Regret....
"Where's Takano?" Asuka asked, quite bluntly and informally- Sunako noted. She thrust her hands into the sudsy water and scrubbed the dished from the previous meal. She flinched, only slightly, as she remembered Kyohei leaving her. She told him to ,as reserved as she could be. Before she would have wanted him to stay near her just so she was able to be conscious of him, but those feelings had been damaged, she was now sick to be near him. She couldn't be with him and her body was telling her this, but something inside her made her revolted with her conclusion, but the idea of being in love with him again made her feel unusual….
" Not here…" She replied as though she were merely stating the pathagreon theorem. She could feel the old women's stare but chose to ignore it. "Where is my daughter?"
"Sleeping on the cot…"
Sunako's hackles raised she could her the steely tone in Asuka's voice. She knew that tonight she would not sleep peacefully…
" What happened with you and Takano Kyohei?"
"Nothing."
She heard the old woman moved towards her, her feet shuffling across the floor. Both women were no in the tiny kitchen.
"Sunako, do not lie to me!" The old woman hissed.
" I told him to leave", She shouted, her body turned to face the old woman so that they could both see each other. Sunako was tensed ready for anything the woman would do or say to her.
" You selfish woman," Asuka groaned, Sunako flinched back and tried to keep her pokerface. " How can you take the father of your child out of her life and call yourself responsible!"
"I did what I-"
"LIES! Listen to me child, you are not helping anyone by not dealing with the things you left undone. "
Sunako bit her lips and knew that the woman spoke the truth. She felt cold, the hair on her body stood. Her lower lip quivered as she tried to fight against the feelings that were usually so well contained and controlled.
"…But I'm scared."
The old woman softened. " Sunako, I sorry… I just don't want tot see my mistakes repeated… " ,She put her withered hand on Sunako's cheek, " You are a smart and independent woman. You don't need anyone to help you stand up, but don't let your stubbornness be a barrio to happiness." Asuka smiled widely, until her eyes crinkle and glow. Sunako was about to ask her what she meant when she interrupted her.
"I'll watch Amerasu. You go to her father, Kyohei…"
And with that she turned and walked to the other room, leaving Sunako alone again for the second time that day. She let herself fall against the fridge. She was so confused. She didn't what she could do.
Old memories flooded her mind, memories and promises of fulfillment. The smell of gasoline, sweat and alcohol; The feel of leather seats and skin on skin; an all to familiar tingle went down her spine. She no longer felt scared to see kyohei- she wanted to see him.
She looked at the window and saw that is was night. With little thought , she grabbed her car keys and went out the door. Her heart was thumping inside her chest the entire time. Here goes nothing…
lol really short, sorry! this is just to kinda shed some light on how sunako is feeling, if you read black waves it might make some more sense -might... the next chapter might be a bith alarming ut i'm not sure( it might be alittle on the "mature" side of life, F.Y.I)