Through my Veins – A Cuddy & House Story

Inspired by James Blunt's "I really want you"

Disclaimer: House is owned by Fox and the Lyrics of "I really want you" belong to James Blunt. But this little story is mine =)

Authors Note: This is just a short, yet finished story about House and Cuddy that came into my mind while listening to the Song "I really Want you" by James Blunt. I hope you will like my little Story. Feedback is love, please let me know what you think. Its my first House/Cuddy, and the first in a really, really long time. Thanks in Advance!

Enjoy!

*** Chapter Six ***

Cuddy snuck out of the room in the very early morning hours and flew back home. She met up with Cameron to get her baby girl, but didn't stay to talk to her. She needed her home, her safe place around her, protecting her from the world.

Hour after hour passed with her just sitting there. She played with Rachel, but her thoughts were still with her conversations, her fights with House. She remembered those moments when they had been close. She thought about the moment she lost the opportunity to get the first baby, when she had been sitting in her house crying about the child, and he had visited her. Their kiss followed. She closed her eyes and knew what he meant about the hallucination. She still could feel the passion running through her veins.

When Lucas came over later, he knew within a second something was wrong. The Cuddy he knew wasn't around.

"Where is the baby?", he asked.

"She is sleeping." She looked at him. "We... need to talk." Her voice broke.

"How was your trip? Where have you been?"

"I went to Maine."

"Maine? What did you do there? That's the end of the world, somehow."

She kept silent, bit her lip.

"It's House", she whispered.

"What did this idiot do now? And you, as always, had to jump to help him out?"

The judging tone in his voice made her angry. "That's what you do for friends. You help the people you love. And I didn't do a good job with that lately. Not with House, not with Wilson or House's team. All those people were trembling, and I wasn't around. Maybe it's not my job to hold everybody's hand, true, but as a friend, it is my job to be there and sit down to listen, collect the broken pieces and help to form something new... I was so wrapped in my little bubble and tried so hard to be happy – and yes, you do make me happy – but I can not forget about the rest of the world."

"So now it is my fault you dumped your friends?", he snapped back.

Cuddy closed her eyes. "No."

And then Lucas understood, or maybe had known the whole time. "It's House", he said. "It's always been him."

She had to look at him, had to open her eyes again, making sure she could speak it out. "It's House", she managed to whisper, her voice trembling. And the truth finally got her. It has always been House. From the first moment they met, there was a connection, which drew them together closer and closer with every fight, every supporting word, every discussion, even every look. She never realized – or never admitted – not knowing how to handle it. Tears started streaming down her cheeks when she saw the man sitting in front of her. Lucas. He was a good guy, a solid guy, interesting and nice. Loving, caring for her baby girl. And her mind still screamed to hold him with everything she could. Just her heart, her heart wanted something dangerous, something wild, something House.

Lucas nodded. "Fine. I always kinda hoped you wouldn't realize." He came over, hugged her for a moment. "I think I knew it." Then he kissed her forehead, softly. "Take care."

She watched the door closing behind him, and felt more tears running down her cheeks. What did she just do? She went to Rachel's room and sat next to the bed, crying silent tears, trying to think. Maybe House has been right, maybe they always had bad timing. Maybe he let the moment pass. Or maybe she did, because she never said a word either.

All she knew was she didn't want to loose him.

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Authors Note: Sorry this is short but I had to split it... Next Chapter ( No. 7) will be the last. Let me know what you think please?