Holding On To You
Another year is gone so fast
Another life becomes the past
Under the weight of dreams
That I never thought would last
Zach sits by the window, silently regarding Cammie, who was currently sleeping in her bed, safe and sound. She doesn't know he's here, he watching over her, for her sake and his own.
Feelings clash
She mumbles in her sleep before turning over and relapsing into her deep slumber. Satisfied she is still asleep unharmed, he turns his gaze to the window, staring at the SWAT vans below, also trying to protect the girl sleeping in the bed. It had been hell sneaking in, past security, but he had to see her.
Seeing her gave him hope, made him stronger. It gave him a sensation of being safe and happy, if he could, he'd be with her all the time.
All the time.
And set a light across the globe
This window seat becomes my home
I lie awake for hours
Staring at the world below
He watches the officers in black uniforms stumble around in the darkness, disclosured with the lack of sleep. Some of them are on the grass or pavement, sleeping. Others were more attentive, standing up straight, completely on guard.
Zach relaxes into the window seat as it becomes warmers, the perfect spot, he could watch Cammie, while still keeping an eye on the outside way. Lately the window seat had become a home, he didn't know if Cammie noticed he'd been there almost every night for the past month. If she did, she never seemed to show it, of course, he only watched her when she was asleep. It was the only way, she couldn't know he was here; nobody could. Zach felt like he hadn't slept in forever, his eyelids dropping down. Between staying awake, watching Cammie at night and going back to Blackthorne before dawn hit, it was a tiring life. He hadn't been back to Blackthorne recently, the sergeants probably thought he bailed and ran away. He couldn't handle it anymore- his hours from going back and forth were cut in half, and he could see Cammie as long.
Into the ways again I go
Holding on to you
I found a way to make it through
By holding on to you
He felt his eyelids droop close, as he struggled to hang onto consciences.
Just a couple of hours, no thirty minutes tops. He thought to himself.
Another night has slipped away
Wishing the time would let me stay
Stuck in between two lives
That could never be the same
"Zach," a voice said softly, the voice of an angel. "Wake up," the hypnotizing voice sang in his ear.
He opened his eyes, immediately he had slept to long. Cammie stood in front of him, her hair dangling over her shoulder, one hand resting on his arm.
I remain without a chance
To say to you that
Every word I said was true
I lie awake all night
Just staring back at you
"Morning Gallagher girl," he greeted cockily.
She smiled, at his heart warmed, he hadn't seen her smile in ages.
"Good morning. Can I ask what you're doing here?"
"I needed somewhere to crash," Zach said lamely, and rather unconvincingly.
Into the ways again I go
Holding on to you
I found a way to make it through
Holding on to you
"Nu uh," she said, a cheeky smile replacing her angelic one.
"Yeah huh," he replied, yawning a bit.
"I know you've been here a lot late Zach. I know you're scent," she said.
"What are you?" Zach asked. "A dog?"
Just one more day
Well make it through
Will you still feel the same way
That I do? That I do
Cammie rolled her eyes. "No, idiot, I'm a spy."
"Right."
She bent her face closer. "Care to explain?" she asked. Zach felt himself being drawn forward as he answered her. His eyes open, welcoming; then suddenly they flashed a warning and became guarded once more, he pulled his head away. He couldn't afford to lose her. He had to keep his lives separate, if he didn't, it would spell disaster for the both of them.
Holding on to you
Noo
You feel the same way I do
Holding on to you
Noo
"I can't tell you that."
"Does anyone else know you're here?" she asked, her features becoming emotionless as well. Zach hated that he had made her close off like that, but she was just reciprocating his own actions.
Into the ways again I go
Holding on to you
I found a way to make it through
Holding on to you
"No," he said, the words seeming finalized between them. "I've got to go. I've been here too long."
Cammie's eyes became sad and he reached up, creasing the frown lines away.
"I'll come back," he whispered, the words spilling out of his mouth before he could stop them. "I swear."
Something flashed behind her eyes, but Zach didn't have enough time to realize what it was. Zach gave a warm, rare smile he reserved only for her before standing up.
Into the ways again I go
Holding on to you
I found a way to make it through
So Im holding on to you
"Zach," she said quietly, her voice low.
"Yeah?" he asked, stretching, trying to stretch their time out.
"Don't say that if it isn't true."
Zach trained his gaze on her as he realized the emotion that had been passing through her eyes was doubt. She doubted him.
Suddenly, he was grasping her hand, gripping it tightly. "It is true, I promise. I will come back."
Cammie nodded stiffly, unconvinced. Zach sighed, running a hand through his hair.
"Cammie," he mumbled, not able to talk in his usual, strong cocky voice. And before she knew it she was wrapped tightly in his arms, chin resting a top her head. "Cammie," he repeated, louder this time.
"Zach?" Cammie asked, questioningly but returned the gesture, clutching him in the same way he was doing to her.
His lips brush across her head, to her forehead, as he pulled back to look her in the eyes. He ducked his head in, his eyes dropping to her lips, and she knew he was going to kiss her. She wanted him to kiss her. Cammie noticed he was shaking, Zachary Goode shaking. Because he was nervous. Cammie felt her stomach untie the knots of doubt as she brought his head forward, meeting his lips with her own.
It was a hard, promising kiss; one Zach felt Cammie should know what it meant. He was sealing his promise. He would come back.
Zach pulled away before it could get too heated, his eyes burned into her, binding the unspoken promise.
Cammie looked as if she wanted to say something, but the words fell silent and she closed her mouths, biting her tongue.
Then he let her go, reluctant to feel her heat drain from his body.
Into the ways again I go
Holding on to you
I found a way to make it through
So Im holding on to you
"You'll come back?" she repeated, as if needing confirmation.
"For you," he replied. "Only for you."
Cammie smiled, giving him a quick tender peck on the mouth.
Zach was suddenly staring at her with such an intensity, she wanted to look away. Then he broke their gaze.
"Bye, Gallagher girl," he said.
Cammie felt herself give him a sad smile. "Good bye Blackthorne boy." N
Then Zach was out of the room, only as swift as a spy could be, too fast for Cammie's eyes to follow. She sat back on her bed before closing her and running her fingers over her lips, the electric current still charging through her.
For the first time since Zach had first left the house after watching Cammie, he didn't feel regret or remorse. He felt calm, like he'd finally come to terms. His whole mind was serene. Even though he hadn't wanted to leave, he knew it was his obligation. If he wanted to keep her safe, he couldn't be with her all the time, he'd have to protect from a distance, so she wouldn't know he was watching.
He would have to be more careful.
But he would see her again, and that was all that mattered.
I love you.
And even though neither of the two had spoken the words, they seemed to echo around inside their heads, somehow knowing it was true.
Just one more day
Well make it through
Well make it through
I know that I haven't updated this in forever but I heard this song (ITS AWESOME!) and I just had to. :)
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