After a second, I asked "Troy, you have really gotten stronger. Before I left you could only give people piggy back rides." I said, hoping to boost his ego.

"Yeah, before you left. I'm assuming you weighed more than at least a hundred pounds." he said. He was right. I had weighed about 120. Now I weighed barely over 90. I guess I hadn't noticed how little I was getting. That just goes to show, I didn't ever get the munchies. I was so drugged up half the time that I didn't ever feel the hunger.

I grabbed a bunch of junk food from the pantry, still clinging to Troy. We then proceeded to pile into the living room. Only then did Troy put me down so I could get a movie going. But when I came back and was planning on sitting next to him he, instead pulled me on him again. Apparently, he felt like if he was always holding me, no boys would try to get me. Taylor and Chad were curled up on the chair across from us. Before long, both the boys were asleep and Taylor and I moved to the floor with a blanket.

"Taylor, have you and Chad had sex yet?" I asked suddenly. I had been wondering for a while now.

She looked very surprised. "No, we want to be perfect when we do. Not just some random night." she said. I looked down ashamed.

Her eyes widened as she said "Oh, Gabby, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it like that at all."

"No, its ok, I understand. If I hadn't already done it I would want the same thing." I said telling the truth. "Listen, Taylor, wait till it's absolutely perfect. Don't waste it like I did. It was the one thing that's ever really yours and the one thing that you never really get back." I told her trying to convince her to wait.

"Did any of them ever mean anything Gabby?" she asked.

"No." I said, for once actually feeling terrible about it. "I never stopped to think about how I felt. I always just liked how I felt wanted for one night. But I regret it now." I said.

After a moment of thinking she said abruptly. "Do you love Chad like a boyfriend?"

My eyes widened and I started laughing more than any high had ever made me. I mean, real tears were coming from my eyes and I was starting to snort. Soon, so was Taylor.

"NO!!! Not ever!" I said calming down some. "I mean, I do love him, but not like you do. I love him like a little kid loves their dad. Sometimes I wonder if maybe my subconscious knew that if I stopped talking to Chad, I would go crazy. He's a big reason I'm still living today. Like my soul only barely kept alive to talk to him every Friday night."

"So then do you love Troy?" she asked. I knew she had been wanting to ask forever.
"I really don't know. I mean I love him like a friend for sure. But, I don't think he could ever really want to be with me. Not after what he's seen and heard now. I think that if he could ever really love me, I would do anything to hear it. And to be with him. So yes, I love him." There. I finally said it. I loved Troy Bolton, but I'm almost positive that he could never love me.

"Taylor?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks for still being my friend, and for sharing your boyfriend with me every Friday night. And for helping me pack." I said.

"What do you mean?" she asked confused.

"I'm coming home. My dad won't care and I like Gabby better than Brie any day of the week, and you are going to have to come help me pack if we want to leave by tomorrow morning." I said grinning.

"OH MY GOSH!! Yes! Let's go come on!!" she yelled as she drug me upstairs to my room.

Not once did the boys ever wake up. Not when we got tape all over each other or when we were throwing all of my stuff down the stairs to wait by the door. Or when we called my mom to come pick us up.

After all night of packing Taylor and I finally went to bed. We slept in my room not wanting to be there when the boys woke up. I set my alarm for 8. My mom said that she would be there around 10 so that left enough time for us to get ready wake the boys up, tell my dad, and call all of my friends and say goodbye. Not that it mattered because I was only going to call Dale and Deanne. They, after all, were the only real friends I ever made over there. And I wasn't going to let them go that easily.

That's your present from me for being so (hopefully) good on the first day of school. Now as you know, since school is in, I won't be able to update as much as I used to. So there you go! Like it? Hate it? Tell me in your REVIEW!!! Thnx :)

Rachel :)