When you read this chapter, pull open a new window, and go to YouTube and play "When I look at You" by Miley Cyrus. It's from her new movie 'The Last Song' and on her The Time of our Lives album.

When I look at You

I ran. I ran as fast as I could away from them. I hated what they turned me into. I was this fragile little idiot who was still pining for her ex-boyfriend. It wasn't me, at all. Never. I hated what I had become, and I was gonna change it.

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody

I will always love Edward. I will never stop. That's a fact. After everything that had happened, I still wanted to hold him in my arms, smell is skin, kiss his lips. Nothing was different from when I was human. I still felt the same.

When the night's are long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

But I was different. I was a different person. I wasn't human anymore, I couldn't blush, I couldn't sleep. I couldn't do any of the things he always said he loved about me. I was changed. Things had changed.

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

When I looked at him, I saw my past, I saw my present, I saw my future. I saw the nights he laid in my bed with me while I slept. I saw the times I was alone after he left. I saw the times I was alone after my change. I saw the concert. I saw my piano, and my family behind me, listening in. I saw myself running. Always running.

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone

I forgave Edward the minute he left me. It didn't help the hurt, but I forgave him. I would spend my nights sitting on my window sill waiting for him to come save me again. To catch me before I fell into my depression.

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

Sometimes I thought it was all just a dream. That Edward and the Cullen's never existed, and that I was going mental. He just appeared one day, like a ray of fake sunlight that temporarily lit up my world. But he left, and everything collapsed into darkness.

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that
Cover me
All I need
Every breath, that I breathe
Dontcha know?
You're beautiful

I felt a tug on my arm as I was running. It stopped me still, and then spun me around. Before I had time to think, to react, to do anything, his lips were on mine.

Yeah yeah..

His arms were around my waist and mine were around his neck. His tongue slipped into my mouth and I was in heaven. I had never been kissed like this in my entire life. Existence. Ever.

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I,
I I look at you
I look at you

Yeah yeah..
Oh oh..
You appear just like a dream to me

He let go of me and stepped back. We were both breathing hard, and couldn't look anywhere but at each other.

"I love you." It was whispered, but I heard it. It was one of the best sounds I had ever heard come from his mouth. I had longed to hear those words from him to me. But now they didn't mean much. He had said them before, and they meant nothing.

"No you don't." I didn't speak above a whisper. I couldn't break the sound, if I did, everything would be gone, everything would float away in the breeze.

"I lied to you Bella. What I said that day? I have never lied better in my entire existence." His eyes told me what he was saying was true. But my heart, and my head were telling me different. He lied to me, twice in the same instance. He broke my trust, and I didn't know if he could earn it back. I told him so.

"I will do anything Bella. I love you more than you can imagine. You are my life. I was dead without you. My family had to drag me to the forest to feed. I was nothing without you." He took a step closer to me, and I let him. I wanted to believe him so much. I wanted to just collapse into his arms, like nothing had ever gone wrong. I couldn't.

"You see this?" I whispered as I let my power pull a blush to my cheeks and produce a fake heart beat. I looked up into his eyes.

"This is fake. Nothing about what you are seeing right now is real. I'm different Edward. I'm exactly what you didn't want me to be. Can you deal with that? Can you not blame yourself for me being a vampire?" He would always blame himself unless I didn't let him. I wouldn't let him wallow in his misery while I'm glad to be what I am.

"I know. But I love you Bella. Please, please, don't make me live without you." He had fallen onto his knee's before her, and took her hands in his. His gazed up at her, pleading with her to take him back. There was only ever one answer. There was never a choice. She knelt down with him, put her hand on the back of his neck, and brought his lips to hers.

"I love you too."