Cameron
I had totally shown those stupid boys what I was made of and kicked their asses at their own game. It had made me feel good, and I felt like April was with me the whole time. Watching over every move.
"Wow, I'm glad I took a chance on you, you're really good" Sean smiled. He had the most innocent face, he was a pretty boy who seemed to be sheltered from shit his whole life. But he was very sweet.
"Yeah, well taking chances are good sometimes." I laughed
"You think?" Sean smirked and closed the space between us. I looked around, Gunner and Sterling were looking at us. Great, how pissed would Gunner be if I flirted with one of his best friends. Probably very. "You know, Gunner told us to stay away from you, but I'm going to take a chance here, and hope he won't kick my ass for this" Sean laughed
"For what?"
"Why don't you take a chance and go out with me tonight, dinner. What do you say?" I could see he seemed a little nervous. Was it me? or the fact Gunner might actually kick his ass.
"You know what, I was just thinking yesterday, I need to take more chances. Pick me up at seven." I smirked and went into the house. Wow I had a date. I was feeling excited for once in a really long time. I really wanted to tell April. Today might be a good day for a letter. I ran to my room and got out some paper.
April,
you'll never guess what. I have a date tonight! An actual real date with an actual real boy. He is one of Gunner's friends and I feel a little bad about that but I think I really need this. April, I haven't been happy in so long, and that isn't your fault. Don't think that, and I know you would tell me to not blame myself for the accident. I always will and you can't change that. Hell your parents probably blame me. They probably hate me. I know I would hate me. I find myself feeling better more each day so I think that's a good sign, I'm finally starting to recover. I just had to leave home to do it. I don't even know if I want to go home. Maybe I'll stay here for school if Aunt Heather will allow it. I can't go back to that school anyways, they all know about it. They all know I lost you, my best friend. They know how lonely I'll be walking the halls without you. They will try to sympathize with me. They will say "We're here for you" but not really mean it, nobody wants to help damage. Hell not even my parents wanted to help me, sending me here for the summer to "Get Better" that's code for "Get off our hands" you know that A, you know my parents. They can't handle being there for people. Its all about them. Always has been. So when I lost you, hell I lost everything. The one person who actually gave a shit about me, back home anyway. I killed you, I killed my rock. I killed the biggest part of my life. I love you A, I know you would be screaming and rummaging through your designer clothes for me right now if you could, you would be plugging in your curler even though it would make your room 100 degrees. You really loved me A, and I really loved you. I'm sorry. I miss you. I'm sorry for everything.
xxx,
Cam
"Hey Cam" Gunner came into my room. I slammed the letter under my bed with the others I've written to April in the past.
"Hey Gun' what's up?"
"I saw you talking to Sean, I just wanted to let you know that he's a really good guy. I trust him."
"Thanks for that Gunner. " I smiled thinking he would just walk away, but nope, he walked further into my room.
"Don't blame yourself Cam. Don't torture yourself over something that was fate. I know that its hard to think about something so horrible being fate, but everything happens for a reason. It was meant to be, even if it is shitty as hell"
"How do you know I blame myself?"
"I know you Cameron. You were one of my best friends growing up. I know the look you get when you feel guilty. And lately that's the only look you have. So try to stop blaming yourself?"
"Yeah, I'll try." I said as he started walking out of my room
"Have fun tonight cuz"
Sean
She had said yes. I asked her out and she said yes. I felt a real sense of accomplishment. As soon as she had told me to pick her up at seven, off to her room she went. I had a feeling that her bedroom was her safe place, and it wasn't even her real bedroom, and with that thought I realized that she would be going home at the end of the summer, and I would probably never see her again. Unless she decided to stay, all I had with her was two months. I thought it was odd that Gunner never even told us why Cameron was even staying for the summer. He just told us it was "her parents thought she needed to get away" now what the hell does that even mean? But the fact he never said anything must mean that it was probably something major.
"Sean! Hey wait up" Sterling ran up behind me before I could get into my truck.
"What's up?"
"I saw you talking to Cameron. Whats going on with you two?" Why did he even care? If this was some type of secret job Gunner sent him to do I was done for.
"I just asked her to dinner. No big deal"
"What did she say?"
"To pick her up at seven. Jesus Sterling, whats with the damn 21 questions. You want to know what my social security number is too?"
"No, no. Sorry. Have a good time tonight Sean." He smiled and walked away from the truck. What was that all about? You would think all those questions would be coming from Gunner. I was surprised when he didn't say anything to me. I just kept waiting for a text from him. I finally got it around 6.
I trust you Sean. Don't mess this up. She can't handle much right now.
There it was. A lot calmer than I thought it was going to be.
Don't worry about it man.
It was time to get ready for my date with one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen in this small shit town. And especially one who is so down to earth. When you see someone who looks like Cameron does you don't really expect to date her, because she doesn't really date you, or anyone really. But someone who looks like her and is as sweet as anything and is so down to earth, thats someone special.