Chapter 6

Chapter 6

"What are you doing?" Kagome asked as she and Inuyasha drove to the doctor's office. Inuyasha was missing work today just to drive her to the day. Today she was to get an ultrasound of the child that she was currently carrying. Any normal woman would be overjoyed to be seeing their child for the first time. But Kagome hated the idea of having to view this child. After all, there was a chance that she was carrying Sesshōmaru's child. The child of the man who had brutally raped her four months before. She had prayed the night before that the doctor would find something wrong with the fetus. That way she could have an abortion and be spare the agony of giving birth to his child.

"What are talking about Kagome?" Inuyasha said as he attempted to smile. "Today is the day we get to see the little guy. You think I want to miss that?"

"Inuyasha…" Kagome looked towards her husband with a sorrowful look. "You do know the chances of you being the father are the same as Sesshōmaru." Inuyasha didn't answer.

Of course I know. He though. He wasn't an idiot. He knew that this could be his half-brother's child. He was aware that his wife could give birth to his niece or nephew. If anything, he was just as upset about this situation as his wife was. But there was no point in worrying about it now. It's not like either of them could do anything about it. All he could do was had to put on a brave front for kagome. No more how much it hurt him.

They sat in silence until they arrived at the clinic.

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Kagome laid on the exam table with her stomach exposed. She worn an emptied expression as the nurse prepped her for the ultrasound. Though the poor girl tried to make conversion with Kagome, she was ignored.

"Kagome," Inuyasha whisper as the nurse left. "You could at least pretend to be happy." But Kagome glared back at him. Kagome was in no mood to be told what to do.

"Hello again Kagome." Dr. Midoriko said cheerfully as she walked into the room. Inuyasha greeted back as Kagome remained silent. The doctor placed the scanner on Kagome and began to move across her stomach. "Well Kagome, it looks like everything is going fine with your little one." She moved it a couple of more times. "No abnormalities, No deformations, no complications. Everything is going fine."

Great. Kagome though bitterly. She was hoping that there was something wrong with the child. But now it seemed that she was forced to carry this thing to full term.

"That's great." Inuyasha said as he stared in amazement at the screen where the baby was being shown. He honestly wanted to believe that this was his kid. Kagome took a glance, but she couldn't feel anything but animosity towards the small being that was living in her body.

I don't care. She thought as she turned the other way. I want nothing to do with this child.
"Is it a boy or a girl?" Inuyasha asked, trying to take the focus away from his wife's indifference. "It's probably a boy. Just look at that!" he pointed at the screen.

"That's the baby's umbilical cord." The doctor gave a small chuckle. "I'm afraid that it's a little too soon to know the little one's gender yet. You'll find out in five weeks."

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"So what do you think it is? A boy or a girl?" Inuyasha asked as they walked back to their car Against Kagome's protest, Inuyasha had asked for a picture to take home. Even though Kagome wanted nothing to remind her that she was having a child. But of instead of responding, Kagome snatched the photo out of Inuyasha's hand and balled it up before dropping it on the floor. "Kagome!" he shouted as he picked up the crumbled paper. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Just stop it." She turned to him, her eyes holding back tears. "Stop acting like everything is alright! Stop acting like you're damn happy about this child! We both know that this child could be Sesshōmaru's!"

"I'm just trying to be optimistic!" he shouted back.

"Well cut it out! It's getting on my nerves!" she slammed the car door hard.

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Inuyasha sat on the couch as the television was on. But Inuyasha wasn't paying any attention to it. His mind was on Kagome. After the visit, Kagome had come home and went straight to the bedroom. She didn't even bother to eat lunch or dinner. But he couldn't really blame her. She was carrying a child that, quite frankly she did not want to have. Until they were certain that child was his, neither of them would ever be happy. Turning off the television, he went into the kitchen to fix his wife something to eat.

"Kagome." Inuyasha opened the door slight to hear Kagome crying. As he walked in, he saw Kagome lying on the bed, her face buried into the pillow. She didn't even bothered to dress out of the clothes she had worn earlier today.

"I brought you something to eat." He said as he set the tray down on the nightstand.

"Leave me alone." Kagome cried as she pulled the covered over her head. But Inuyasha sat on the bed.

"Kagome," he placed his hand on the cover. "I know this situation is hard for you. I feel the same way. But starving yourself is not going to help anything. So please eat something."

"The same?" Kagome lifted her head from the pillow, glaring at him. "How would you know how I feel?" she hissed. "I was raped by your brother, and now I could be pregnant with his child! You have no god damn idea how I damn feel! "She sat up. "So stop giving me you stupid fake sympathy!" Inuyasha was quiet for a minute.

"Kagome," he said with guilt reddened look on his face. "Do you blame me for what happen to you?"

"What?" Kagome just stared back at her husband, astonished that Inuyasha would even consider that he was at fault for what Sesshōmaru had done. It's not as if Inuyasha wanted his brother to hurt. "How could you ever think I that I would blame you." But as she spoke, she wondered if she believed herself. She always referred to Sesshōmaru as his brother, as if he was responsible for that man's action. Every time she was upset, she would snap at Inuyasha. She had even stopped sleeping with him. At first, she thought it was because of the ordeal she suffered. Now she was wondering if it was just to punish him for what had happened.
Inuyasha can only bring misery to the people around him. And still you chose to be with him. She could hear Sesshōmaru's voice echoing in her head. Did she honestly believe what he had said to her?

No! She thought. She would never let Sesshōmaru poison her marriage with his cheap words.

"I'm sorry, Inuyasha." She wrapped her arms around his neck. It was the first time in months since she had any physical contact with her husband. "For everything. If anything, it's my fault. Maybe if I would have listened to you, I wouldn't be pregnant."

"There is no point blaming yourself." He picked up the bowl and handed it to her. "Now please eat something. If not for me, then for the baby's sake." Kagome took the bowl from him and began to eat.

"So what will happen after the baby is born?" Inuyasha asked as Kagome ate. It was a subject that neither of them had discuss since they had found out about the impending birth of the child. "Are we going to keep him?" Kagome placed the bowl back on the tray.

"Inuyasha, we should probably give the child up for adoption. I don't want you to raise a child that isn't yours," she started off, but Inuyasha cut her off.

"Kagome, there is still a chance this baby is mine. I don't want the kid to grow up without parents." He smiled at his wife. "And even if it's not mine, I will still be a father to the baby."

"Inuyasha, you can't possibly be fine with raising your niece or nephew." Kagome asked in uncertainty. "It wouldn't be fair to you."

"Don't worry." Inuyasha hugged his wife. "Whatever you decide, I will always be by your side." Inuyasha said. Even though Kagome loved her husband, she questioned if he was truly being sincere.