What I could never tell you

Chapter 6

*I think my timeline might be off in this chapter. Also facts might be a little off

Judy's hands shook as she approached her daughter's hospital room. Her heart raced as she arrived at room 309 that's the room Dr. Jefferson told her and written underneath that number on a small white board in black dry erase marker was 'L.Q. Fabray' she took a deep breath and opened the door.

What she saw was hard to take in, Quinn was lying on the soul bed in the room, and she didn't look too bad on the outside apart from the bruises forming on her arms and the gauze bandage that covered most of her forehead, of course on the inside is where the real damage was. The young girl was pale and her face held a pained look even as she slept.

Judy went to stand on the right side of Quinn's bed

"Quinnie" her voice sounded small "I don't know if you can hear me but its mom, I came here as soon as they called me. Mr. Schue told me everything and it was a very brave thing of you to do that for Rachel, she feels guilty for it, I tried to calm her down but I don't know if it worked.

The whole glee club wants to see you dear; they are all in the waiting room but the doctor said it wasn't wise to have them all back here at one time so he let me decide. I told your sister she said that 'she and Charlie will be on the next flight out' they're both were really worried honey"

She broke down in sobs and kneelt talking Quinn's hand in her own "Oh Quinnie I know since you moved back home we haven't been any closer and I'm sorry, I should have reached out to you more, even if you did push me away,

I promise when you wake up, no matter what I will try to be the mother I never was to you." She stood up and leaned over to kiss Quinn on the cheek.

"I'm going to go now sweetheart so the others can have their turn before visiting hours are over, I'll be close by when you decide to wake up. I love you" she left and returned to the waiting room, but not before giving one last look over her shoulder.

Minutes later Santana and Brittany came in

"Hi Quinn" Brittany spoke directly toward her as if she was awake; she walked over to the bed and hopped on at the end by Quinn's feet.

"Britt she is asleep she can't hear you" Santana gently chastised before coming up beside Brittany and put a hand on her shoulder, for her own support

"Yes she can I looked up what a coma was on your phone when we were in the waiting room. Some doctors say that people in coma's can still hear what people around them say, so San you need to say hi it would be rude not to."

"Alright Britt" she looked up towards the head of the bed "um hey Q"

Brittany smiled and Santana knew that if Quinn were awake a whipped comment would be made. "Hey Quinn did you know turtles can breathe out of their butts?" the soul brunette in the room chuckled; it was Brittany's was of dealing with situations that she didn't like or unnerved her, she would just randomly spout facts or something off the top of her head.

Brittany's attention turned to Santana she said noting but her eyes plead for the other cheerleader to say something as well, and who was she to deny her blonde anything.

"You know Q I still can't believe you did that for the hobbit I mean its berry, but whatever I guess your head got all fuzzy from listening to shorty resisting a novel in your ear for the better part of the afternoon." She paused as if waiting for something.

"You know if it were me I would have…" she started but stopped

"…its odd" she said to no one in particular "I've never gotten this far in a conversation with her without her giving me a dirty look or arguing back or saying something, I keep expecting her to just sit up and argue with me, and tell me I'm wrong"

She broke down in sobs and it was the first time today, she had shed tears but a full breakdown was something she hadn't done, she was originally trying to be strong for other people's sakes (that's what she told herself) but now she just couldn't take it the reality of it all was too much.

"She will wake up San and aside from a few bumps and bruises she will be the Quinn we all know and love, the one before she got hurt, and when she gets home we will have a movie night with her like we use to when we were the unholy trinity, yea?"

Santana nodded and left the room.

"Get better soon Quinn a lot of people couldn't get through the day without you" she left.

Mike, Tina and Artie were next it was an odd tension between the three in the first place but that was put aside for the moment. Both Tina and Mike choose to sit in the chairs available in the room, the chairs were some distance from the bed, while Artie put his break on by the couple.

"Wow she looks so different" this came from Mike's mouth as he stared at the heart machine that beeped every second letting them know she is alive.

"I believe this happened for a reason" Tina said, the other two turned their attention towards her "do I need to explain myself? This is what she gets for cheating on Sam, the first time she got pregnant now the powers that be are making her punishments worse."

Artie beat Mike to speak "are you kidding me? No one deserves this, even if she did cheat. A lot of people cheat and after that are just fine." He put emphasis 'a lot of…' for some reason though the other two didn't ask why, figuring everyone has their reasons.

"Well apparently someone or something doesn't agree with your logic, I think its punishment" she defended herself, snapping at Artie

"What's your problem with her?"

"She is little miss perfect, when we get out of school she is going to be able to have the world open up to her because she is blonde and hot, you know what the world is going to open up to me… some cliché Asian shit."

"Are you serious right now? Have you not been paying attention? She got pregnant last year by Puck, got kicked out of her house by her parents that were supposed to love her no matter what, lived with Finn until the real truth came out,

Than lived with Mercedes because the father of the child that she was carrying wouldn't let her live with him, gave up her baby for a better life even though it killed her inside,

And on top of that she had to walk down the hall every day in front of her fellow classmates who judged her on one mistake. The last time I checked she didn't have it easy. So if the world dose open up for her she deserves it." Mike defended

Tina said nothing but her face said it all, she was shocked and ashamed, both Mike and Artie left in an angry huff, and Tina just stared at Quinn for a few seconds before deciding to leave herself.

Kurt and Mercedes came in a little later both sat in chairs as well, not that they would sit on the floor, they just didn't feel comfortable with sitting on the bed like others would, "she looks so pale" Kurt said

"Honey she is always pale" Mercedes quipped

"That's not funny at this time girl" he chastised, she nodded.

"What do we do?" she eventually asked "I mean do we like talk to her or pray for her? Do you think she knows what's going on? Do you think she can hear us? Is she going to wake up?"

"I don't know but I have heard of some stories from doctors and some people that say they can, but no one has ever proven it." He put his hand to his chin in a thinking motion "either way we shouldn't say anything to make her mad. I haven't seen HBIC Quinn in a while and I don't want to be the reason she comes back." It's almost a joke

"Your right, I totally agree. But I still feel like we should do or say something, I know we weren't too close with her, even when she lived with me she kept to herself, but I still feel so helpless right now, I mean I want to do something but I can't cause anything that can be done is being done by someone else."

"Right now I think the only thing we can do is be here for her in whatever way we can" Kurt stood and offered a hand to Mercedes to join him in standing as well. He felt the same way she did and he reasoned that there was nothing further that either of them could do at this time. She did take his hand and they left without a goodbye.

Puck, Ms. Pillsbury and Sam came in after that. The counselor was the first to walk through the door, she looked apathetic, Sam fallowed looking gloomy, and finally Puck came last his face looked familiar to the one he wore in Rachel's 'run joey run' video, but this wasn't fake.

He immediately pulled up a chair to her bedside her bed, "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen" he sobbed, Sam felt sorry for the now sobbing self-proclaimed bad ass, he looked to Emma for advice or at least if she held the same sympathy but she had found a point on the wall some time ago and was fixated on it.

So being who he was Sam stood and walked up behind Puck, he put his hand on his shoulder bringing the guilty boy out of his self-pity. "I didn't mean it, I swear, I swear" his voice got higher and he stood burring his head in the other boys chest

"I know man, I know" the blonde boy wrapped his arms around him.

Puck continued to cry for a couple of minutes longer before Sam decided they had enough for today and led the boy out "you coming Miss. Pillsbury?" almost robotically she got up and walked out with them.

Finn, Coach Beiste and Mr. Schue were the last group, Finn tried to run to her but Coach stopped him and forced him in the farthest chair from Quinn, anyone apart from the two in the room could tell she was livid.

"What the hell was that for?" his voice raises as he tries to angrily push Coach Beiste's hands for her shoulders, "look I think you have done enough damage today without jumping on her bed and causing more trouble" she matched his volume and was using the tone she often used when she was chewing out the team for a less than acceptable game.

"Shannon I think you should go easy on him" Will finally said something, she gave him an 'are you serious look' but let the teen go anyway. Will took the chair next to Finn while Beiste went over to the bed and picked up the chair that Puck had left their and moved it to join the others.

An awkward silence filled the room, until in a very characteristic manner Finn lost it and began screaming wildly, even hitting the wall a couple of times, while he screeched "it's not my fault."

He was stopped when a nurse who heard the noise came rushing as he picked up his chair and was about to throw it.

They were abruptly kicked out of the room for obvious reasons even though Mr. Schue tried his hardest to defend Finn saying that the teen had a stressful day. It didn't help matters much but the nurse departed and returned with a shot that was given to him.

They returned to the waiting room both teacher standing on opposite sides of the tall boy, the shot was apparently some sort of relaxing agent as Finn was at the moment in a conversation with the floor.

Judy looked up when the final group came in than turned to Rachel who was sitting beside her "it's your turn dear" she told her with a small smile

"Wait" voiced Mr. Schue once he settled the football player in a chair "you're sending her in alone, why?" "It seems as though it worked out that way" she responded in an almost board tone, his attention turned to the short Brunette "Rachel do you want to go in alone?"

Rachel took a moment to think but she finally nodded. However that didn't stop the teacher from continuing "Are you sure, I mean I could go with you if you want" she shook her head and got up and he tried one more time

"Rachel I really think someone should go with you, you know what I will go with you" he pushed.

"Stop" she held up her hand "I'm going in by myself" he was taken aback but did stop as she requested; their conversation attracted everyone's attention and they all watched as she disappeared through the double doors.

Rachel's footfalls echoed loudly as she strode through the halls, at last she came upon Quinn's room she entered in without a word and had her eyes on the floor, in silence she took a chair and pulled it up to Quinn's bedside.

At first she wouldn't look at the other girl her eyes were intent on studying thing around the room.

She noticed the room was basked in a bright glow from the florescent lights above; and was completely white apart from small things like the sole picture on the wall or the machines that were hooked up to the blonde girl. Finally her vision settled on the girl herself, and she let a sob come out.

Once settled her hand kept reaching for the other girls but instantly it was taken back as the singer debated internally 'she did say we were friends earlier, but what if that was just to be nice during the trip' she argued with herself, her internal battle was ended when the hand before her moved ever so slightly.

At first Quinn's index finger twitched, slowly her other digits moved until her whole hand was stirring. Rachel's eyes fallowed the pale arm until she was looking directly into Quinn's eyes "Q-Quinn?"

Quinn said nothing her eyes remained fixated on Rachel, neither dared move. After a couple of seconds Quinn mouth twitched, she was trying to say something but before she could say anything her eyes rolled back in her head and she was out again.

"N-NURSE" she yelled while desperately pushing the call button on the bed remote "NURSE" tried again, several nurses came in at the same time looking to her for an explanation, "s-she woke up" they looked to the blonde who was asleep again, meekly she explained "she was than she fell back asleep"

A couple of nurses moved to check on the girl, and others left in favor of returning to their previous work. Rachel was informed that Quinn was fine she was just fighting with the medication. A nurse escorted Rachel back into the waiting room where she informed the others of what happened.

All looked concerned however before further questions could be asked yelling could be heard, the first solid sentence cam when he rushed up to the information desk

"Where is she" the man cried

"Who sir?" the desk nurse asked

"My daughter" his voice sounded frantic "Where is my daughter"

Judy's movement's stopped, her head turned to the voice and her jaw dropped "Russell?"

Ok so if anyone notices mistakes feel free to tell me.