out that place the man told us about last night." Kanda stood moving his shoulders around because they were stiff "Fine let's go we've wasted enough time resting here." Sounding like the old Kanda Allen chuckled as they set out to search the area the man told them about last night.
Back at the Asian branch Alana had made herself comfortable out in the gardens and she took out a book. Chevi had informed her that Lavi told her Allen and Kanda had been on a mission for two weeks now and no one had heard from them. She couldn't help but worry even though she and Kanda were no longer together it didn't mean she had stopped loving him. She hoped they were okay because she didn't want to have to explain to their child that its father was dead or missing. Opening the book she tried to occupy her time but her mind kept wandering back to what had transpired between them that day in the inn when he said what he did. As she thought back she realized that what he said and the look in his eyes were completely different. He had such pain and confusion in his eyes when he said it. Thinking to herself maybe she had acted hastily telling him to get out because he had hurt her with his words. He did have a hard time verbally communicating with people and maybe he had never had to tell anyone the way he felt. Maybe he was just used to being alone. She could have kicked herself in the ass at that point realizing he wasn't going to change overnight. But if what Chevi told her was true and that he did love her then why were they so bad at communicating with each other? She had told him that day what she wanted and he just replied coldly. But she never did give him a chance to explain why he said what he did. She was beginning to think maybe this thing between them was one big mix up and if anything happened to him right now she would regret it for the rest of her life. She swore to herself when he made it back she would tell him about the baby. Chevi was right on that point he did need to know and it wasn't fair to him for her not to tell him.
Days turned into weeks, weeks into months and still no one had heard from Allen or Kanda. The Black Order sent out a message to all exorcists and finders to keep an eye out for them. Their own finder had never met up with them in India. After being questioned when he returned he explained he had waited for a week at the place they were supposed to meet but hey never showed. Everyone was getting worried and thinking the worst. Komui was at his wits end not knowing what had happened to them and it wasn't like Kanda not to check in.
Alana feared the worst and she was in a deep depression thinking Kanda and Allen were either hurt severely or worse. She rarely slept and Chevi was beginning to worry about her and the baby being at a critical point where she could easily miscarry from stress. She didn't know what to do for her friend except be with her and watch out for her. Her little tummy now had a small baby bump on it. Barely anything anyone who didn't know her would notice but those close to her could see it right away. It was the not knowing that was driving Alana crazy she had even asked if she could go look for them but was declined in her request. The Black Order didn't want any more exorcists out there just in case there was something killing them or capturing them.
It was three weeks later and Alana tried to calm herself with meditation, she figured since it helped Kanda focus then maybe it would help her. She sat in the garden meditating when all of a sudden Chevi came running in out of breath "ALANA THEY ARE HERE!" Alana looked up startled and surprised "Who?" Chevi was overly excited as she blurted out "ALLEN AND KANDA!" Her heart started to beat faster as she felt a calmness come over her body knowing that he was now there and alive. Looking back at Chevi she smiled a grateful smile as she watched Chevi turn and yell over her shoulder as she ran down the hall "COME ON I KNOW YOU WANT TO SEE HIIIIM!" Alana sat there as she gathered her thoughts of what she was going to say to him. It had been two and a half months since they had talked.
Chevi ran up to Allen throwing her arms around his neck "ALLLLEN" He grinned a startled grin as he then smiled brightly "Chevi it's good to see you." She looked up at Kanda who was searching the hall and grinned "Hello Kanda she's in the gardens down the hall, second door on the right." He looked at Chevi and nodded "Thank you." he almost ran down the hall as Chevi looked back at Allen confused "He's in a hurry." Allen chuckled "Well he's a man on a mission right now and I don't think he's going to take no for an answer."
Alana still gathering her thoughts was just about to get up when she felt someone behind her and she froze staring straight ahead. "A-Alana" he said softly and she lowered her gaze to the ground "Hello Kanda" she said in almost a whisper as he walked closer to her and she felt his hands come around her waist as they stopped on the small baby bump "Onna" he said softly as she turned her face to look over her shoulder and she smiled a cheeky smile "Surpriiiise I'm pregnant" He raised a brow at her and grinned slightly "Hai that you are." Then he kissed her softly on the lips and she felt every emotion she had felt while he was missing come to the surface as tears began to flow down her cheeks. Kanda leaned back and his eyes widened at the sight of her tears "Uh….Alana" he thought he did something wrong "What's the matter?" She got up on her knees and turned to face him, taking his face in her hands she smiled softly as her tears fell "I-I thought I'd lost you." Kanda relaxed and exhaled slightly "No I wouldn't die knowing I had to apologize to you for being so stupid." She smiled brightly and leaned closer to his face "Kanda" she said softly through a soft smile before placing her lips on his giving him a gentle soft kiss then hugging him tightly as he wrapped his arms around her and whispered in her ear "K-Koishiteru" she scrunched her brows together and leaned back and looked at him "What does that mean?" He grinned a slight grin and leaned closer to her face and looked into her eyes " It means I love you" and as he went for her lips with his he whispered "Onna" and before his lips could cover hers "I love you too Kanda." Kanda smiled into the kiss because he thought he had genuinely lost her forever but to hear her say that it made him truly happy.
Allen and Chevi were standing at the doorway and Chevi turned to Allen "Aww that's so sweet." Allen smiled that everything had worked out for Kanda. He had to admit he thought Alana might throw him out again but he told Kanda not to get mad or upset but just to say what was in his heart. But to Allen's surprise Alana had missed him also and she wasn't mad anymore. He turned to Chevi who had her arm around his shoulder and smiled "Yeah I'm glad they're talking" Just then Allen noticed the close proximity of his and Chevi's lips as she turned her head to look at him and before he knew it she leaned in and kissed him. His eyes widened and he felt a strange feeling as she held onto him but he didn't pull away from her. It was like he enjoyed being kissed by her and it was different then the time Road had kissed him. Chevi's lips were warm and soft and he liked her and he had to admit she was a very attractive girl. Chevi leaned back as Allen's cheeks turned pink and he shyly looked away "Uhhhhh I don't think we should tell your brother about that." He said nervously as she just giggled at his shyness and smiled "That's what I like about you Allen you're very modest." Allen turned to her and smiled "I like you too Chevi." It was then Allen realized he liked her a lot more than he let on remembering when she left the Order to be transferred he was sad and he missed her a lot when she first left. But right now he came to the conclusion he had always missed her but he had shoved it down to hide it from everyone. In his room late at night he would find himself thinking about her, the way her hair smelled, the way she smelled after she had just took a shower, her smile, her laugh, everything about her. Looking over at her now grinning like an idiot at Kanda and Alana he felt a strange feeling in his stomach, like it was being tied in knots. 'Could this be how Kanda feels about Alana?' He thought as he just stared at her and when she glanced back to him she saw the strange look on his face "Allen are you okay?" He then shook his head "Uh….yeah…I'm….fine."
Kanda leaned back from Alana and his gaze lowered to the ground as he spoke in a low tone "I have been such a fool Alana." Then looking back into her eyes she saw the look of fear in his as he spoke again "I almost let you walk out of my life forever because I was too proud and stupid to tell you how I really felt." He gently placed his hands on her upper arms "You are my life and I can't live without you." Shaking his head he sternly corrected himself "NO! I don't want to live without you." Lifting his eyes to hers with a very determined look in them "Ask me anything you want and I'll try to explain it to you." She just smiled softly at him "Uhhh first Kanda I think you should wash up." He hadn't even realized he still was covered in blood from the many fights he and Allen had been in. He was so concerned with getting to her that he hadn't washed up 'No wonder people were diving out of my way on the train.' Smirking to himself 'I just thought it was my mesmerizing personality' Allen also looked a little disheveled so the girls pointed them to the showers post haste. Chevi and Alana had waited for about thirty minutes before they went to check on them and as they opened the door to Alana's room she snickered some at the sight before her and Chevi. Kanda was sprawled out across the bed with Allen curled in a ball next to him. As the two woman stood there and smiled "Kanda looks so cute when he sleeps" Alana said and as she did the toes on his left foot began to move around. Chevi chuckled staring at Allen as he snored some then out of the blue Allen's hand smacked Kanda in the face as he said "Ba-Kandaaaa" furiously. Kanda's hand went directly to Allen's as he grabbed it and threw it off "BAKA MOYASHIIII!" he said angrily in a low growl then they both turned away from each other with their backs together neither one ever opening an eye.
Alana sighed "Well that moment was ruined." Chevi just laughed "Yeah they even fight in their sleep." Turning to her friend Alana's stomach growled "Ready to get some dinner?" Chevi nodded as they both walked to the cafeteria leaving the guys to rest for a while. An hour later they returned to the room with food for the guys and when they opened the door they both stared at the two guys on the bed and had to hold their laughter in. Kanda sprawled out on his back again but Allen had turned and now his feet were over Kanda's stomach and his head was hanging off the side. Standing there both girls sighed "Awww" at the sight before then again. Just then Allen's legs began to move and Kanda put his hand on top of them slowly "Moyashi quit moving" he said softly, not grouchy as he yawned and turned his head to the side and Allen answered sleepily "Sssssh… Kanda…. go to sleep." The girls realized they had spent almost two straight months together and somehow they had learned to get along better. Chevi woke Allen up as Alana went over and woke Kanda up and as he tried to sit up he realized Allen's feet were on his stomach "DAMN IT ALLEN MOVE YOUR FEET!" He yelled still half asleep and everyone stopped what they were doing and stared wide eyed at him. 'Oh my god he just called me Allen' Allen thought but no one said anything as Kanda rubbed his eyes trying to focus on sitting up. He was exhausted it had been a long two months and he had fought vigorously to kill every akuma he saw. More like taking out his frustration on them well at least that's the way Allen saw it. It had helped Kanda he guessed work through everything he was facing and now he was a little more at ease since he had shown up here and Alana had missed him almost as much as he missed her. But as Allen sat there wide eyed staring at Kanda that he had called him by his name he almost missed him calling him short stack or moyashi. It was part of their relationship and it wasn't the same hearing his name come out of Kanda's mouth after the countless times he told him to call him that in a fit of anger. It didn't last long as Kanda turned to Allen and raised a brow at Allen's widened eye's and opened mouth "Oi moyashi did you hear me move your feet!" Kanda growled at him and he smiled "A-Alright Kanda" Kanda noticed the grin on Allen's face figuring Kanda hadn't realized he'd called him Allen "Oi what's with the stupid grin?" Allen just smiled "Uhhh nothing." Shaking his head in annoyance Kanda sat up and looked at Alana and she gave him a stern look as if to say 'Be nice' seeing that Kanda just gave her a slight scowl as if to say 'I got it.' The girls handed the guys their food and both dug in like they hadn't ate in a month. When Allen finished he smiled at Chevi "Can you walk me back to the cafeteria I'm not quit full yet." She laughed and smiled widely "I didn't think you would be." Kanda just shook his head because they had spent most of their time in India trying to appease Allen's appetite which meant sometimes Kanda would not eat because he would give it to Allen so his stomach wouldn't keep him up.
Chevi held her hand out and Allen took it as she pulled him off the bed. Kanda noticed as they walked to the door she hadn't let go of it yet and he smirked 'The moyashi has a girlfriend, he just doesn't know it yet' He thought as he looked down and continued eating as Alana crawled across the bed, stretched out on her back then closed her eyes. Kanda's eyes wondered up her body as he reached over and sat the bowl of noodles on the table next to the bed. Then he turned around and laid his head on her stomach and he said something in Japanese "Aneta ni aitai desu" she lifted up some and sweetly asked "What did you say?" he lifted his head some and smirked at her "I said I want to see you." She sighed slightly as she looked at this man who's demeanor at times could be so cold and she wondered what kind of father he would be. But as she watched him place his hand gently on her stomach and slightly smile as he stared at it she figured that deep inside Kanda's cold heart there had to be some kindness and love. He then turned to look up at her "Onna we have some things to discuss." She raised a brow at him "Oookay what do you want to talk about." He seemed in a very talkative mood tonight as he moved up closer to her face "I don't want to hold anything back from you anymore. I think you need to know the truth about me." She put her hand up to his face and caressed his cheek "Alright I'm listening."
Kanda began to explain to her about his past and the second exorcist program. He tried to explain it the best he could about what had happened to him. Then he explained to her about Alma. When he had finished she sat there staring blankly at him for a moment. Then she began to speak in a sort of frightened voice "Oookay so you were experimented on when you were younger." She then reached up and ran her hand down her face to her chin "Uh Kanda don't you think you should have told me this sooner?" He shrugged his shoulders "I didn't think it was relevant at the time and to tell you the truth my mind wasn't on my past when I was with you." He looked at her body and raised a brow at her and she sighed slightly. This was a lot for her to take in but she now understood his attitude a little more and why he was the way he was. He seemed to have had so much loss and heartache in his life and she sort of felt proud that he had decided to give his heart to her. He opened up to her that night like he had never opened up to anyone and he told her he had never planned on loving anyone else, but from the first time he laid eyes on her he knew that was impossible "Because you captured my heart right then" he told her softly. They sat and talked for hours that night till she finally fell asleep against his chest. Kanda laid very still being so careful not to wake her as he enjoyed feeling her next to him and he swore right then and there that nothing and no one was going to hurt her or his child. They were his and his alone, they were something that Kanda could actually call his own and the child was a living part of him that proved he really did exist and he wasn't just something the Black Order made. He swore he would give his life to protect them and that's what he planned to do.