So another chapter I do want to ask for help with one thing. What do you think Edward should do to 'win' Bella back? Cause of course she's not gonna just trust him in a flash… so I want idea's to play with please and thanks!!

So here we are again…

Of course… I own nothing!... well I kinda own terra but oh well.

Chapter 5

To say I had more than enough to think about was an understatement. But for a vampire I don't think it is possible to have too much to think about. But I had bitten off enough.

I was sitting in the backyard of the house. It was the dead of night, a new day is starting as I sat here thinking. I knew I needed to make up my mind before school started for the most part. More than ever I needed to decide what I wanted by the time I saw him again. I knew I couldn't keep running every day like I did that first day he came in. I had to face him, and the rest of them. Alice and Terra made me realize that, and I knew it to start with but it didn't help any.

I didn't know what to do; I knew I couldn't trust him again so easily. After all, even if I'm not as 'breakable' as I was than, he could still up and leave again, for some reason or another. If anyone would find a way he would, I knew it. I could admit I still cared, and from what Alice told me and what I knew all this time, he still cared too.

Maybe things weren't going back to how they were, maybe not close. But maybe we could try something. After all we had enough time to get through it I'm sure. Something might happen and he might prove himself.

Prove himself…. That's what he needed to do, if he wanted anything like it use to be.

I signed at least now my mind was made up a bit, I bet Alice just saw it too. I laughed lightly at that thought. Now… I just needed to find the words to say to him…

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We raced to school again. We could feel the weather start to grow colder so we knew soon the bikes and even the corvette would have to hide for a little while. Made me sad a bit to think about. After all motorcycles aren't very fun in the snow…

So Jake and I took the chance we had to race. I won naturally, I thought about throwing it and letting him win for once but I decided against it almost as fast. I liked winning too much.

Jake complained the whole way to class about how I never let him win, and that one day he would win. I stopped listening after a while. One can only listen to the same things over and over again. He would stop soon, I could tell. Seth and him never kept up the same thing for too long in the mornings.

Alice was waiting in the class when we walk in. Again she sat in front of my seat, I smiled at her when I passed and sat down. She turned this time and look at me. We had a few minutes before the teacher showed up.

"Morning Bella!" She partially sang.

"Morning Alice," I laughed.

"So… how'd the night go?" She asked innocently.

"Um… fine…" I started, did she see something or was she just making small talk.

"That's good than," Her smile didn't fade… why was she so happy, "I think that after today we should come up with a day for you to come visit. Esme wants to see you! Carlisle too," Alice said.

"Alice I promised I'd visit but I told you I might not be able to do right away," I told her again.

"You might want to think about it after today, I won't be the only one to ask you to visit," Alice replied than turned around, the teacher walked in a few minutes later.

Urg thanks Alice, I thought to myself as I paid little attention to the teacher. Class ended and we walked to our next class, this time Alice was walking with us, talking with Jacob a bit. Seemed her next class was a few doors down from ours…

We walked in and sat down before Jake said anything to me, "She's a little too hyper I think," he muttered and I laughed a little.

"She gets worse I promise."

"Urg," Jacob partially threw his head on the desk, but not too hard to make sure he didn't break it.

"You're just annoyed because you're still sleepy," I told him as the teacher walked in.

Classes went normally until lunch. Terra was waiting for me outside my class room. I looked at her strangely before she informed me she skipped her last class for no reason what's so ever. I laughed, she skipped too much.

"After lunch you running off again or you facing the music?" Terra asked as we walked into the lunch room.

"I guess I have to face the music today," I muttered as we started piling food on the trays.

"It can't be all that bad…" Terra answered.

"Maybe for you," I said light enough that she was the only one who probably heard it.

"It will be over soon enough; the worst part will be over in a few short hours."

"So says you," I muttered again as we paid for the food and headed to our table. This time though Alice was sitting there too, looking strangely at Seth and Jake who had just about finished their own trays.

I sat down in my normal set, which Alice was sitting next to. She looked up at me as I sat down, "They always eat like this?" She asked me as Terra and I slowly pushed our trays in front of the two wolves.

"This is tame," Terra answered amused.

Alice looked at her in what seemed to be shock. "Oh, Terra, Seth, this is Alice," I said, wondering if Seth would realize I just spoke to him. He seemed to as he stopped his attack and looked up, nodded at Alice before going back to the food in front of him.

Terra seemed to be eyeing Alice, her look seemed unsure more than anything. I didn't think anything of it, seeing as Terra didn't trust vampires any more than werewolves did… Well let's not count Seth.

As I watched the wolves finish the trays I laughed as they looked at Alice, who still had a tray full of untouched food in front of her.

"Um… Alice, would you mind too terribly if the boys had your food?" I asked nicely.

Alice looked at her food and at the boys, "Sure… "She muttered passing the tray over where they both started to grab at it.

I didn't think about what would happen at first until they started to fight over the food, who had more, who had something the other wanted. I rolled my eyes as they went on. Terra and Alice seemed to do the same, as they started talking about random things, school, weather, how weird the wolves where. The normal stuff I guess.

I was too lost in thought. I had less than an hour to come up with something to say to him. I had no clue what to do, or say. It didn't help that every now and than Alice and Terra would look at me and continue their awkward conversation, nor did the eyes in my back help. Even though I was surprised to realize only one pair of eyes watched us, a pair I didn't find weird, what with Alice sitting at a table with two werewolves and a strange Vampire.

The conversation only got more awkward as the wolves joined in. Their fight over the food seemed over and the food gone. But things seemed to work out as Jake and Terra got into one conversation and Seth and Alice into another. I didn't care enough to pay attention at all to their words until Alice looked at me for a long period of time.

"What…" I asked lightly.

"Just wondering if you were still alive there," Alice answered with a smile.

"Oh, just peachy…" I muttered as I set my head down.

"Don't stress out about it. Just say what's on your mind, things will work out. Be straight forward, of course, you have to with any male," Alice joked lightly. Seth and Jake both looked at her.

"She's right you know," Terra piped in and the boys than looked at her.

"Are you both saying guys are stupid so you have to point out the obvious?" Seth asked.

Terra, Alice and I looked at each other for a second and answered at the same time, "Yes."

Both males looked down in failure.

That's when I realized we had to get to class now. I was still fighting with myself as the others got up. I kept my seat.

"Come on Bella, it wont be that bad," Terra said to me.

"Yes it will," I answered.

"Don't make us force you up," Alice laughed.

"And you know we'll do it," Terra continued.

"You two are horrible. I don't like this game anymore," I answered as both of them grabbed one of my arms and both pulled me up. "Urg! Fine!" I than all but stormed out and towards my next class.

It wouldn't be that hard to run for it, to skip class and come back. I mean they'd never know… Crap yes they would. I damned Alice's powers over and over in my head as I made my way to class. There was no way out of this…

I slowly made my way into the classroom. The only person inside was the teacher, which I knew before walking in the room. I sat down and kept my eyes trained on the black of the desk in front of me. People slowly filtered in one by one. Each time my mind would wrap around the presents just to see who it was, even those who just walked near. I was too panicked so I slowly tried to calm myself down. This was when I wished Terra was here. Hell even Jasper would help right now.

In the middle of trying to calm down I felt him enter the room. I panicked more. What was I going to do… dang it! I wanted to run for it, I really did but I stayed where I was. If I ran I didn't think I would get too far…

The chair moved and he sat down, his eyes looked at me a few times before looking away. I checked the teachers mind and realized he wasn't planning on started right away, than I realized what he planed to have us do. Damn, of all the days to do a Lab we had to do one today. That means I'd have to at least talk to him, well so much for just ignoring him again.

I stared down still. What to even start with…

I heard him sigh; I figured that either me being here or the fact that we had a lab bothered him. I went with the lab thing, because he didn't seem to want to say anything right now. And without thinking I spoke the first thing on my mind.

"You know if we run now they might not realize we were even here."

I didn't realize I spoke that until it was out of my lips. Thankfully it was low enough were only Edward could hear it.

It was silent for a second before he started laughing. I damned him than. Urg this shouldn't be so hard to do!

"We could, but skipping isn't a good thing to do twice in a row," He answered me in a joking manner. I forgot I skipped yesterday for a second there.

"Wasn't my idea to skip classes," I defended myself lightly. "You know better than most how Alice gets."

"Sadly," he muttered, "So does this mean you're talking to me?"

Crap… "I guess so… we have a lot to talk about I guess." I answered lightly. We didn't have to talk if he didn't want anything.

"Seems that way."

The teacher stood up and started. Explain the lab before letting us get to work. An easy, starter lab I could probably do in my sleep… if I could sleep that is.

We silently got to work on the lab, even though we both knew what we were doing and what would happen. But still we had to look like normally high school student. We stared to finish the lab, faster than the others in the class; I was still confused why this school never picked up any honor like classes over the years. I figured I might as well get what I needed to out in the open.

"I figure everything that I told Alice yesterday, you already know," I started.

"Naturally," He answered lightly.

"Than that saves me some time of explaining it again at least. But you need to understand, even with all the time that has past, what you did still hurts. And I don't know if I can trust you again to not leave like you did. But I can't just ignore you," I paused for a second. "Hell, I'm not sure what you want to happen but I'll say this. I wont run anymore, I'm willing to be friends or whatever but if you want anything like it was when… anything like it was before," I caught myself, I wasn't talking fast or quiet enough for others to not hear, "You have to prove to me that you're not going to disappear again." I finished almost lamely.

He stayed quite for a second. I didn't know what I wanted him to say, or even what he would say. I was nervous none the less. "One chance," He started quietly, "I'm not sure I deserve that but I'm glad you're letting me have it."

Damn him, why did he have to know he fucked up badly? Why can't he be like any normal guy and blame it on me, or that he was right and that he deserved more than one chance? Damn him.

"Part of me understands why you left but still, doesn't change that it hurt like hell," I told him.

We sat in an awkward silence, I hated those and there were too many of them today. Before he laughed and spoke, "You realize you can't back out of visiting now right?"

"Alice put you up to this didn't she," I questioned him.

He laughed lightly, "Partly, but also Esme would kill me if I didn't help move things along faster," He answered.

I sighed; sadly I did want to visit. I missed Esme, and Carlisle, hell I haven't even said anything to Emmett yet. Hmmm wonder how he's going to react. Than I thought of something that kind of scared me for a second, what about Rosalie, now that I didn't have a choice in the matter did she still dislike me?

"Fine, I'll visit soon."

Edward just smiled, and I wanted to smack him. Thanks for making this hard for me… jerk…

That's when class ended. I didn't run out this time but we both walked out together. "You might want to bring your new little family with you," He told me. Makes sense, if I started hanging with the Cullen's I might as well get Terra and them involved a bit.

"I guess so; it's up to them really. They might come just for protection; they might not trust you guys just yet. Even thought Terra and Alice make a bad pairing I'm saying that right now," I answered.

Before we even got to Jacob I was attacked from behind by a small, hard body. I wasn't paying attention to what was around me or I would have readied myself but instead I feel right to the floor.

"Yay! You have to come over today!" Said a high voice from my back.

"Alice… please get off me!" I yelled into the ground.

"Say you'll come today!" She told me…

"Urg! Fine, I'll come by tonight, can you please get off me?" I said figures she put me into a corner about this.

"YAY!" She laughed as she got up and helped me up.

"Jeez Alice, if I was normal I think my face would be all over the floor," I muttered as I rubbed my face.

"Sorry I was just too excited," Alice answered as we started to walk again towards my class. Jacob, Terra and Seth meet up shortly after.

"We'll see you later Bella! Don't forget tonight!" Alice said before dragging Edward with her as they walked away from us.

"What was that about?" Seth asked. I shock my head as we walked into the class room.

"How do you all feel about going to visit the Cullen's tonight?" I asked lightly as we sat down.

"I'm up for it!" Seth answered, for some reason Vampires like Terra, me and the Cullen's amused him to no end. Weird little werewolf.

"I'd like that," Terra answered which surprised me for some reason, maybe her and Alice were too close already.

"I guess I'll go if I have to," Jacob answered, with a serious face, before Terra, Seth and I looked at him and he laughed lightly, "I'll go. They can't be that bad right? And if they do anything against you Bells I have a reason to hurt one of them," He answered smugly.

"Please don't attack them, it might not end well," I answered and Seth chucked a little bit.

The class started, ending our conversation. Seems like today was going to be a long, interesting day after all.

AN- Woo longest chapter I think. I am sorry about the long ass wait. But when I started to write this my computer froze and for some reason I didn't feel like writing it again. More so since it was a filler chapter in some ways. That and every time I came on to write my brother would text me asking me to come on my game lol and I'm addicted but here it is! I do need help for idea's like I said at the top of this chapter. I have the ending kind of planned out but I need something before that to fill in the chapters and to get Bella to trust Edward again… give me ideas! Please! Please! Please!

Tomorrow I start school, well today to be honest but oh well. I'm hoping to be able to type a chapter at least once a week.

This chapter is not edited because about half way threw I started to get sleepy. And L is making me get up early tomorrow (I just worked retartedly and I cant catch up on sleep lol oh well.)

Review please and thank you!!

-M