WARNING: This story contains drug abuse and violence, I am not promoting drugs nor violence, and I haven't and never will do them. This is an experiment and I've done my research on drugs. Intended for mature audiences. This is a new side to Nessie that I haven't really seen/read before, so I decided to write it instead. If this is to much for you to handle already, then you can leave if you wish, just leave a review telling me you dislikes. It would be greatly appreciated. If you are intrigued in this story, review and tell me your likes & dislikes. It would help, a lot. Intended for mature audiences..

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Nessie's POV-

I woke up in a warm bed wearing not my own clothing - hot arms were wrapped around me, burning my skin is a nice way, my eyes fluttered open to see Jacob sleeping, his arms tightened around my waist. I almost groaned.

Jacob Black slept with me in the same bed last night, and undressed me.

How did I not wake up?

"Jacob." I said softly, while prying at his arms. He didn't respond.

"Jacob." I said louder, when he didn't wake up I slapped his naked shoulder. "Wake up!" His eyes opened and he smiled lazily.

"Good morning beautiful." He said softly as he pulled me closer to his body. I rolled my eyes and tried to get loose from his arms.

"Let me go," I said softly, though the tone of my voice sounded annoyed.

"No, Just sleep a little more - lay in bed with me like we used to every morning, remember?" He asked softly, he pressed his face to my neck and kissed my creamy skin softly. I closed my eyes for a second and started to relish in the touch of his lips on my neck before snapping out of it and trying to turn away from him.

"No, I don't want to." I said angrily,

He laughed lightly before kissing my neck again, "That's why your body just slacked in my arms?" He asked, he sounded cocky.

Ass. Hole.

"Because I'm tired, I'd be screaming at you if I was actually half awake." I said, my tone was more on the bitch side. I hope he feels bad. I smiled smugly to myself before he spoke again.

"Stop lying to yourself - and me." He begged - his voice barely registering above a whisper.

"Stop trying to act like I want you. I do - I don't." I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping he didn't catch my slip up.

"Stop it." He said more harshly this time, I knew it drove him crazy when I didn't listen to him.

I wiggled some more, his grip loosened lightly - but it was still tight. "Make me," I challenged before almost getting free of his arms.

"What did you just say?" He asked while pulling me back against his body.

"Make. Me." I said again, annoyance was seeping out of my mouth and intertwining with my challenging words.

He flipped us over quickly, My back was against the mattress while Jacob hovered over me. "Say that - one more time." He asked with a smirk, while gripping onto my hips. I swallowed and began to say it - but his lips crashed onto mine before I could mutter the first syllable. I fought him for a few seconds before my mind clouded up and I began kissing him back. I grabbed his shoulders and pressed myself closer to him, feeling his warmth envelope me. My legs wrapped around his waist, I tried my hardest to not . . . grind on him. The thought made me giggle.

I froze and my eyes flew open, I pushed myself away from Jacob - who was smiling like he just won the lottery. "You kissed me back, now tell me why you keep lying to me?"

I crawled out from underneath him and off the bed, "You took advantage of me - I was half asleep." I said softly while walking away out of his bedroom.

"Bullshit, Nessie. I know you still feel it - you still feel everything." He got up and followed me. I walked in the kitchen and opened random drawers, looking for something.

"Nope," I said and opened another drawer I found a single pack of Camel and praised softly. Since when did Jake smoke? No, he didn't . . . why did he have these? Jacob saw me grab them, but he took them from my grasp as soon as I touched them.

"Are you fucking crazy?" He nearly shouted, I shook my head no and tried to grab them back. "Nessie - No. You know I can't give these to you."

I growled lightly and tried to take them again, this time he threw them out the open window - it was raining outside. I hissed and pushed past him quickly. He grabbed my waist and pulled me back, holding me in place.

"Jacob - let me go!" I shouted, while trying to pry his hands off of me. "Jacob! Let go!"

"No!" He shouted back before pushing me against the wall. "You don't need that!" He held my face with his hands, forcing me to look him in the eyes.

"I do Jacob - I do, I can't just - I just can't not have it. I need it!" I yelled, my voice started to break off slightly as the tears began to trickle down my face.

"No, no you fucking don't - look at me Nessie!" He said, I felt the alpha command down in the tips of my toes. My eyes darted up and stared into his. "You know what you need?" He asked softly, his eyes lost the hardness they possessed seconds ago.

"I need sm - " He pressed his lips onto mine roughly, only for a few seconds - but none the less it was still a kiss. One I returned hastily.

"You need me." He mumbled against my lips, my body slacked in his arms. Was I really giving in this easily?

Was he right? Do I really need him? Were drugs just my - my replacement for him?

"You don't know that, Jake." I said, my voice barely above a whisper.

He sighed, he laid his face in the crook of my neck and placed a small kiss on the skin there. "I do know that, and so do you."

I shook my head slightly, though the gesture wasn't very clear.

"God Ness - you don't understand how much you mean to me - you're my everything. And having you in my arms when you don't want to be is even harder to deal with." He mumbled, "To think I spent months just sitting here, thinking about how fucking terrible my life was without you by my side. Nessie, I fucking need you more that the air I breathe - because you are my air."

My mind was blank. Nothing could have prepared me to hear that, nothing.

"Jacob - look at me." I said softly, I didn't even know what I was about to do. But I knew it was drastic.

He looked up and straight into my doe brown eyes, the color of milk chocolate he once said.

"I love you." I said softly, before placing my lips softly on his. My hands held his face gently, that's when I knew the words I said were absolutely true.