L looked over at Watari who was asleep in the chair next to him. He knew it hadn't been easy for the older man to deal with, even with all his training it couldn't have prepared him for the news he had recieved.

"Poor Watari, I wish there was a way to make this task easy for you. I find that despite everything we have been through, I-" L was interrupted by a sharp coughing fit. He moaned painfully at the aching in his chest and ribs.

"Ryuzaki, are you alright?" Light asked.

"You tell me." L snapped surprising Light.

"I apologize, it was a legitimate question and I should have-"

"It can't be easy for you, there's going to be some frustration, but as long as you get better, I'll deal with it okay?"

"No. It was not right for me to react in that way no matter what the situation may be. I do not like to complain, it is unproductive, however-"

"Go on." Light encouraged.

"I am so tired of being tired, and I am beyond the point of irritation, I cannot keep doing this, if it is recurring, I-" he looked back to Watari and found him still asleep, though he didn't seem to trusy what he saw and motioned for Light to come closer to him.

"What is it?" Light asked before L grabbed his shirt collar and pulled him closer to whisper in his ear.

"If you really are Kira, now would be the time to tell me. I would have considered it a personal favor if you would-"

"You can't be serious."

"I assure you, I am."

"Well, I'm not going to be able to help you there, but maybe you'll feel better now."

"I would say there is a zero percent chance of that happening." The conversation was cut short by the alarm on Watari's phone.

"Go sit down, quickly." L instructed attempting to calm himself.

"Ryuzaki?'

"Yes?" Light was amazed at how quickly the detective became himself again, L had to have been doing that for a while, it was almost like someone turning the light off and on.

"You really meant it didn't you, about-"

"Yes." Light didn't understand why he found L's request so unnerving.

Watari stirred sleepily before opening his eyes and turning off the alarm.

"Ryuzaki, feeling any better?" He asked standing up.

"No. It is most unfortunate." The look of disappointment in Watari's eyes was too much for L, he looked away.

"Ryuzaki, I want you to take these pills, they'll help you, are you in any pain today?" L didn't answer lately it seemed that he was always in pain, it was happening so often that L had begun training himself to hide it. Watari was suspicious of this and it frightened him to think it could be true.

"Ryuzaki," he placed a hand on L's head to get his attention. L glanced up at him.

"No." He said calmly.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes.I am feeling quite ill however" Watari help L sit up and take the medicine. Once L finished, he laid back down.

"Just rest now, it will get better soon."

"Yes Watari, soon. You should not worry about me so much."

"Worrying doesn't solve anything, you're right. But it isn't something that can be helped."

"I know." L replied shortly.

"I would like to check your temperature, if you'll let me." L nodded his approval.

Watari turned back to the try and grabbed the thermometer, and placed it under L's tongue.

"It only going to take a minute, just relax." L did as he was told. Finally the thermometer was removed and Watari shook his head.

"Still won't go down." He muttered.

Light felt bad for them both. The pair made him think of his father and himself, Watari was very obviously a father figure to L at the very least. It was clear now, L had always respected the man, but L's reaction to the expression from the old man was similar to a child who had just dishonored his father.

"I am sure it will respond to something Watari, we just have not found it yet." Light noticed the ill detective's breathing had now changed, L was now taking slower, more shallow breaths. He must have been in pain but Light didn't dare draw attention to the change, Watari didn't seem to notice it yet. The man was suffering enough, both were in Light's opinion.

"I have no choice." Watari stated. " I'll have to contact some associates and see what they can find, maybe there's something out there that can help. I'll contact Near in the morning, I believe he's our best chance."

"Watari-"

"Ryuzaki, I want you to listen to me carefully. I absolutely forbid you to leave this world before me, and I will do whatever I need to to ensure that doesn't happen."

"You are reaching for an is not-" light cleared his throat.

"Watari's right Ryuzaki, I'm sure there are answers somewhere, the sooner we we start looking, the better the chances." L shot him a look.

"On second thought, I think I'll contact him immediately, if he starts send information now, we may find something quickly. Ryuzaki, do you need anything while I'm out of the room?"

"No, Watari, thank you Light and I will be just fine. Take your time."

Watari excused himself from the room and L waited to make sure he was out of ear shot.

"You have done a terrible thing Light Yagami." He said sternly. "You have given Watari false hope, you and I know that there is no answer. I will die and Watari will-"

"You don't know that it's false and speaking of false Ryuzaki, why did you lie, you lied to him and you want to tell me about giving him-"

"Keep your voice down, he may hear you." The coughing had returned, bringing with it new waves of pain. L felt his chest and rib pain worsen and was unable to hide it. He almost couldn't stop himself from crying out in pain.

"Ryuzaki, do you want me to get Watari, he could give you something for pain." L shook his head.

"You can't protect him from this you know. Eventually you won't be able to hide it." Light softened his tone.

"I know, I have caused him too much pain lately. I do not want his pain to be as constant as mine."

"Then why are you giving in, why would you want Kira to-"

"I am tired Light, in more ways than one." Light didn't know exactly what L was telling him but the tone of his voice didn't sound good at all.