Fuck, it was short again. Gomensaaaai (I love you!)
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--Chapter 6, not worse than you--
Sasori's P.O.V.
I had to talk to someone, someone who actually knew about the whole situation. Unfortunately, nobody like that existed. So, I had to tell somebody. Nagato. Who else? So I was sitting on that same bench they had talked on the last time, and I spilled everything to him.
"Well… I'm sure Deidara won't do things with him voluntarily, so I think you're overdoing it. If he really likes you, he'll come to you in the end… Man, I still can't believe it! Are you sure he's a guy?" Pein said and scratched his hair.
"No shit Shakespeare." I replied and lit a cig. "But if I quit… What says he'll know how I feel unless I keep showing it?" Nagato took the cig and put it in his mouth.
"Well… There's no guarantee for that of course, but right now you might just pain him more."
Pissed, I stole the cig back, and grunted.
"If you love him, let him come to you. Don't push it. And if he now loves you brother, leave them alone." He added and left for his date with Konan. "Don't screw it up Sasori."
"Fuck off." I replied and buried my face in my hands.
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God, I couldn't stand it.
'Don't rush it. Calm down. Let him go. Lose him. Forget him. No way can I do that! I've got to fight for him, and win. I have to win.'
In the end I knew I had to face him sometime anyway, so I simply went to his home. His sister wasn't too happy to see me. Well, she was really pissed and she slapped me really hard and shouted at me. It took some time but then she finally let me in. I walked quietly into his room. He was deep concentrated with something on his computer, and didn't noticed me first, until I placed my hands on his shoulders and turned his chair around. He just starred at me with fear before breathing out.
"Sasori…" he startled again. "Sasori!" he shook his head and told me to get out, to get away. Leave quickly. I got a tighter grip and sat down in his lap, not letting go of his eyes.
"Now I've got you, so you better listen to me." He was frozen below me. I placed my forehead against his and cupped his face in my hands.
"I wanna know. How can I steal you back? I know you never wanted me in the first place… But I'm not a person who gives up that easily."
He started to shiver. Was I frightening him?
He turned his eyes away from me and took a stuttering breath. He asked me to leave again. I slid my arms around his neck and kissed him. I carefully bruised my tongue against his upper lip, and then kissed him again. He placed his shaky arms around me and kissed me back. I was really surprised over that, honestly, since he had wanted me to disappear so badly just a moment ago. I leaned closer to him and attached our mouths fully. His eyes were dripping. I suppose I should say he was crying, but he wasn't. His eyes were just simply overflowed with tears. He stabbed his tongue into my mouth and he licked the roof in my mouth. Content I slipped my tongue into his mouth as well and enjoyed myself with his taste. I was in heaven. But his tears started to bother me. Even if it wasn't crying, something was wrong.
I pulled away, but still held my arms around him tightly.
"Answer me." I asked huffing and I could tell my eyes were pleading.
He sobbed and buried his face on my shoulder.
"I want to be yours. I promise, I do. But it's impossible." Now he cried.
"Why?"
"Your brother… He-" I didn't heard anything more. His words were drowned in sobs and he pushed me off him. I knew. He'd choose Gaara over me. I was unwanted. I rose and stroke the back of my hand against his cheek. I loved him. I loved him so I'd leave him alone. I tried to smile but I felt too empty, my face didn't shift at all. Unwillingly my fingers left his cheek and I walked home.
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Deidara's P.O.V
I didn't want to go to school today. I didn't want to face any of the brothers. Or, I maybe wanted to see Gaara so I could hit him as hard as I could. Maybe even break off the hostage he had on me. If I did, I could look Sasori in the eyes again. But what if his brother would do something horrible to him? Well, Sasori was probably stronger, and the Akatsuki would easily beat him down of course. But there was guarantee for that. And if he gets killed because of me, I wouldn't stand living on by myself. I can't live like this. Fuck, if I just hadn't kissed him! I didn't even mean to!
I muttered curses to myself and my stupidity when somebody grabbed my arm and pulled me into a bathroom. Please not Gaara, please not Sasori, please no red haired person at all! I prayed as I turned around.
"Konan! Your hair is blue!" I shouted happily and hugged her.
"Whaaaa?! You haven't noticed that before? Anyway, you've been so sneaky!"
"Sneaky?" I asked when she pulled up my shirt. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"
"OMG you really are a boy! Just like Bou!" she said and giggled wickedly.
She looked at me with sparkling eyes and straddled me. She pulled my shirt off, still giggling, and started to touch me. I panicked below her but she was stronger than me. How in hell could a girl be stronger than me? If somebody didn't come I'd be raped! The door opened, hallelujah!
"Kisame! Help me out here!" Kisame looked at me. Then at Konan. Then he grinned evil.
"Want some help Konan?" he asked and stepped closer. I just starred at him as he unzipped my pants. Konan pressed her lips at mine. Somebody, anybody, help!
But nobody came.
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referring to Bou from An café
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