Guys, please forgive me for this unforgivable crime which I've done - Not updating for nearly a month.
I don't intend to make any false promises.. So here's the thing. I've had exams going on lately and that's the reason why I wasn't able to update. But hey, they're over now! And I'm back with a bang! :D
So you'll have me updating regularly, like before.
I'd be glad if you guys are selfless like Edward and forgive me unlike the heartless Jacob.. xD
ABOUT LAST CHAPTER :
MOST of you must've realized it.. But for those of you who haven't, when Bella was there beside him and when she pecked him, he was dreaming.
And Edward heard it RIGHT! "I'm in love with you." But it just got mixed with a dream. xD So you must find no reason why her warmth and her touch was so alive.. Just that Edward confused it with reality! :D
And hey, some of you have told me that the previous chapter was confusing. I see where the problem is.
Its due to fact that Edward and Bella are behaving like this right? Like, they've been knowing each other for ages?
Well, in the course of 5 days, they were chit-chatting 24 x 7 and got to know about each other. Any guesses?? :D If you're guess is right, its the first symptom of love.. :P
That's exactly why they behave like a couple.. almost. But yeah, they think they can be nothing more than best friends.. But, who knows.. Its all right in my mind.
I'm not gonna keep you waiting any longer! GO ON AND READ IT! :D
"Truth makes many appeals, not the least of which is its power to shock."
When I'm With You
Chapter 6
I had almost got used to the idea having Edward as my best friend. Almost. Of course, my stupid fantasies were always there, dragging me out of reality. Distinguishing between reality and a dream is a piece of cake. If it's a dream, Edward would be all lovey-dovey and if it's reality, he'd be nothing but my best friend. Although I'm desperate to find the other Edward in him, I'm having no luck at all. Well, that's life I suppose.
And yeah, you truly must have figured out what the most spectacular part is. I'm having absolutely no progress in cheerleading. Why, oh why, didn't I know that this just wasn't my thing? I passed the tryouts miserably. I have no balance and I keep staggering, like all the time! The number of times I failed to complete a cheer properly is innumerable. In other words, I can't do anything properly! The ridiculous costume (Or that's how I find it to be) and the pom-poms only add on to my goofiness. I'm completely making a fool of myself in front of everyone. Of course, no one has ridiculed me, yet. And I'm not so crazy to purposely fall down, hoping that I'd fall into Edward's arms. Thank god Edward wasn't here to witness all of this. It would have only added up to my embarrassment.
And yes, he's alright now, by god's grace. One moment, I'm off to this sickening camp of mine. The next moment, Edward becomes perfectly fine. My point is, if Edward had healed faster, I would have been very, very pleased. I don't blame him. Of course not. All I can say is, why now? I'm here, doing something completely beyond possible for my friend. And no, don't think I'm doing all this with interest. All this is done with haste. And the hatred which I have towards cheerleading is something that can never be expressed through words. I'm such a dumb ass. It all makes sense only now. I should've never showed up at this camp. I don't care if Jessica bought my lame excuse or not. I should have come up with something and saved myself out of this regret. Which roughly translated means, Edward is a much, much more important friend of mine than Jessica.
There is nothing that I've ever wanted to do more than wanting to be in Edward's arms this instant. Bull shit. All this has created a humongous twist in my life – the accident, Edward and me becoming the best of pals and the most sickening game of life – cheerleading. I've got two words for all of this. Wrong timing.
Of course I love the second part of it. It was totally unpredictable. I never even dreamed of becoming so close to Edward. He always seemed like the moon. When you look into the sky at night, what do you see? First, the moon, a distant heavenly body, surrounded by billions of stars. I've always thought that, no matter how much you aspired to close the distance between the moon and you by a single touch, it was always miles and miles away. No matter how close the distance seemed when you let out your hand to try and catch a star in the sky, it was always millions of years away. I guess I've been proved wrong.
And just when I thought the moon can never be touched,
*zap!*
The moon drew closer to me, and here I am, even though the moon is at a reachable distance, shying away from it. Wasn't this what I've always wanted? You'll always find the moon surrounded by stars.. Edward's my real moon, and with him came happiness. Yet, here I am, away from Edward, doing something which I never wanted to. Only if I could see Edward right now..
I was in the middle of one of those obnoxious things, again. I don't want to mention it as it is glaringly obvious.
Well, Jess made a real good captain. But this entire cheerleading thing annoys the hell out of me, irrespective of who the captain is. Should I give it a go? Will she understand if I had to leave?
"Bella, you're up next." Jess called.
What was I going to do now? Fake a smile and go out there to make a fool of myself, again?
Guess it's now or never.
I walked straight towards her and tried my level best to keep my tone calm and gentle.
"Hey Jess, I really wanna talk things out.."
"Well, Bella, could that wait? We're kind of in the middle of something?" She sounded frustrated..Wonder why.
"That's what I was going to say.. Look Jess, this really isn't-"
"Bella, we're running out of time! Now, will you please go out there and do your best!"
She yelled right at me! Oh my gosh, she seemed really angry..
"Jess, listen I really can't do- "
"Bella, don't make me go bananas! Now are you going to do it or not? I'm not lending my ears to you, I think what you need to say ought to wait! I'm the captain here and you follow my commands! Have I made myself clear?" She was furious at me.
Jeez, not even my own mom has yelled at me like this. Why is this happening to me? Has she gone bonkers?
Can someone explain what's going on? I had to fight back the tears. Where is the sweet and kind Jess? I don't know this girl! I've thought she was one of my best friends?
"Why are you yelling at me like this Jess? Are you alright?"
"You're getting on my nerves, damn it! I'd really appreciate if you could co-operate!" She shouted once again.
Woah! Woah! Hold it right there you freak! I wanted to yell back. But.. at my own friend? I doubt if I have the courage to do so..
Why do I feel like this camp is turning into a living hell? And apparently, my friend just turned into the incarnation of a devil.
"I always thought you were my friend."
She eyed me incredulously and said, "Let's just say that we have never met before."
I gasped aloud. Was this coming from the girl who was my friend right since kindergarten? I couldn't stand it. Did she deserve my trust or was it a tremendous mistake? I was still lost in amusement to find that she'd insulted me right in front of everyone. That's when I knew that I had to leave. This just wasn't the place where I belonged. I had to be in the right place, and I hope I'll reach my destination soon enough – Edward's arms. I'm sure my eyes were as wide as saucers and right behind them the tears were fighting to be let out.
"If you'll excuse me…"
And I stormed past her to make my way out of this idiotic place.
"Isabella Marie Swan! You get back here this instant!" She screamed behind me, but I decided to ignore that nasty voice. It's not like I cared even if she threw cuss words at me.
I ran to my room and shut the door tight. I crawled over the bed and threw myself at the pillow. I felt completely dejected. I let the long-controlled tears to fall down. My life just couldn't get any miserable.
Who knew Jessica could be downright rude? I am completely taken aback to find out this. So is it true that behind every kind soul there is a devil? Is this what they refer to as 'Angel by face, Devil by heart'? This is seriously fantastic. Yeah, I am sensitive. I can't do anything! That's just how I am. I heaved a sigh and wondered why Jessica had done such a thing which I never expected.
And the most atrocious thing is that the entire crew was staring at me when I made my way out. That was like the most embarrassing moment of my life! The thought of it made the heat rush to my cheeks. I cried hard until there were no more tears to fall down. I guess my mom rightly called me an 'emotional balloon'. I simply closed my eyes and pondered over the bad luck that awaited me. I really missed those gorgeous emerald eyes, the crooked smile, the way he used to hug me when I was depressed. Yes, I missed Edward. Terribly.
Just then the phone rang. I didn't bother to pick it, afraid of the disappointment that I'd get if it wasn't Edward. After 6 long rings, I gave up and answered the phone, muttering a "Hi". My voice sounded groggy due to the crying.
"Hello." A velvet voice answered. I sat up and let happiness invade me. It was just the person whom I longed to hear from.
"Edward." I breathed after clearing my throat. My breathing picked up and my heart responded just the way it always does when Edward's near me. Except he wasn't here right now.
"Bella! Are you alright? No one answered the phone.."
"Well, yeah I was ignoring it 'cause I thought it was Alice. Sorry, I didn't realize it was you.." I saw how lame my excuse sounded.
"Oh." was all that he said.
No one continued and the silence was inevitable.
"What's wrong, Bella?" His worried satin-smooth voice murmured. And I visualized his emerald eyes melting immediately.
"Nothing's wrong. Why do you think so?"
"Bella please, I know you better than that. And when you answered the phone..Were you crying before?"
I was silent. Should I tell him?
"Bella please, the silence is killing me. What's wrong? Tell me." His voice pleaded.
It was no use not telling him. So I decided to let the beans be spilled.
"I..I kind of got into a fight."
"With?" He prompted.
"Jessica."
"And?"
There was no point in keeping it away from him, he knew me too well.
But still, I couldn't make up my mind.
"It's alright.. You can tell me only if you want to. I don't intend to force it out."
I hate myself for making him worry for me.
"Edward, you of course know it's not like that. It's just that.. I'm afraid this would get you worried."
"Bella, I'm already worried. About you."
I sighed. "Well, I didn't want to continue cheerleading, so I decided to tell Jess that and quit..But when I went and talked to her..."
"Go on."
"She never gave me a chance to speak and yelled at me.. in front of everyone." The tears taunted to fall out but I had to fight back. If I cried now, it will only get him more worried.
Not now. Not now.
"Oh Bella, is that what you're worried about? That you were embarrassed in front of everyone? Besides, I think she's mentally not alright to shout at a person irrationally. Honestly, I cannot believe you've been crying over something so insignificant."
Insignificant. The word left me cluttered.
"I just don't know. I wish I never came here in the first place."
"I know." He sighed and continued, "You did it for her and I really appreciated it. She just isn't worth it anymore Bella. Just forget about that asshole for good. And it doesn't matter that you were embarrassed. I doubt if everyone saw it. Even if they did, how long would they gossip about it? Two days? A week? Maximum, a month. Just forget it Bella.. You don't deserve a friend of this kind."
I was fascinated by how his words changed everything. I was a big time fool. Who realizes things real late. I guess my brain works slower than the others. Edward had a valuable point and the way he can do miracles like these, is truly remarkable. I was afraid to lose a friend like Jessica. Before Edward got sense into my head, that is. Who cares anyway? She isn't worth it. Where will I be without him? Okay, don't tell me you find it crappy. I was more than happy right now. Tears rolled over my cheek. But those were tears of joy this time.
"Bella?" His voice pulled me out of my thoughts.
"Sorry." I said as I wiped the tears away.
"Are you crying? Oh my gosh! Bella did I say something wrong? Forgive me, if I did!"
I chuckled. "Of course not, silly! You've stated the truth. And I was little late in realizing that. That's all." I sighed happily. "I never thought I'd say this, but you understand me better than my mom. Better than Alice, for that case."
"Oh, please, you're making me blush." He teased and I could hear a smile in his voice. We both knew it took a lot to get my best friend to blush.
"How long have we been friends, Edward?"
"Like a few days.. Why?"
"It's just that you don't seem like a person I've been knowing for just a few days.. I always feel like I've been knowing you for decades, even though we've been best friends for an incredibly short time."
"I know what you mean. I feel so too."
There was silence after that which was irrational. I was the first to break it.
"Edward, I want to come back. I can't take this.. I want you.." My voice broke. And I gritted my teeth disallowing the tears from falling down.
"Then, what are you waiting for?" He murmured and I saw the exact same worry in his voice which I was feeling.
"I didn't know until now. I've made the decision.. I'm gonna tell Jessica, no matter what she says. I'm least bothered even if she yells at me this time. Why would I have to care for such a sore loser?"
I could feel him grinning. "Sure, sure. So, all my talking has opened your eyes, eh? I'm glad that you're no longer blind.. It's always difficult you know, I mean you always don't see things clearly. For instance, yourself.. You keep babbling about stuff like you don't deserve me.."
I snorted and he snorted back.
"Yada, yada, yada. We've got into this conversation a lot of times. Let's not again, please. Chuck the topic."
I bet he just rolled his eyes. It was amazing how I could make these out, he really seemed like an old friend who has been with me through my thick and thin.
"If you weren't so far away, you know that you'd me in my arms by now… I don't seem to do anything properly these days. My mind is elsewhere. You know, when you left, it feels as though you've taken a part of me with you. I don't feel whole."
He admitted completely unashamed.
"Then come and get it." I challenged. (Remember? Bella,Twilight! :D)
"Yes. Right after I catch the next flight to Forks from California. Then you'll see the savior come rescue the damsel in distress." We both chuckled.
I almost forgot that he was on a vacation with his cousins there.
"Yeah. Right."
"I mean it Bella. I'll be there in a matter of few hours. Go get packed..And yes, if she yells at you again, that'd be over my dead body."
"Edward, please.."
"Oh, just go get packed." He ordered.
"Fine." I sighed as I gave in.
"Well, bye then. See you in a few."
"Bye.."
He hung up.
"I love you." I said, a second later.
I'd be seeing Edward in a matter of hours. The conversation left me grinning like a dumbbell. I didn't care that I was embarrassed today. It seemed inadequate that Jessica had yelled at me. All I could think about is, I was going to see Edward real soon..
I got up from the bed and leaving all my worries behind, I went to grab some lunch. I was going to make an effort and forget what had happened. After all, it was Edward who had said that. Not just some random idiotic pinhead. My favorite guy in the whole world.
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Very well, you'll find things heating up the next chapter. A major twist. :D And the ACTUAL drama begins only after the next chapter and continues with the following chapters.
*Wonder what Jessica is upto? Why did she yell at Bella?*
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~Janz