Feelings Suck

Rella Ferne (Thanks to Sincerly . Jadelyn (I know there's not a space, but it won't keep the name for some reason LOL) for coming up with the name!)

Summary

Bella Thorne is always wondering why she blushes around her good friend Roshon Fegan. Roshon Fegan is always wondering why he gets this weird feeling in the pit of his stomach when he's around his good friend Bella Thorne. The more time they spend together the more they come to terms with their feelings. Along the way they learn that even age can't stop love.

"So... What'cha wanna do?" Zendaya asks while wiggling her eyebrows.

"Hmm... How about... play spin the bottle!" Bella suggests happily.

XXXXXBella's POVXXXXX

"Nah, 'cause I don't wanna have to kiss someone other than Kenton." Zendaya says with a blush.

"Fine, what about Truth or Dare?" I suggest hopefully.

"Sure, let's call everyone else in." Zendaya says with a glint in her eye. Oh, crud, what did I get myself into, this time?

"Roshon! Come here!" I yell at the top of my lungs.

"What? What's wrong?" Roshon asks worriedly after he runs in the room.

"You're gonna play Truth or Dare with us." I say firmly. Will he think I'm being to pushy? Maybe I shouldn't have said it like that... Oh wait! I'm so stupid; Roshon loves Truth or Dare. I'm mentally slapping my head right now...

"Cool, I love Truth or Dare." Roshon says with a huge grin as he comes over and kisses me on the cheek. He sits down and I then notice, everyone else is in here too.

"I don't know..." Davis says hesitantly. That kid needs to act his age once in a while! He needs to have some fun! He's wiser than Ro and I combined! But he's our little Davey and I gotta love him.

"Oh, come on, Davis! Have some fun!" Caroline says with a happy giggle.

"Anything for you sweet-cheeks!" Davis says cheekily. Ummm, I guess I could see them as a couple in years to come... Well, many years to come. We don't want Caroline to look like a pedophile, now do we?

"Oh, save it for the show!" Caroline says happily while playfully shoving Davis's shoulder.

Roshon and I look at eachother with shocked expressions. Are they... flirting?

"Well, errrr, umm, Bella, truth or dare?" Zendaya asks, sounding like she's still trying to get over the flirting. It is kinda, just a little shocking...

"Truth." I say happily. Might as well get over it before I jump to conclusions!

"Alright, why were you really crying when you and Roshon got together?" She asks excitedly. My jaw drops and I look at her ready to object, but she quickly cuts me off, "And don't give me that bullcrap about it being about Voodoo! I know when you're lyin' Bell. Now the big scoop is, why?"

I look at Roshon for help, but he just gives me a reasuring smile. What should I do? Should I tell? Will they be mad? They're all looking at me like I having something to say! I guess I gotta tell now... I'm gonna get Zendaya back for this...

"Well, Caroline... You were right. That day, I was thowing up. But not because of why you thought. I made- I made it happen." I stutter nervously. Should I tell anything else? I think I'm gonna be sick. I didn't wanna tell! But Zendaya would've been able to tell if I was lying again!

"But that would make you have an eating disorder." Adam says obliviously.

"Because-because I do." I say sadly. "I'm... Bulimic."

"What're you talking about?" Zendaya asks, keeping her head down.

"I'm Bulimic." I mutter, even lower than before. I know I should've just lied!

"I don't believe you." Adam says plainly.

"She's telling the truth." Roshon says firmly. 'bout time he steps in!

"We'll be here no matter what you go through, I promise." Kenton says sweetly.

"Really?" I ask and I can feel the tears well up in my eyes.

"Of course. We know you're a model too and-and models' go through eating disorders all the time. We trust that you'll try and stop. We believe in you, Bella." Adam says seriously.

Why isn't Zendaya looking at me? She still has her head down!

"Sometimes it's raining outside and you have nowhere to go, but always know, you can come to us." Caroline says lovingly.

"And we love you, Bella." Davis says then gives me a big hug.

"I love you, kid." I say with a smile. "Z-Zendaya?"

"Hmmm?" She asks, finally revealing her eyes. She's crying.

"She wants to know what you have to say." Kenton says soothingly.

"Oh, ok." Zendaya says emotionlessly. "Bella, I don't want you to keep doing this to yourself. I thought you quit doing that to yourself. I love ya like a sista, but I don't want you to hurt."

"How did you know I use to do it?" I ask confused.

"You're about as good as hiding things as you are lying. I heard you. I talked to your doctor. Believe it or not, Bella, but I've been worried about you. I noticed you barely eat. I thought you got through it though... Guess not." She says with a frown.

"I did! I really thought that I did! It just happened and I don't know what made me do it. I had stopped for seven months!" I say proudly. Seven months is a huge accomplishment for me!

"Then, I just want you to know, you have my full support and I'll do anything to help. I wanna help you get better and I'll do anything to help; Whether it be paying for you to go to rehab, going to see someone, or even just talking to you. You're amazing and perfect and you have no reason to do any of those things to yourself! You deserve to have a Dad, you deserved to not have been bullied, and you deserve way better than Roshon." Zendaya says with a slight chuckle, earning laughs from the whole room.

"Don't I know it!" Roshon says gratefully as he kisses my forehead.

"I love you so much." I whisper happily.

"Well, now that your truth is out! How about we continue the game!" Adam says slightly awkward. Haha, anything makes Adam feel awkward!

"Adam," I start with a snicker. "Truth or dare?"

"Dare, 'cause I'm a dare-devil!" He says cockily.

"Well, I dare you to kiss Marsha." I say with an evil grin. His face falls and he gulps. I love torturing Adam! It's just so funny!

Marsha is someone on the crew and she is very hairy. She's hairy, wears cowboy jeans, plaid shirts, and always has her hair in pigtails. This moment shall be priceless!

"Aww! Do I gotta?" Adam whines.

"Yes, you gotta!" I say excitedly.

He walks up to Marsha with a huge frown. I think I'm gonna die of laughter!

He kisser her for ten seconds and then he pulls away with a horified look. Marsha runs off with girly squeals escaping her lips.

We all (excluding Adam) start laughing hystericaly.

"You happy now?" Adam asks in a whiny voice.

"Yup." I say happily.

"Very much so." Kenton says contently.

"Just a wee bit." Ro says.

"I thought it was highly amusing." Davis says, putting a hand to his chin.

"And I-" Caroline starts.

"I get it! It was hilarious! So funny!" Adam says, throwing his hands up in exausperation.

"Your turn!" I say mockingly.

"Fine. Davis, truth or dare?" Adam asks, rolling his eyes.

"I'm feelin' wild today; dare." Davis says with a thinkful smile. He's like the cutest kid I know! He acts so mature for his age, I'm suprised he doesn't have girlfriends' my age!

"Alright, I dare you to... publicly admit, you like Strawberry Shortcake!" Adam exclaims after a moment of thinking.

"What?" We all yell at the same time.

"You heard me. I dare you to publicly admit you like Strawberry Shortcake." Adam says with a knowing smirk.

"You like Strawberry Shortcake?" I ask, feeling confused.

"Only Gingerbread!" Davis says, clearly embarrassed.

"Awww, you don't have to do it, sweety! That's to publicly humiliating... You don't have to!" I say cutely.

"Yet, you dared me to do something publicly humiliating?" Adam asks annoyed.

"Well, Davis here, is actually mature for his age." I say mockingly.

"Wow! It's been such a long day!" I exclaim, falling back on to my bed.

"You know it!" Roshon exclaims, joining me on the bed.

"Mmhm... I love you." I say tiredly as I wrap my arms around him and am greeted by the familiar feeling of his arms around me. His arms are so comfy...

"I love you, too." He whispers into the crook of my neck. "I'm really proud of you for today. You told everyone your biggest secret and kept your cool while doin' in."

"Thanks. I was freaking out though. I was so scared that they'd be mad at me or something, I never thought they'd actually be there for me and want to help me. They seem so supportive and I don't wanna let them down. I love them too much."

"And you know they love you too. I was kinda shocked though too, actually. They were so okay with it. I couldn't believe everythin' Daya (Zendaya's nickname...) said. I guess you ain't such a good liar after all."

"Haha, guess not. I thought I was doing so well. It's like, when I had cut or made myself throw up, I felt like nobody knew; like it was a secret only I could keep. I even felt like I was such a good actress because nobody knew how much I really was in."

"I love it when you open up to me, Bell. You're amazing, but it gets very hard to try and pry it out of you. Acting good or not; you're a very persistant gal." He says with a slight chuckle.

"I love being able to open up. I held everything in for so long and... I got my big break and met you. Do you think I'm a good actress?" I ask hopefully.

"Of course I do! You're one of the better ones' on Disney. Some of 'em, not so good. Why?"

"Because I get a lotta hate mail saying I'm a really bad actress and that I'm undeserving, or that-that I'm Anorexic! They say I'm a bad influance on their kids 'cause I'm Anorexic! They don't know how hard it is to deal with it! And why can't Anorexics get their big break too?"

"Because the world sucks. Think about it, people in the world made you Anorexic and now they wanna shun you 'cause of it. It sucks, but it's the truth." He says with a frown.

"I guess you're right. How did you get me to open up? And be comfortable while doing it?" I ask confused.

"It wasn't easy. I just... let you talk. First, I made you talk then once you started, I figured you wouldn't be able to stop. So, I just let you talk."

"Who would'a thought Roshon Fegan would be a good listener?" I ask with a grin.

"I don't know!" He says happily. "Bella..."

"Hmm?" I ask, smiling. It's so easy to be me in front of him! He gets me so well and he likes me so much... He likes me for me and it makes me feel amazing.

"Are you goin' to stop?" He asks hopefully. My jaw drops for the second time today.

"Of course! It was honestly a slip up! I don't wanna go back. I regret what I did, already!"

He lets out a sigh of relief then says, "I'm glad. You and I both know that your rep would be ruined if people found out you still had one. And... I don't want you to hurt. You're beautiful, Bell, and I wish I could show you that somehow."

"Thanks, Roshon. I couldn't have done anything without you." I say contently while wrapping my arms around him again.

"I love you." He whispers. Yay, he loves me!

"I love you, too." I whisper happily. I love a happy ending...

End Chapter

A/N

Good? Bad? Please review! This was the Zenton version of it and the Zadam one is comin' up!

You see, since I got an equal amount of votes on Zadam or Zenton, my mom suggested do TWO chapters with kind of an alternant (I suck at spelling :p) endings! So Zadam fans, read on and you shall find Zadam in the next chapter!

I'm so sad :( My laptop deleted the chapter half way through so I had to start over! It did the EXACT same thing as last time and I SWEAR! I wanna throw my laptop through a window!

Oh, and for all you 3DG (Three Days Grace...) fans who can't listen to songs with cussing, go to AmysWhisper's channel because they have AMAZING clean edits of songs! Like THE BEST EDITS! You can't tell they even had a cuss word in it. I just put in a request recently for 3dg Wake Up and they did it! Awesome, right? So yeah, check out there channel :D

I also ended this chapter listening to Shape Of My Heart my Backstreet Boys :D Awesome song and besides the romance part, I can really relate to it :D

Trinity Out

Peace!