Disclaimer :
-I don't own any of the characters... they all belong to the super-genius Masashi Kishimoto-sensei... Dattebayo!
-Only the plot is mine... mine... mine...!
-All of my published works are Un-BETA-ed... and I don't use spellchecker... I publish right after I type... at work... hahaha!
-I am so fond of punctuations...
-I am soooo into UCHIHAcest... I soooo love Sasuke and Itachi Uchiha...
Quick A/N :
Hi guys... I finally was able to start writing again... This is my Valentine tribute.
Love isn't always perfect... The pain teaches us lessons... makes us strong and be a better person... The course of Love isn't always smooth... yet the journey towards true love is worthwhile despite all the hindrance... Happy Love's Day Guys! Mwah!
This compilation of stories serves as a tribute for my favorite anime characters... The hottest anime men that ever graced the anime world (in my point of view, that is)... The gorgeous Uchiha Itachi... and the ever handsome Uchiha Sasuke... ^0^
Everything in this fic (the plot, scenes, food, places etc...) is a figment of my *perverted* imagination...bwahahahaha... XD
UCHIHA DIARIES
BOOK 10
From the pages of Itachi's diary
Dear Diary,
I need help... like, big-time!
I made the biggest mistake of my life...
And the price that I need to pay is Sasuke...
I can't... I don't want to loose him...
I can't go on without him...
Total Eclipse of the Heart
Chapter 6 : Regret and Confusion
Sasuke went to the office and left Itachi at home. He took a cab because he didn't have enough presence of mind to drive... he was so down as of the moment. He sat at Itachi's desk and stared at the red glass pen holder on the corner. He didn't even bother to turn the computer on. Konan wasn't there... he had no one to talk to. He couldn't bother Naruto either... he talked to him a couple of days ago and the blonde was at the construction site with Gaara... the cellphone signal there was low. Sasuke wanted to cry... but he can't do it... not here... and he must never let Itachi find out that he knows something.
He turned Itachi's computer on... he went from file to file... but the computer was clean. Sasuke bit his lower lip... he felt frustrated. He can't seem to find anything that would point him who Itachi was having an affair with. His brother was a perfectionist... it was normal that he was was having a hard time finding a flaw against him. He looked at the frame resting on the table... it was a picture of him and Itachi during his graduation... Naruto took the picture for them... it was during the time when their love was young... he never grew tired of Itachi... he knew he will never learn to love anyone else but his brother.
Itachi woke up, with a massive hang-over... "Sasuke?" he called out but his voice just echoed about. He got up and groggily made his way to the bathroom. He splashed cold water on his face and squinted his eyes. When he came back to his senses, he stared at the mirror... his eyes were dull and there were dark circles under his eyes. He noticed that he already had a change of clothes. He ran his fingers on his chest... making the partly unbuttoned shirt flip open... his eyes grew large... Shisui gave him a hickey! Fuck! He thought of Sasuke... Itachi screamed his frustration out.
He ran out of the bathroom and frantically looked for his cellphone. He found it inside his pants. He looked at it... he had several missed calls and a couple of messages... all from none other than Shisui. He gritted his teeth... the messages were reminding him of what happened to them last night. His phone began vibrating in his hands... he almost dropped it... it was Shisui. He answered the call "Fuck, stop bothering me Shisui!" he yelled on the phone. Shisui on the other line was very amused... Itachi was so affected... he felt very successful in making Itachi feel that he is back.
"Why are you so mad?" the brunette asked sweetly. Itachi spat "You bastard! You gave me a hickey!" Itachi yelled. Shisui chuckled... so Itachi finally saw his handiwork. "Where are your manners? Stop shouting..." Shisui said, amusement was heard all over his voice. Itachi sighed. It was useless... Shisui was... was just impossible. "Please Shisui... I think you got what you wanted... just get over it..." Itachi pleaded as he ran his fingers through his hair. Shisui chuckled on the other line "But I can't Itachi... I can't seem to get over you..." he teased as Itachi groaned in frustration.
Itachi ended the call. He needed to talk to Sasuke... he wondered if Sasuke would have an open ear fro him. He knew Sasuke saw the hickey. He can't deny it... it was obvious. Itachi sighed as he dropped his tired body back to bed. He closed his eyes and gave out a big sigh. He messed his life when everything was so perfect. He needed to make things up to Sasuke... but how would he approach his lover? Sasuke wasn't a violent man... but he was stubborn. Itachi decided that honesty will find it's way through Sasuke's heart. He just hoped that the young raven would listen.
Evening came and Sasuke came home. Surprisingly, the young raven seemed jolly... much to Itachi's confusion. "Hi nii-san..." Sasuke greeted. His voice sounded natural and genuine. Itachi was now having more doubts in confessing. Maybe Sasuke really didn't see anything... "Hello koibito... h-how was the office?" Itachi asked as he gulped, causing him to stammer a bit. Sasuke smiled radiantly "Everything was cool..." he responded. Itachi felt guiltier than ever. How can he do this to someone as sweet and innocent as Sasuke? He was definitely an asshole... he didn't deserve Sasuke's love.
So Itachi decided to keep it hushed for a while. He didn't want to ruin Sasuke's mood. Itachi became extra observant, he wanted to make sure Sasuke wasn't faking his cheerfulness. But Itachi never saw a flaw... he fell asleep... tired as he was... he was somewhat relieved that they didn't have a fight. As Itachi slept, Sasuke looked at his brother with tears in his eyes. He was weeping silently... he was trying his best not to wake Itachi up... he didn't know how he would react if Itachi started asking sorry or started explaining about his secret affair.
Days passed and Sasuke maintained his 'Happy Mask' though he wasn't sure if he can go on like this. Itachi acted normal... though sometimes he caught his lover frowning as he held his mobile phone. Sasuke needed to find out who was destroying their affair... was it a man or a woman... How he wanted to confront Itachi, demand an explanation... but his heart would always tell his mind to stop. Sasuke knew that he will eventually find out. He just didn't have the nerve to ask Itachi... he knew he will just break down and cry all over again.
One day, as if by destiny... Itachi left his cellphone. With trembling hands, Sasuke got hold of it and stared at it... scared to access the messages folder... scared of what he will find out... he began inhaling and exhaling... trying to calm his nerves... as he took courage to press the menu button the phone vibrated. An unregistered number flashed on the screen... someone was calling Itachi. His heart began thumping... so loud that it could almost escape his chest. He answered the call... quietly he listened... "Tachi... why aren't calling me back? Tachi, are you there?" the male voice on the other end asked.
Sasuke fell on his knees as he dropped Itachi's phone. It landed on the carpet with a thud. Sasuke's lips quivered as he tried to suppress the tears from falling. He stared at the phone... the caller dropped the line. Sasuke couldn't understand why he felt the voice earlier was utterly familiar. He wiped his eyes as he sucked in more air. He picked the phone up and placed it back on the counter... just like the way Itachi left it. He slumped on the couch... his was already smashed and broken a million times over. The door suddenly opened wide and in came Itachi. "Back so soon... are you hungry nii-san?" was all he could say.
Itachi shook his head "No koibito... I just left my phone... I needed some numbers there..." Itachi said as he retrieved the black gadget from the table. Sasuke nodded "I didn't notice that..." as he absent-mindlessly changed the channel on the TV. Itachi eyed Sasuke... his lover's eyes were red... but he didn't sound like he cried. "I need to go back to the office... see you at dinner koibito..." Itachi said as he kissed his brother's forehead. Sasuke nodded and gave him a small wave. "Why are you doing this to me Itachi?" Sasuke whispered as Itachi closed the door behind him.
~tbc~
Uhmmmm... the way Itachi is trying to hide his faults is taken from a personal encounter...
But not by myself...
My cousin told me about her love story a couple of months ago...
This is where this drama was inspired...
Real-life drama... ahahahhahaha
R and R please...
I love you guys...
Thank you for hanging out with me...
mwah mwah mwah