My foot pushed the pedal down as far as it would go. The car jerked in response to the excess in speed and I slowly let up on the gas. I guess I wasn't quite the speed demon as Saeyoung.
"Are you still tracking me?" I said to the speaker phone.
"Yeah, you're going to make a left turn in 800 meters," his voice responded. The dashboard phone showed a little video of his face. He was seated at his computer desk and still typing away, eyes flickering to his different monitors.
He had decided to stay home to track all the different people out looking for his brother while he was directing me to a special place they used to go as kids when they could escape their mother. It was a tiny little park on the other side of town, but it always had good views of the clouds. If I found Saeran there, I was supposed to watch him and prevent him from leaving until Saeyoung could get there.
At least Saeyoung was starting to get his emotions back on track. Focusing on the work ahead and solving the problem seemed to keep the worst of it at bay.
"I'm trying to get a satellite to triangulate on the area. Maybe I can see what traffic has passed by within the last few hours."
I gripped the wheel tighter as I slowed down to make the turn, silently praying I wouldn't stall in the middle of the busy street. Stick shifts were freaking tricky.
"Ease on the clutch when you turn," Saeyoung coached me.
I nodded and shakily completed the turn, thankfully without any problems.
"Good girl," he said. "Your teacher must have been awesome."
"Oh, come off it," I laughed. "You never let me drive your cars. I had to teach myself stick shift, thank you very much."
"Ungrateful, you are, my young padawan," he muttered, but his eyes were laughing. I was so happy his teasing nature was showing.
"Any update from Jumin?" I asked.
He shook his head. "He's got three people out looking at the other two spots, and one more on the way the old Mint Eye headquarters. I doubt he'd go back there, but Jumin's helicopter is the fastest way to check. Speaking of which, babe, let's get a helicopter."
"No."
He turned to face the webcam. "Baaaaaaaaabe," he pouted, mouth puckered in a massive silly frown.
"That is not in the budget," I said sternly with a pointed glance at the dash cam. "I worked really hard on that budget. You have terrible spending habits."
"Hmph, fine." He kept pouting, but added in the puppy dog eyes that I never could resist.
"We literally have four Lamborghinis. We can trade those in for a helicopter if you want." I looked back at the road, eyeing a driver who was swerving in and out of lanes.
He gasped and grabbed at his chest. "HOW DARE YOU. Those are my precious children!"
I shrugged. "No helicopter."
"Hey babe," he said.
"Yes?" I answered. The road was busy, but we were getting closer to the park. Would Saeran be there? My pulse started being faster just thinking about it. If he wasn't there, Saeyoung would lose hope again.
"Thanks for always making me laugh."
I looked at the dash cam and he was smiling softly. My heart clenched inside my chest.
"You're always welcome. I'm literally here only for your entertainment anyway. Or wait, wasn't it supposed to be the other way around?" I replied with a laugh. "But for real, I love making you laugh. Hey, I'm almost there though."
"See anything yet?"
I rounded the last corner and could see the park. A pathway traipsed through a few small green hills. Every few hundred meters, there was a bench where birds gathered. Great big trees provided shade, but there was still plenty of open space in the air for cloud-gazing, just like Saeyoung said. It would be a perfect place for a picnic in the nice weather.
"Babe?"
"I'm looking," I said as I slowly drove around the area.
My eyes scanned the park, looking for Saeran's red hair. Or at least anybody in general. It looked almost looked abandoned. There should have been at least a few dog walkers or joggers, right?
"There's nobody here," I said. "I mean, not just Saeran, but nobody."
Saeyoung's face turned grim on the monitor. "I heard that our father closed it down recently but I wasn't sure. Hang on." His face looked away from the camera and he started typing. "It says here are plans to demolish it next week and build a business complex."
I parked in a spot near the beginning of the walkway. A small sign was posted and I could barely make out a notice of closure, warning people to stay off the land or risk trespassing charges.
I frowned. "But the park looks so lovely."
"He's an asshole." Saeyoung shrugged, but his face was dark. He still was typing away on the other side of the screen.
"Do you think Saeran heard, too?" I couldn't see the entire park from this spot. If I really wanted to look, I'd have to get out and explore.
"Probably. He follows the news about our father, same as I do. He just tries to hide it more." His eyes flicked to his other monitors." Jumin just checked in. He hasn't found anything yet."
"Nothing at Mint Eye?" I asked but partially sighed in relief. Now that was something we didn't need again.
He shook his head. "Nothing there. The satellite I'm borrowing shows a car stopping in the same lot you're in about 30 minutes ago. But the next frame shows the car gone, so I don't know if anybody got out or not."
"Okay," I unbuckled my seat belt and grabbed my phone off the car charger. "I'm going to have a look around."
"Keep your phone on you," he said. "I can hack into your microphone and pick up what you're saying, so shout if you need me. And if you see him, call me immediately. I can be there in thirteen minutes."
"Saeyoung, dear," I started. "How often do you hack into my phone?"
He colored. "Uhh, you're breaking up. I can't hear you."
I stared at the video. "You gotta be kidding me. Seriously."
"What was that, babe? You're not coming through. Oh no, I think the video is cutting out." With a wink, the dash cam went dark as he hung up on me.
"Dumbass," I yelled into my phone's microphone. With a sigh, I opened the door and slowly got out of the car.
The air was pleasant and a small gust of wind blew my hair around.
"Hmm, I wonder where you could be," I mumbled to myself. He was a dreamer at heart, I knew it. Just like his brother. "Saeran!" I called, hands cupped around my mouth.
Yeah, like he'd even respond. Well, guess I'll go exploring.
I stepped over the curb and started down the path that led through the park. It was quiet. A streak of color flew past my eyes as birds flittered about, their tweets echoing through the trees. A few hundred yards into the park, I spotted another blob of color.
Underneath a giant tree was a shade of red that I'd recognize anywhere. Saeran. I froze.
He was laying down, and he had a dark pillow under his head. His face was turned up at the clouds.
"Saeyoung," I whispered, hoping he could hear through the phone's microphone. "He's here."
Saeyoung told me to stay put if I found him. But I started this mess and I should apologize.
After a few moments of indecision, I took a step forward. A branch snapped under my foot, echoing through the peaceful park.
The red mop snapped up immediately, and those harsh mint eyes locked with mine across the distance. He frowned, but didn't move. His body was tense, just like mine.
We stared at each other for a few moments, neither saying anything. I took a deep breath and stepped forward.
"I thought I told you both to leave me alone," he accused, making me stop short in my tracks. "I'm done hassling you two and your perfect family."
"Saeran," I said, arms out in front of me in a non-aggressive stance. Trying to show I wasn't there to attack him. "You are our family."
He laughed, caustic. In an instant, he grabbed the backpack he was using as a pillow and hopped up.
"I'm nobody's family. I thought I made that clear to Saeyoung already." He pulled the backpack straps on. Oh no, I was losing him!
"I was just living with you both until I could save enough money to get away," he finished, tightening the straps and pulling his hoodie over his head.
This asshole! He didn't think I could tell when the Choi brothers were lying? I've been around long enough to know when they're both full of shit.
"Saeran Choi," I said sternly, walking closer. Screw the non-aggressive stance. If he tried to bolt, I'd tackle him. "You look at me, Saeran!" I yelled.
His eyes widened as I stomped closer and pointed a finger in his chest. "Do you think I'm stupid?"
He stood in shock, stepping back while I pushed forward, my anger and fear finally bubbling over. He had never been on this side of my anger before, and I'm sure it was frightening.
"Well? Do you? Because, Saeran Choi, I can assure you I am not. We are family, you dumbass. And I don't give a fuck if you don't like it, but you don't abandon your family!" My voice gradually became louder until I finished in a yell.
"But," he started.
"No buts!" I interjected. I pulled my finger back and rested my hands on my hips. "Saeran, I came here to apologize and to bring you home. We love you."
He looked down, shielding his eyes from me. His shoulders started to slump in defeat. It was working!
"I shouldn't have teased you. I'm very sorry I made that comment. It's none of my business; you'll adjust in your own time and if you don't want to leave the house, that's totally fine, too. But it's not just Saeyoung that loves you. I do, too. You're my brother and now that we're all together, don't tear us apart again." He looked up to meet my stare. A tear started to form in my eye. "Please."
He groaned in frustration.
"Why can't I deal with all this anger the same way Saeyoung does? He only has to look at you and it just melts away!" He looked up, his eyes full of tears, too. "Saeyoung doesn't understand how good he has it with you! And I feel like I'm going to explode every single second of every single day! I just can't take it anymore! That's why it's easier if I just leave!"
My mouth dropped open. I had no idea what to say to that.
"I do, though," a voice said from behind. I whipped my head around and my husband stood there behind us, hands in his pockets, classic headphones around his neck. That was definitely not thirteen minutes! He must have driven like a mad man! "I know how lucky I am, brother. But I don't think you do."
He stepped forward so that he stood next to me, and he put his hands on Saeran's shoulders.
"She might be my wife, but she loves you, too," he said quietly. "Our family is not complete without you, and you know leaving us would just hurt you more anyway. I understand your feeling of loneliness, trust me," he whispered in Saeran's ear. "I felt it every day since we parted. She healed my broken heart. And so did you."
"Saeran, I can't take away your pain," I stepped forward and took him in a hug. He audibly gasped in surprise. "I'm so sorry for what you're going through. But as your sister, you can trust me. We're not going to leave you, even when you get angry."
"She's telling the truth. She gets mad when I get worried about her leaving," Saeyoung laughed while rubbing the back of his neck.
Saeran stood unmoving, without returning my hug but I didn't let go. I took a deep breath and stepped back before grabbing Saeyoung's hand.
"We can't force you to come home with us," Saeyoung said, his voice becoming emotional and heavy. "It's your choice. But you are welcome and you always will be. We love you so much."
Saeran's voice cracked as he sobbed quietly for a moment. "I'm so sorry!" he cried as he enveloped both of us in a hug. "I'm so sorry. I don't understand why I lash out sometimes."
As he cried, I couldn't help but think he was still just a young man who needed help navigating the harshness of life.
The three of us stood under that great big tree for awhile until Saeran was ready to let go. Finally, his tears stopped flowing. He smiled softly and it was like a great big weight was lifted off of him.
The Choi brothers were one step closer to being free from their horrible past. One step at a time, I told myself. I was so glad I got to walk this path with them.
"I'll come home," Saeran whispered a few minutes later as we all lay on the grass, staring at the clouds. "I won't leave again."
I sighed in relief while Saeyong hooted and cheered. It was ridiculous enough that another small smile bloomed on Saeran's normally sad face. Two in a row! Yes!
One step closer!
"Well," I laughed as a cloud floated above. It looked like a white, fluffy cat. "I'm so glad you decided to come home, Saeran. After all, who else was gonna help us raise the babies?"
Saeran sat up straight. "What?"
Immediately after, Saeyoung shot up. "Yeah, what? What did you say?" His eyes were wide and he was on the verge of hyperventilating.
I turned to smile widely at my husband and brother. "I thought this would be a good time to say something! Looks like we're going to have more Choi twins running around the compound."
Saeran burst into laughter, doubling over. Saeyoung fainted.
One step closer!
