Fuck it was Cutter, his heart pounded through his chest, he couldn't believe what he had just shouted in front of Baby's father, he was sure Cutter would pulverise him into a pulp in this hospital bed. Otis was always nervous around Cutter, yes he had taken Otis in when he was sick and homeless but they also had a very strained relationship. While in Cutters care he had done the unthinkable, Otis had seen Cutter as a father figure he had given Otis a job, fed him and clothed him. But one night while getting drunk, eating pizza and watching the football Cutter had done the unthinkable and broken Otis's trust in him forever. It had been a while since Cutter had had some pussy he was drunk and he was horny, he looked over at the paralytic Otis and decided he would make do he wasn't into men but with the long hair he could just imagine that he was a woman as long as he kept his face pressed down. Otis was drunk Cutter never thought for a minute that Otis would remember in the morning but he had. And since then Otis had been wary and cautious around Cutter terrified that he would decided to do it again.

They argued a lot and had lots of testosterone bouts of who should be head of the household but Otis easily backed down afraid of what Cutter would do to him if he got him really mad.
"What's that happy boy?" Cutter asked daring him to repeat what he had said.
"I...Cutter...I" Otis stuttered.
"I took you in boy, I gave you a place to live and how do you repay me? You not only fuck my baby girl but you brag about it too" Cutter growled, Otis's heart monitor increased his heart beating faster.
"Yeah I did so what she's grown up?" Otis growled back trying to disguise his increased heart rate he would never let Cutter know that he was scared of him. Cutter chuckled as he heard the increasing heart rate.
"I hope you're not still sleeping with her, not when you've got Lily" Cutter warned.
"Of course not you fucker I'd never do that to her" Otis snarled but his heart monitor continued to give away his fear.
"Good 'cus if you did...Still scared of me from that are you?" Cutter chuckled as he saw the wide nervous look on Otis's face.
"Old man I ain't scared of nothin'" Otis growled back.
"Yeah? Your heart monitors saying something different asshole"
"Fuck you" Otis spat trying to hide the fear he was feeling, the thought of being helpless in Cutters presence terrified him, what if Cutter decided to do to him what he did before? He would be able to do nothing about it.
"Did I scare you that night huh?" Cutter taunted "Did I make you bleed? I remember you screamed like a little bitch, I could do it again you know and you wouldn't be able to do nothin' about it" Cutter grinned, he loved winding Otis up.

Otis's heart monitor began to go insane Cutter didn't even know a heart could beat that fast, Otis began to hyperventilate in his hospital bed.
"Jesus kid calm down I was just messing with ya" He knew Otis was nervous around him but he didn't realise that Otis was that scared of him.
"Fuck...you" Otis managed to gasp in between fish out of water type breaths.
"Otis calm down I'm not going to hurt you I was just joking around trying to get you riled"
"Yeah...well...you got me...fucking riled" Cutter sighed and sat down next to Otis.
"Otis look...I really regret that night I do, I'm sorry I did that to you I wouldn't do that to you again"
"Fuck you Cutter you ain't never sorry about shit" Otis spat, Cutter sighed and ran a hand over his bold head.
"I am sorry and I do regret hurting you, especially like that after all you've been though"
"Hmm" Otis huffed.
"I just came to check on you, see how you was I was worried about you" Cutter said.
"Ha yeah sure you worried about me don't make me laugh"
"I was, Otis I took you in as my own, you're like a son to me and I want to do everything I can to make you less scared of me, that night was a mistake"
"Too right it was a mistake, you fucking RAPED me Cutter just because you wanted something warm to sleep with and I was the only thing you had" Otis growled "Get out of here Cutter!"
"Alright Otis I'm going just think about what I said yeah?" Otis grunted in reply as Cutter stood up and left the hospital room.

Otis's emotions were all over the place when Cutter left, he took long slow breaths to try and calm his pounding heart. He was so embarrassed that his heart monitor had given away his fear, he had tried desperately to use his bravado to cover up his fear of Cutter but the machine had given him away, he felt so embarrassed that Cutter had seen him like that. But at the same time he was so confused about him, he was a joker he loved winding Otis up and he knew just how to do it that was nothing new. But Cutter said he had been worried about him? Was that true did Cutter actually care about him after what he had done? And was Cutter genuinely sorry for what he had done? Did he regret after all? He certainly seemed like he was.

Otis wanted to forgive him, he desperately wanted the loving father figure that he had had a glimpse of when first taken in by Cutter it was something he had dreamt and wished for all his childhood years, having a loving father to teach him things and hang out with watch football drink beer or go fishing. But what if he did forgive him and Cutter did the same thing to him again? But he certainly seemed regretful about hurting him all those years ago. Otis's mind was whirling with different thoughts and feelings; he would have to think long and hard about where he stood with Cutter and what to do about him.

Lily sat excitedly on the plan she couldn't wait to see her Otis, it had been a long week and she had missed him like crazy but now she was on her way back to him and she couldn't be more excited. She wondered what he had been doing while she was away; Otis never handled her going away very well he usually either got drunk or worried himself into a mess over thinking things and thinking she would meet someone while she was away and never come back to him. But that would never happen she would never leave her Otis. She hoped that this time when she came back he would have handled her time away from him well and that she would be able to be really proud of him with the difference, but most of all she worried that he hadn't done anything stupid. Otis was very book smart and street smart too but sometimes Otis lacked general common sense which caused him to have his fair share of accidents, Rufus was just as bad they encouraged each other in their immature pursuits and childish acting up, without an adult voice of common sense there they did childish testosterone matches that usually ended up in disaster and that was what she was most worried about while she had been away.

Lily swung open the front door to the Firefly house hold and dumped her cases on the floor by the wall; she would deal with them later.
"Otis I'm back!" She called, her voice was met with silence she walked to the foot of the stairs and shouted up but no one answered. Lily frowned with confusion; this was odd the Firefly household was never empty. Slowly she walked down into the basement which was Tiny's bedroom; she rushed to him and looked up at him.
"Tiny where is everyone, have you seen Otis?" She asked quickly worried as to what had gone on.
"Hospital" Was all Tiny said, he was shy around ladies and was a man of few words.
"Hospital? Oh god Otis" She panicked "Thanks Tiny" She called behind her as she ran back out of the house and made a mad dash to the hospital.