Positive.

I was positively certain that I was going to lose my mind. I had been positively certain that my life was absolutely fine the way it was; Steele Publishing reaching the number one spot for Publishing Houses across America-not without the help of Grey Enterprises, but nonetheless a success. I'd single handedley brought Jonah Marx out of hiding-with the aid of Christian's private eye team... but it'd started off as my idea. Now with Jonah on the roster of authors working directly with Steele Publishing I was sure to be the mega mogul of the writing industry. Christian had expanded business to asia and with that alliance in the works, Grey Enterprises was a household name among contracting firms, real estate development-anything that produced green typically as familiar with my husbands signature shade of Grey. Teddy was only 10 months old and had been doing phenomenal inhis studies-only 10 months but already familiar with the commonly found animals and the first few letters of the alphabet. And now this...

Positive?

I found myself plopping back on the toilet seat, test in hand, and heart in stomach. Success was something that I was just recently becoming accustomed to and I wasn't ready for a new responsibility like this-not that my previous pregnancy had given me anything to look forward to the second time around. My eyes darted between the pink plus sign and my brand new peruvian bathroom rug that I'd brought in to replace the one Teddy had smeared... excrements over; toddlers and diapers left alone together for even a moment meant tyranny.

Teddy

I quickly disposed of the pessimistically positive pregnancy test, making haste and shoving it loosely into the trash next to the toilet. I'd need to think about this all later; I had a son to take care of and several weeks worth of reading to catch up on. The news of this pregnancy certainly wasn't anything shocking to me-Christian had been rocking my world for the last six weeks in the beautiful region of Playa del Carmen. Our vacation was last minute for me but apparently a bone of contension for my mega mogul husband. Grey Enterprises had recently absorbed the telecommunications firm of BT&R and with it several acres of uninhabited development property-it was a multi billion dollar deal and one that launched Christian into a new tax-hemosphere, although the riches were only an ambition for Christian early in his career, it was still what brought him home hungry and full of desire, which personally was a recompense for me every time. Nonetheless, his success in such a business deal required that the family take a long vacation; Christian, Ana and Teddy by day-Christian takes Ana by night.

Christian... Did you pack any of my birth control before you packed our things?

I sifted through my bags quite fervently in hopes that I'd at least find one small little pink pill. There was no way that Sonia couldn't have packed it. Of course she didn't-any chance to get you fat and pregnant and have her swoop in would be a personal gain for her. My inner goddess crossed her arms, eyes ablaze at the special attention that my new personal assistant had paid to my husband. Christian wouldn't have known to pack the birth control; since our marriage he'd found it unnecessary as he'd once done to remind me of my own personal rules for contraception given that any pregnancy that came about under the confines of our very public marriage wasn't much of a brand killer for him anymore. Nonetheless I wasn't thrilled with the idea of wearing a pregnancy for the next 36 weeks-not with the ground we'd just recently broken with Grey Enterprises and Steele Publishing.

"I didn't pack anything... Sonia must have forgotten."

I'd felt him before he even laid hands on me. I knew when he was close and could feel my skin crawl when he was far-the heat we shared, the passion between us was too great to not be kinetically intertwined. His thumbs stroked either side of my arms and slowly his fingers began their descent. My breath hitched in my throat and soon the roughness of his finger pads found their way to the lips of my womanhood. He groaned in my ear and I felt it in my clit.

"God Ana... You're always so ready for me..."

The heat crept up in my cheeks and I remember the nights we spent in Mexico; holding our son in our arms by day and watching him play in the sand-holding each other by night and watching the moon through our throws of passion.

I hadn't been holding Teddy long before I finally mustered up the courage to get him dressed and take him into the office-I knew the sooner I waited the harder it would be to tell him... and yet the excitement of announcing my pregnancy began to set in, sitting closely to the fear that came with the trauma I experienced in my previous pregnancy. He's gone Ana... he's never coming back. I shook my head and focused on the squirming little one as I clasped his final button on his napper, pulling a corderoy sweater over top of him and sticking tiny converses on his feet.

"Come here mama's boy... Time to see daddy."

I loaded him in the car, deciding to give Taylor a rest and finding my own way to the Grey Enterprises head office. I needed time to drive and gather myself-I wasn't going to blurt it out and I certainly wasn't going to fall into a bottle of emotion before a man who would need to work for the remainder of the day after I leave. A thought became me and I stopped off at Christian's favourite coffee shop, The Burgmans-where we'd first had coffee together.

"You seem nervous.."

"I find you intimidating... not to mention high handed."

With my purchase in hand, careful to make sure that I kept everything just as it'd been presented, I finished the drive in lowering my sunglasses as I gave a swift nod to the security guard who proceeded to guide me through the gates to the undeground parking garage of Grey Enterprises. "C'mon big boy, mama's got you..." I handed off the coffee and tea biscuit to Barney who held onto it as though it were the enheirtance of Grey Enterprises and Steele Publishing himself.

"I reckon you have something to say to do ya ?"

I smiled wide at his freckled face as he focused on the writing inside the pastrie. Once I got a hold of Teddy's carseat I took my things back and gave him a wink. "Thank you Barney...". I found my way to the elevators and kept a close eye on both Teddy's carseat and my precious announcement on the ride up-careful to make sure that at least this very moment as important as it is, I wouldn't mess up. It wasn't long before I was at the top floor and pushing the door open with my ever so patient derrier-and there he was; standing by the windows in his three piece suit, the vest unbuttoned with his phone to his ear-he was aggravated. As if on queue, Teddy immediately squeeled and clapped his hands, pleased to see his daddy in any form other than the one he was accustomed to, sweat shirt and sweat pants.

He turned and his smile immediately took over. "Preston, I'll call you back..." He hung up without waiting for a response and came over instantaneously.

"My boy, Hello Theodore." He says while lifting him out and holding him above his head. I smiled and set my announcement down along with Teddy's diaper bag, a whirling dirvish of animal crackers and elmo diapers. "I wouldn't do that if I were you... he just ate." I smiled and pressed my lips against his, calming instantly at the sensation of having him close to me in a time of such extreme emotion. He must have felt it because he fought my kiss with ferocity that excited my loins with quick haste. I pulled away out of respect for our son and knowing that an announcement such as this would mean a night full of passions regardless.

"To what do I owe such a pleasure Ms. Steele..."

With a grin and a quick cardiac event I took Teddy and nodded to the brown paper bag. "Look inside there... I brought you a surprise." I propped Teddy on my hip and held my chest in apprehension awaiting his realization of my lifechanging news. His hands delicately folded the paper bag downwards and pulled out my blueberry muffin, one that I'd ordered so long ago, only this time with the words daddy on it. He stared at it for a moment in confusion-but once my eyes met his he knew. His eyebrows lept off his face and I was certain he was going to faint.

"Anastasia, is it true? How do you know?"

My beaming face was nearly too frozen to answer but I remembered that alas I had answering to do.
"This morning, I'm five weeks." I smiled wide and he finally allowed his face to match what I was certain was occuring inside. "You're pregnant?" He confirmed with trepidation but ultimately excitation. I nodded and bounced Theodore on my hip.

"Yes, I'm pregnant."