I just want to be with you.Ch 6
A/N: Wow, we are already at chapter 6. I didn't realize we have gone so far until I reread a few chapters. Imagining what is going to happen is starting to give me a headache..
The characters that showed up in the previous chapter are Keitaro, Naru and Mutsumi from Love Hina early in the anime when there is a flashback. Love Hina is one of the earliest animes that have I watched, it's hilarious. I love the violence where in nearly every episode Keitaro gets misunderstood and ends up being hit and is thrown to the sky.
I'm gonna insert the song simple and clean. I hope you don't get angry. This is not a songfic.
Disclaimer: I don't own Mai Hime.
Natsuki felt very angry with herself for losing Shizuru. Shizuru couldn't have gone far. Where in the world is she? With hurried steps, she looked into the faces of the people in the busy shopping district that she passed, peeked into the shops, lanes and alleys for the missing crimson eyed girl.
"When I find her, I'll…I'll…"
Natsuki suddenly stopped and stood still. What will I do when I find her? What do I say? I don't even know why she is left me like that. One minute we're having a conversation, the next thing I know, she leaves me. I can't forget the look on her face. So much pain and sadness. Am I the one that causes her pain and sadness? Why?
Natsuki frowns and violently ruffles her hair. "Mou, I'm getting a headache!!
She slides her hands through her hair slowly, not even noticing the texture She is deep in thought.. The reason Shizuru left me. What is the reason? We were talking about a song. Simple and Clean. She said the song reminds her of me. What does that mean? How does that song go again?
You're giving me too many things
Lately you're all I need
You smiled at me and said,
Don't get me wrong I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you'll understand
What I meant when I said "No,
I don't think life is quite that simple"
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
The daily things that keep us all busy
Are confusing me
That's when you came to me and said,
Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you'll understand
It's enough when I say so
And maybe some things are that simple
Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
This song is about how a person feels towards her lover. What does this have to do with me? Does Shizuru feel this way about me? I know she loves me, but is it really like this?
I still can't believe it. I've been avoiding myself from thinking about it. I've kept it hidden in the deepest part of my memory. But what does this song have to do with the way Shizuru acted earlier?
Then Natsuki understood the reason for Shizuru's sad face. I have hurt her. She sees me as her lover but I told her I see her as a friend. Her feelings for me haven't changed, no, perhaps it is stronger now. But how do I feel? I don't know. Shizuru is important to me. I know this is true. But how important? I …I don't know…I don't want to know…or do I?
Natsuki did not know how she felt or rather she did not understand how she felt towards Shizuru. She just stood still in the middle of the road. Her eyes blank. Her heart was racing. She was deep in thought, puzzled about how she felt.
"Natsuki? What are you doing in the middle of road?"
Hearing her name being called, Natsuki looked up. She saw a red-haired girl holding hands with a younger girl with spiky black hair.
"Mai…Mikoto,"said Natsuki without any emotion.
'What's wrong with you? You were really cheerful when you left this morning. Now you really seem out of it,"asked Mai.
"Mai, what should I do? I was with Shizuru when she ran off. Should I go after her? What should I say to her?"asked an exasperated Natsuki.
'What's going on? I don't understand. Why did she run away?"
"I made her sad. I said she was my friend and she ran off."
"I see what's going on. I need to ask you this, is Shizuru only a friend to you? Is that how you really feel for her? Look deep in your heart, only you know the answer."
"How I really feel for Shizuru?"
"I never understood how Mikoto felt when she said she loved me. I thought she was simply saying it without meaning it. Only after I saw her tears did I understand what she felt and how I felt for her," said Mai holding Mikoto's hand a bit tighter stronger. "Look deep in your heart and tell her Natsuki. Don't make kaichou wait any longer. It has already been 2 months since the carnival ended. Don't make it more painful than it already is."
Natsuki thought about what Mai said before closing her eyes. After a while, she opened them. She no longer looked puzzled but had a determined look "Thanks Mai. I have to go look for Shizuru now. I'll pay you back someday if all goes well."
"Good luck Natsuki," said Mai as she watched Natsuki run off.
'What's wrong with Natsuki?" asked Mikoto.
"She has to make a decision. Just as I did," said Mai as she placed a kiss on Mikoto's forehead.
Natsuki ran as fast as she could as she continued to search for Shizuru. After ten minutes and no sign of Shizuru, she was feeling really anxious and worried. She had just reached an alley when she saw Shizuru straightening her wrinkled clothes.
"Shizuru!"
Natsuki ran as fast as she could towards the crimson-eyed girl. She felt relieved to see Shizuru safe. When Natsuki reached Shizuru, she put her arms around Shizuru and hugged her tightly.
"Shizuru…" I've finally found you.
To be continued.
A/N: I guess the awaited heart to heart talk will have to wait till the next chapter. I'm sorry but I just had to write what happened to Natsuki.