Chapter 6:
Aria's P.O.V.
Last night was really different. I know Ciel is only concern but I don't even know that he is going to kiss me. I admit, I have this soft spot for Ciel in my heart. But we are not meant to be. He already has Lizzy and I… I already have Arthur. If we continue to love each other and cross each other's boundaries, this is going to be a mess. I never took a liking to Lizzy but I don't hate her. If Ciel and I are going to be together, Lizzy will be sad. I don't want anyone to be sad though I will be the one to take all the sadness.
"My lady, are you thinking about something?" Sebastian asked
"It is nothing important Sebastian." I replied
"I see. But do you mind if you tell me." Sebastian said
"Sebastian, if you love someone what are you going to do?" I asked
"Of course I will fight for them my lady. It's my opinion, for a love one I will do anything. Does Lady Aria fall in love for someone?" Sebastian asked
"It's not like that. Then what if your heart is on half, I mean the first half is already occupied and then another one came and then it was occupied by them." I asked
"That's quite hard my lady. But I can say you should choose one. Choose the one who you think is better." Sebastian said
"Thank you." I replied
I am sitting in the garden when I saw Ciel walking. As I saw him, I remember the kiss last night. I turn my gaze away from him and focus on the tea in my front.
"Lady Aria, your grandfather had sent me a letter that you are going back to your manor today." Ciel said
"Grandfather is already here?"I asked
"Yes and he will pick you here." Ciel said
"Thank you Ciel. I must pack my things now." I said
I leave the place and go to my room. I am going back now and that means Ciel will not be around anymore. I look outside and think. What if Ciel and I are engaged? Am I going to be happy? What if I don't meet Ciel? Am I not feeling confusion now?
After finishing in packing with the help of Mimi, I decided to go to Ciel's study. Lizzy is still busy so I can have this chance to have a small talk with Ciel. When I get back to our manor, I promise that I will forget Ciel. It is the least I can do so that Lizzy won't be hurt. Ciel must forget me and I must forget him.
When I reach the door of Ciel's study, I become nervous. I took all of my courage and knock bravely. I heard him saying come in so I open the door.
"Aria, what brings you here?" Ciel said as he signs some papers
"Sorry to disturb you. I need to talk you." I said
"About what." Ciel said with a boring tone
"About us." I said and he suddenly stops
"Us?" Ciel asked
"Yes." I said
"What about us?" Ciel asked
"I… You… must forget each other." I said
"Forget? How can I forget?" Ciel asked
"Try to act like you don't know me." I said
"Act? Are you insane? You want me to forget you? It is hard to do Aria! For heaven's sake, even though I try your well being always flashes in my mind." Ciel said
"Do everything on your might! You're Earl Ciel Phantomhive! You can run a company for a young age but you can't forget a girl!" I said
"Aria, don't blame me if I can't forget you! How can I do a thing like that if in my dreams you still exist! Death is the best thing to do if I want to forget you." Ciel said
"Then I will act dead and will never appear to you. If I exist in your dream then consider that as my ghost." I said as I walk out
I close the door and tears are starting to form in my eyes. As I walk back to my room, I saw Lizzy walking to Ciel's study. She looks at me but I just look away. Her eyes are full of curiousity.
"Uhmmm… I'm not concern or what but why are you crying?" Lizzy asked
"Nothing." I said
"Nothing? Your eyes tell it. Is Ciel got angry to you?" Lizzy asked
"No he's not." I replied
"If you say so, I must go to Ciel now." Lizzy said as she leaves
I enter my room and sit on the bed silently. I think I might break down if I will not stop crying. I know it's hard to do but why does Ciel don't want to forget me. I wipe the tears in my eyes and look at the mirror. I must fix myself before Grandfather comes. I don't want him to see me crying.
After finishing fixing myself, I heard a knock from the door. I open it and it is Ciel. I look at him dead in the eye.
"Is there something I can do for you?" I asked
"I want to talk." Ciel said
"Talk? Sure." I replied
"It is about earlier, if you want me to forget you then I will. But don't expect it will take me a shorter time." Ciel said
"Is that all?" I asked
"Yes, your grandfather will be arriving a little moment from now so please prepare." Ciel said
"I'm already done." I replied
"Before anything else, don't let yourself cry too much. If you will do that, I will always remember you." Ciel said in a dead eerie tone
"I will." I replied as I close the door
This is the right thing to do. We are doing it right. I look at the grandfather clock in my room and it is already lunch. I walk down and I saw grandfather and… Arthur. My eyes look at them in disbelief. My heart is rising and my cheeks are heating. Ciel looks at me and he's dead eyes are piercing to me making my heart sinks again.
"Aria!" Grandfather said
I walk downstairs slowly and when I reach the ground, my feet seem to have a mind on its own. My eyes are still glued on Arthur. His blonde hair and crystalline blue eyes, how I miss them all. Suddenly I just feel myself running to him. My eyes again are about to cry in joy. As I about to reach him, Arthur gave me a gentle smile and hugs me. I feel like I am a small child running to Arthur's arm every time I see him but this time is different. I am running to him not a cousin but a fiancée.
"Aria…" Arthur said gently
"Where have you been? You are missing for a year!" I said
"It's nothing important, princess." Arthur said
"But…"
"It is not good for a lady to cry." Arthur said as he wipes my tears
"Yes my lord." I replied
"You must be Earl Phantomhive." Arthur asked
"Yes I am." Ciel replied coldly
"Thank you for your hospitality to my cousin." Arthur said
"It's a pleasure to have Lady Aria as a visitor." Ciel said
While I am holding Arthur's hand, a tall guy wearing a butler's uniform came. He is not familiar to me and honestly I don't even see him in my entire life. It seems Arthur knows him.
"My lady, I am Richard the Brighton's new butler. I will take your things in the carriage." The man said
"Here are Lady Aria's things." Sebastian said
When I look at them, I can feel that tension is building between them same with us. Ciel seems so cold to Arthur though being cold is one of Ciel's characteristics.
"Aria, please say your thank you." Grandfather said
"Thank you for having me here, Earl Phantomhive." I said putting emphasis on the last words
Ciel was surprised and suddenly gains his composure again. I think I am the only person who saw that.
"Welcome, Lady Aria." Ciel said
As I walk outside of the Phantomhive manor, I am now starting to delete Ciel in my life. I climb into the carriage and taking a one last peek in the beautiful manor. When our carriage starts to move, the servants wave us goodbye. They are being too kind to me so I must return the favour.
As we got far, the things between Ciel and me are not the same anymore. We are now strangers nothing more nothing less.
Ciel's P.O.V.
As I saw a carriage coming, this is now the time that Aria is going to leave. Aria is now leaving and as for me, I must move on and delete my love for Aria. My forbidden love will be no more starting today.
I saw Duke Brighton coming out and another figure. That might be Arthur. As I saw completely his figure, I was surprised. Isn't he the man I bumped when the last time I go to London? I can't be mistaken, that was him. Those calm eyes and stoic face it was really him.
We talk a little when a sudden change of expression to Arthur's face was present. His face turns into a softer and gentler one. I look upstairs and Aria was there, standing frozen. I look at her in defeat. She will never be mine. Every seconds pass, my hearts sinks. What if Aria kisses him? What if I am nothing to her anymore? Time went faster and there she is. She passed me and hugs the boy she had waited for a long time. The boy she loves dearly. The boy who caught her attention since the beginning. My hearts seems to sinks in the deepest fathom of abyss. It seems that there is no light for me now.
I feel being thrown to hell when she leaves. I look at the carriage until it is out of sight. I look down trying to hold my emotions. The emotions I have had for the girl I love.
"Young master, are you alright?" Sebastian asked
"I'm fine. I need to finish something in my study. Please tell everyone that I am busy and not disturb me." I said
"Yes my lord." Sebastian said
I walk upstairs slowly. I feel that I am soulless. When I reach my study, I locked it and stood there for a minute. Why these emotions do bug me? Why? I suddenly feel pain running to my knuckles as I punch the wall. I am not like this before. I think I am not Ciel anymore. Since the day she showed up I am not myself. Why do I need to suffer like this? Why do you need to do this to me, Aria?