WARNING: Rated H for Heartbreak. ALSO M For (unnecessary, and horrible) Bloodshed

I apologise in advance! I'm sincerely REALLY REALLY SORRY for that chapter.I repeat. I'M SORRY. (Also, you may want to wait till the next one is out too, to read them together. You've been warned. Don't come for my head.)

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Somehow Magnus must have fallen asleep, because what felt like seconds later, he was woken up by the sound of keys in the door. He hastily got up and met the Nephilim there just as he entered the loft.

"Magnus…" Alec sighed, gauging his reaction and reaching out for his hand. "I'm so sorry…"

"I'm sorry too baby… You know I didn't mean it…" Magnus told him, taking his hand in his own immediately, looking at a clock in the kitchen. Almost no time had passed. That meant Alec returned before going, so he was going to leave again, soon. "Don't go…" He whispered squeezing his hand.

"Magnus…" He looked at him, meeting his eyes, sapphire blue on emerald green. "I have to… Innocent people are in danger… It's my duty, I can't just abandon them… I just… I had to come apologise first. Just in case…" He uttered the last sentence in a lower voice, but Magnus understood. Crystal clear. And his heart broke at the mere thought of having to lose him forever. But they've had this conversation before and he knew there was nothing to be done. Alec was a Shadowhunter. Magnus couldn't change his beloved's nature, neither did he want to force him to. So he just looked at him for a long moment, taking him in, and then pulled him into a hug, holding him close. "Does it ever get easier?" He muttered, burying his face in the crook of his lover's neck, breathing in his scent.

"Does what, get easier, baby?" Alec whispered confused, but hugged him back immediately nonetheless.

"Loving a Shadowhunter…"

Alec hugged him tighter. "I don't know… I'm sorry…"

Magnus kissed his neck making him shiver. "Don't be… You can't change who you are, right?"

"I guess…"

Magnus sighed and let him go. "Go on then… Before I change my mind and lock you in." He smirked, but then sobered up and took his hands, staring into his eyes again, "Promise me… Promise me you're going to be careful. Promise that you'll come back to me."

Alec looked back, unable to take his eyes off him and then closed the distance between them and kissed him. "I promise." He whispered against his lips, and pulled away. "I love you…"

Magnus smiled at him dazed. "I love you too…" He whispered back and then Alec was gone.

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A while later Magnus' phone rang making him jump. He stumbled off the couch, his worry making him clumsy and reached for it, his heart racing. That was Alec's ring tone. He didn't know if he should be relieved 'cause Alec was calling to tell him the mission was a success and he was coming home, or to be worried cause something went wrong. Knowing it was no use thinking about it, he picked up the phone, his hands trembling slightly.

There was silence on the other end. "Alec?" Magnus spoke urgently, his voice choked with worry. "Alexander?"

"Magnus…" The Nephilim's voice finally came through, a weak pained whisper that felt like a stab in his lover's heart. "I'm… sorry… I… love you… I-"

The line went dead and Magnus froze. That sounded too much like a goodbye, and once he got over the shock, he shuffled hastily to his feet. "No, no, no, no, no, no…" He chanted under his breath. "It can't be. He's okay, he's fine, he can't…" Magnus ran outside frantic, heading where Alec told him he'd be, before he left. Once he reached the abandoned warehouse, he felt his heart stop.

A dark heap was lying on the ground, in the shadows, and he ran to it. "Please don't be him, please don't be him…" He reached the body and felt dizzy once he recognised Alec's dark clothes and saw the blood pooling on the floor around him. "Ale-xander?" He croaked, on the verge of losing it.

He gently turned the body around, scared to death of looking at his boyfriend's face and seeing his blue eyes staring lifelessly back at him. He heaved a short sigh of relief when he saw Alec's eyes were closed. Magnus checked his vitals seeing they were too weak but he was breathing, even if barely. He felt like a huge weight was lifted off him and he could finally breathe.

"Alec… Hey baby… Can you hear me?" He whispered softly touching his face, frowning at all the blood and started healing him immediately, terrified by the thought that if he had arrived minutes later, Alec would have been gone.

After five torturing minutes of healing the unconscious boy, that felt like an eternity to the Warlock, Alec stirred. "Alexander?" Magnus called again softly, leaning close to him. "Baby are you okay? Can you open your eyes?"

"Ma-gnus…" He rasped, his voice raw as if he'd been screaming, and judging from his appearance, Magnus guessed that he had. He felt a surge of rage for whoever dared to do this, to hurt his beloved like that.

"Alec, my Alec, I'm here, you're safe, I'm here…" He crooned.

"Mags… Are… you…?" Alec managed, before he started coughing up blood.

Magnus held him, terrified, unable to do anything until it passed and then continued healing him as he talked. "Alec… where does it hurt?"

The boy made a choked out noise sounding like a laugh and said "Everywhere." making Magnus who kept trying to heal him, pale even more.

"Alexander… can you open your eyes?" He said after a few moments of silence. "Don't go to sleep."

"O…kay…" Alec muttered and slowly obeyed. "Magnus?" He said a moment later when his Warlock remained silent."What's going on? Why are we in the dark? I can't see a thing."

Silence.

"Magnus! Talk to me… why can't I see?"

Alec said again, but the Warlock was unable to answer him as he stared at the love of his life too terrified to speak, covering his mouth to keep himself from screaming, while tears fell from his cat-eyes, as he looked at the bloody holes where his lover's beautiful blue eyes used to be…

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I'M SORRY AGAIN!

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