Thalia's POV

I had admitted all my feelings for Reyna to Percy. I just poured my heart out, every word brought the weight of how much I loved her, I really did, she was everything.

I trusted Percy with this, I trust him with my life, he's my best friend, I didn't tell him about our recent falling out though, that hurt too much to put into words.

Percy also told me about him and Artemis, at first I thought it was a bunch of bullshit, but his words had a cost to him, very much like my own, I could see the pain it brought him when he spoke of shouting at her earlier today, he didn't tell me the reason why they were arguing, but it gave him great pain so I just left it.

"Looks like we both have a tough love life?" I muttered Percy gives me a questioning look at this but I just waved him off and the horn for lunch blew, I stood and so did Percy, he quickly retrieved his shirt and put it on.

He looked like he had just been on a refreshing walk on the beach, but his eyes, those eyes said everything, he was falling, falling hard for the lady, and he shouted at her which brought him into a great depression, but he plasters on a smile, for everyone around him.

I wish I was as strong as him in that quality.

We walked back in a comfortable silence; no words are needed for us to understand each other.

I was just happy I had him when no one else wants me; at least I will always have Percy.

The thought playing on my mind was Reyna, her crisp obsidian eyes that saw everything, her flowing black hair, like pouring tar, soft, and delicate as a flower. She was perfect, too good for me.

When we reached the tent I sat between Artemis and Percy to save arguments that would rip out of Artemis.

She is quite a woman.

What surprised me was the sorry glance Artemis gave Percy discreetly but an even bigger shock was when he ignored it.

Percy has the biggest heart I know, he would have forgiven her by now if it was a normal argument, I'll look into more detail later.

I look up into them beautiful black eyes, I wanted to speak to her, I did, I just didn't want to hurt her.

I looked away.

I look at the grains in the table while everyone eats; it was obviously oak, by how close the grains were and the brownie gold colour to it…

I was just doing this to try and distract myself; I had to pull myself together…

My gaze slowly rises to her face, what I saw broke my heart further.

Reyna wasn't eating but playing with her food, a tear slowly slips out of her eye when she thinks no one is looking, her complete attention on her food.

A pang of guilt hit me like a truck, was I really turning into a filthy man? Was I hurting my Reyna by being around her? No. Not mine, she doesn't want that.

My eyes moved down to her breasts, they were not too big but not too small, a hand could fit around it perfectly, perfectly round and right, her bra kept them stable… If I rip that pathetic bra off them tits will-

I mentally slapped myself, I can't think this, I look down at my lap, my small scarred hands lay there, I looked into my palms.

I was even thinking like a man.

Unwanted sobs racked my body.

I'm no better than any man out there.

Everyone's attention turns to me, but I really couldn't care less at the moment, Artemis' hand rests on my shoulder and she was muttering soft caring words to find out the problem, but I wasn't really listening.

I push her hand off and mutter, "You don't want to touch anyone that's just like a typical boy," I use emphasis on the word boy in complete disgust.

"Oh Thalia, what do you mean by that, I can help you."

I simply brush her off and mutter "I fell in love and all I do is hurt them."

All gasp except Percy, Reyna and surprisingly Artemis, "Thalia, I know you would never break your vow, who was it you fell for?"

"A girl…" I said quietly, fewer people gasp, but that wasn't bothering me at the moment, what was bothering me was why I haven't been killed or kicked out of the hunt.

I asked the question that was playing on everyone's tongue "why am I still here?"

Artemis laughs softly "the oath says to turn your back on men, not women, you're okay having a relationship with a girl as long as it doesn't make the hunt slow down."

I still don't calm down and Artemis notices my unease and asks "what's wrong sister?"

That one word, it touched me, she called me sister… it just made me want to pour my heart out.

"I always take it too far and look too long and touch the wrong places…"

Once again, Artemis laughs and says "Thalia, that's what love is about, you make mistakes and you fix them, and you learning to love so you'll touch her in the wrong places and look at her too long because you're new to it all, trust me, you'll get better"

I look up at Reyna without anyone noticing, our eyes connect for a moment, and an untold desire was shining in those dark eyes as she looked into my own.

After the smallest moment she looked away, probably not trying to draw attention to us, therefore I looked to the side of her at the bear hide that hung proudly on the wall.

Artemis tries to tell me to go to bed and Iris message my "Girlfriend", but I declined and told her that I called a break between us.

"Hey, Thals… do you want to talk about it and blow some steam on archery?" Percy asked with that big heart of his, he's a right softie.

I nodded at his offer.

the hunters leave to do their jobs quietly, still in shock from the news. only me, Artemis, Percy and Reyna was left in the room.

Gods Percy just give me the best reason to leave right now. obviously my bad luck kicking me while I'm down…

Artemis grabs Percy and drags him off to her tent shouting back to me "he'll be right back!"

I stood up ready to leave, but I heard Reyna mutter my name softly, so quiet only I could hear it in a crowded room, that's how much I cared for her, I couldn't walk away from that so I sat in the chair next to her, facing Reyna.

Reyna also turns to face me, I hold her soft hand in my own, her eyes gaze down to my hands holding her own.

"where are they from." she asked in more of a demand than a question, her voice took on a new light of determination.

I decided to ignore the question, but that only made her more determined, she jumped up and swung her leg over my own so she's straddling my legs and cups my face in her soft delicate hands and demands, "where, Thalia, tell me now."

I ramble/mutter about cutting myself because I thought I hurt her.

Reyna softens up and kisses me softly, her delicate lips curling around my own so perfectly you'd think we were made for each other, when we break away from each other we cringe from the distance between us so we rest our foreheads against each other.

"you can never, ever hurt me, Thalia…" Reyna says softly, not to break the moment we just made.

my fingers traced the hem of her silver vest that was popping out of the bottom of her jacket.

she looked down at my fingers then back up to me, she bites her lip and says "how about going back to the tent or in the woods before you start stripping me?"

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