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Song Suggestion - "Beside You" by Marianas Trench

Chapter Five
"And The Words You Want Are Out Of Reach,
But They've Never Been So Loud"

I felt guilty. I honestly felt guilty about the entire situation. I had continuously told myself, over three million times, that I am not allowed to do this. KC is my best friend, and Clare is a stranger. Girls should never be more important then friends; and I refuse to go there. Who knows, maybe Clare wanted to ditch the game because she really doesn't like basketball - not because she wanted to hang out with me.

I can barely read that girl's mind, and I don't think that I even want to have that ability. A girl with such an opened-mind, and such a big heart could barely even compare to KC. KC was the complete opposite of Clare. Clare being beautiful and gentle - KC being a jerk and egoistical.

I really need to stop bad mouthing my friends - KC doesn't deserve my harsh words thought about him. KC has barely even done anything wrong to me; and for me to be expressing my feelings of how much of an asshole he can be, isn't fair.

I need to find another girl. I have to get all these thoughts about Clare out of my mind - I need to act as if she has no meaning to me, that I never felt a connection and I barely even think of her. I need to get my mind off of her - I need to get distracted by another girl. Although, I don't want to get involved with some girl at Degrassi that I don't know..

I just.. I just don't want to to hurt some one who is considered my best friend. I refuse to hurt some one who is my best friend. I already had caused him frustration tonight; and I need to make sure that tonight is the last night that I cause him anger, over a girl.

I entered my English class;

Today was my third day attending Degrassi - Only three days here, and I've already caused trouble. It's not hard to believe though; where ever I go.. Trouble follows.

I sat down in my regular seat, seeing that Clare hadn't arrived to class yet. I suddenly saw another familiar face enter the class room. He sat down in the seat behind Clare,

"Hey." He murmured, it was Adam - the guy I had met at the party.

"Hey." I responded; I feel like this Adam guy doesn't have many friends - whenever I see him in the halls, he's alone or with Drew. He seems like a cool guy and I definitely would hang out with him, if he asked me to - but I almost feel as if I'm forced to be friends with whoever KC is associated with.

We sort of ignored each other after that - making friends can be incredibly awkward at points - especially when you're a boy. I always felt awkward making 'small talk' with some one that I don't know. I could be having a conversation with a murderer for all I know.

Clare entered the classroom, staring at her feet as she approached her seat - she sat down and smiled at me.

"KC is not happy." She stated, I rose my eye brows -

"What did he say?"

"He ranted on and on about how embarrassing it was for him to look for me after the game - and have all of his friends realize that I had ditched his game. He also said that he doesn't like me flirting with other boys - I argued, telling him that it was because your hearse broke down - but he continued to believe what he wanted to believe." She explained,

"Are you guys back to normal now?"

"No, I stormed off - I was angry, because he kept talking to me like I was a little kid." She sighed, "I really hate fighting with him, but he just aggravates me, because he's so stubborn."

"That's KC for you." I murmured, "Don't worry, Clare, I'll talk to him and I'll make sure he understands that I have no interest in you - and you have no interest in me."

"Please do." She replied, smirking after, "Sorry that I got you in to this mess. If I knew that skipping the game was going to get us in this much trouble.. then I would of just said to attend the game."

"No worries - to be honest, I didn't really want to go either." I replied, smiling after. She smiled back - but our conversation was ended by the bell ringing and the teacher entering the room.

I was walking towards the lunch room - I had plans to talk to KC and explain to him that I wasn't trying to 'steal his girl'. I didn't want to cause any more trouble, then I already had - I especially didn't want to cause trouble with KC, considering the fact that he is my only friend here, at Degrassi.

I saw him walking down one of the hallways, that was close to the cafeteria. I quickly ran to catch him to him, and walked with him -

"KC, can we talk?" I asked, he gave me the most rude look possible;

"No." He answered.

Ouch.

"Seriously dude, are you going to get mad at me over one stupid little mistake?" I asked, grabbing his shoulder and pulling him back - which caused him to stop walking.

"I saw you guys, from the window at the Dot - and you two were laughing and talking like the two of you were the best of friends-"

"But we're not the best of friends. I barely even know Clare, and I don't plan on knowing her anymore then I already do. She's your girl, KC, and I don't plan on changing that. You're my best friend and I don't do that to my best friends." I explained, attempting to convince him to not be so angry at Clare and me.

"If you were my best friend then you wouldn't of flirted with Clare."

"I didn't flirt with Clare!" I exclaimed "I didn't want things to be awkward, so we started a conversation." I explained, "I don't understand the problem with that."

KC rolled his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Clare is a mess right now - she would barely even speak during English and whenever the teacher would call on her - her voice was so low and she sounded so heartbroken." Okay.. I was lying; but if lying is what's going to fix this mess.. then let the lying begin.. "And I hate the fact that you're mad at me, KC - you're like my best friend and I don't want to fuck things up with you over some girl that I have no feelings for."

KC's mouth suddenly formed in to a smirk,

"Alright.. Fine, just.. Don't let it happen again." He replied, "Never again."

"It won't." I promised, smiling after.

I couldn't help but feel relieved that KC had forgiven me - I was actually scared that I had fucked up, but luckily; KC doesn't always suck and he gave me and Clare another chance.

Rule from now on - No flirting with your best friend's girl.

And that's a rule that I have to follow - no, it's a rule that I need to follow.

I had one class with KC, which was Social Studies. We barely talked during that class, considering the fact that a few of his 'cool friends' were in that class. He may consider them cool - but I tend to consider them the complete opposite.

I scribbled in my notebook - just attempting to distract myself, considering the fact that I can barely keep myself awake during such a boring class.

I understand the entire 'School is important' thing; but I just can't get myself to pay attention and really try. In my mind, thirty years from now - I'm not going to care about the grade I got on my World History test.

I suppose I should think more positively about school - but let's face it, I don't really think positively about too many things; I don't plan on making school an exception.

"Every one - get in to groups of three, and read chapter twenty-six. Don't think that this is social hour - I will be quizzing you on the material." Our teacher stated, as she took a seat at her desk.

I turned my head and saw that KC was motioning for me to join his group with Drew.

I nodded, and approached the two, sitting in the empty seat.

"Listen, tonight - Clare, Alli, Drew and me are meeting up." KC began "We want you to come, and we found the perfect girl to hook you up with."

"And who is this so-called perfect girl?" I asked, I didn't really want to be set up right now. I was comfortable where I was - crushing on a girl who I couldn't get..

"She's in to your type of music and her favorite color is black." KC added on, attempting to convince me to like her - even though I don't even know who he is explaining.

"Who is she?" I restated my question, a bit annoyed by his over-detailing.

"Her name is Ellie." Drew stated - joining the conversation.

"Firstly - your names are practically identical!" KC added,

"She always wears all black." Drew stated,

"She loves screamo bands and alternative music."

"She is extremely sarcastic."

"And she's extremely pretty." KC finished the back and forth details that Drew and him were stating.

"I don't even know this girl." I responded,

"We just told you all that you need to know." KC replied.

Some thing told me that KC wanted me with this girl so bad so that he didn't have to worry about me and Clare.

"Are you even friends with this girl? You told me that people, that are in to the same things that I am, are weird." I didn't mean to 'reject' this Ellie girl, like it may seem - but I didn't want to be pushed in to a date with a complete tranger.

"We aren't friends with her - but I've seen Clare talk to her millions of times - I'm sure that if I asked Clare to, she would talk to Ellie for you." KC stated. Maybe I don't want Clare to talk to her for me..

"Okay fine." I agreed, although the tone of my voice proved that I really didn't want to take part in this set up.

I didn't need KC's help or approval of a girl. I wanted to find and fall for a girl that I wanted. I didn't want KC searching for a girl who is 'my type'. I don't want to sound over-dramatic, but I definitely was annoyed by KC claiming that me and this Ellie girl are perfect because we both like the color black and alternative music. Sure, those little things can count - but they don't always count. For example, Clare is nothing like me - our taste in music, colors and clothes couldn't be any more different.. but for some reason.. I can't help but fall for her.

I knocked on KC's front door - we had decided to have our little hangout at KC's house, since both of his parents were out for the night. I was extremely happy about this, considering the fact that I feel very comfortable at KC's and if I wasn't in to this Ellie girl, I'd be able to find a quick escape, by going upstairs and hiding out in KC's room for the rest of the night.

I didn't mean to reject the idea of meeting a new girl, so quickly, I was just easily annoyed by this entire situation.

KC opened the door, smirking at me; without saying a word, he moved aside - giving me room to enter his home. I walked in and saw every one socializing, with music playing in the back round. It was some 'radio song' that I obviously didn't know - I never know these types of songs.

I scanned the room - seeing Drew, Alli, Clare, and some red head. I'm going to guess that the red head is Ellie - also known as, the girl that they're trying to set me up with.

Surprisingly, she is extremely pretty. I had previously assumed that she would be okay looking and that she would despise me - just because she was forced to come here, without wanting to. But, I will admit - she is very pretty.

"That's her." KC murmured to me, staring at Ellie.

It's clearly her - I'm not that fucking stupid.

"Clearly." I murmured, "What do you want me to do?"

"Go say hi" He demanded,

"And that won't be awkward at all." I sarcastically responded,

"Listen, she knows that she's here to meet you - and you know that you're here to meet her; so let's stop acting like we're in kindergarten and just talk to one another." Alright KC, being pushy isn't annoying or anything...

Ellie was isolated from the crowd, she was sitting on the end of the couch, playing with her phone - as the others talked and laughed about insignificant things. I honestly felt a little bad, considering the fact that she was all alone. Even if I felt awkward about it, I knew that I needed to go talk to her. I refuse to allow some girl to have her night wasted, just because I was being a douche bag.

I approached her, and sat down next to her.

"Hey." I paused, this is too awkward.. "I'm Eli."

Her head looked up, from her phone, and made eye contact with me. I wasn't expecting her to - but she smiled.

"I'm Ellie." She stated, "I'm supposing that you're the guy that every one has been pushing on me all this time?" She said, with a big smile on her face.

I smiled - "And I'm going to assume that you're the girl that every one has been telling me is my twin and that I need to meet you?"

"That would be me." She said, the two of us laughing after; "I barely even know KC or Clare or Drew and Alli. I was caught off guard by all of this."

"Sorry, I didn't mean for you to be weirded out or anything.. I'm new at Degrassi and KC seems to really want me to fit in and be happy."

"It's okay." She replied, "At least you're here now - I've isolated myself from every one this entire time. I was so annoyed of the music and the stupid stories and conversations that I needed to just be alone for a while."

"Yeah, this music isn't my type either - although, I don't mind the conversation." I admitted,

"I suppose the conversation isn't that bad, but it isn't interesting if you ask me." She explained, "I dislike hearing about how KC made the winning shot at the last second - Jocks really oughta get over themselves."

She was very opinionated; luckily, a lot of the things she said - I completely agreed with.

"Couldn't agree more." I responded,

-CLARE'S POV-

My eyes were glued to the two. I stared at them as if they were a movie - my eyes could barely leave them as they smiled and laughed at one another. They don't even know each other - how are they already being so flirty and laughing so much? Did Eli do this to every girl?

Shake it off, Clare - You have a boyfriend; Eli means nothing to you.

KC and I like each other so much, and I wouldn't leave him for all the money in the world. The two of us fit together so well, we always get along and we understand one another. Whenever I have a family problem or just any problem, for that matter, I go straight to KC - I can't even think of sharing my personal secrets and problems with any one else.

Eli's cute - and funny, nice, charming, and smug - but in a good way. I will admit that Eli is extremely attractive and I have made some sort of.. Connection with him. But, on the other hand, I barely even know the guy - he seems to have all these secrets and he's very mysterious.

Sure, when you see a mysterious man in a movie; it's interesting - but once you meet one in real life, it's a lot more difficult then you would believe.

Another thing is - Eli is KC's best friend, and I could never do that.

I could never hurt KC the way that I had previously been considering. I began liking Eli, I will admit that, but I love KC. Liking and loving some one are so extremely different, and I wouldn't dare throw away all that KC and I have worked on, just to try to begin some thing new with a guy that I barely know.

Eli could practically be considered a stranger to me. We haven't even known each other for that long, and I refuse to care about him as much as I am starting to.

There's just some thing about the way that him and Ellie are talking that is making me so angry - so jealous. I felt a fit of rage building up in my veins and all I wanted to do was go over there and take Eli's wrist - pulling him in another direction.

When KC asked me to ask Ellie to come tonight - so that she could meet Eli - I couldn't help but have the need to say no. I couldn't refuse KC's request though; he is far too jealous and concerned over mine and Eli's friendship. I'm smart enough to know that I needed to act as if I believed that it was a great idea.

I needed to set this whole thing up and pretend like they were perfect for each other. I know the two won't work out - well, at least I hope they won't.

Opposites attract.. right?

Hopefully it isn't the other way around - because Eli and Ellie are practically identical.

I suddenly felt a hand caressing my lower back, I turned to see KC's face - with a smirk spread across it. I smiled back,

"Eli and Ellie seem to be warming up nice to one another." I stated, seeing if I could receive any opinion from KC

"Yeah. You did really good, setting them up with each other - Eli really needs a girl, and Ellie is the most perfect one for him." No she's not.

"I know - the two are practically twins." I replied, smiling after. "But don't opposites attract, rather then identicals?" I know that the way I was discussing the two, might cause KC to grow suspicious, but I just didn't care - I wanted some one to inform me that the two didn't have a spark.

"Not always. You and I are very alike and look at how in love we are." He replied. Love? That's too strong of a word to describe me and KC. We were more.. Sort of loving each other. I know, I always say that I 'love' KC, but it's just my way of stating how much I like him.. Maybe, I should start choosing my words more wisely..

"Yeah." I murmured, "I suppose you're right."

No.

He is incredibly and completely wrong.

"I'm going to go get a drink from the kitchen." I stated, finding an excuse to get away from KC.

I entered the kitchen, and sighed. I really needed to stop thinking so intensely about every thing. I over-analyze every last thing that occurs. I always am too sensitive and I fall too hard and too fast for boys. I needed to forget Eli and remember KC.

I grabbed a glass from the cabinet and grabbed some orange juice from the refrigerator. As I poured my orange juice, I heard a voice behind me - one that belonged to a man. His voice sounded so beautiful - it sounded like the most beautiful song.

A voice that beautiful had to belong to..

Eli.

I turned my head around to see Eli standing closely behind me, we stood face to face - and I felt myself losing my breath, as my thoughts scrambled all around my brain,

"Huh?" I responded, not knowing what he had previously said, he smirked -

"I said - how's KC tonight? Acting like a gentleman, I hope." He asked. For a boy that I have only known for a few days - he was so easy to talk to. Talking to Eli, felt like talking to some one I had known since I was four. He just listened so well and he knew exactly how to respond.

"Oh - you know, he's being.. KC." I said, raising my eyebrows - Eli softly laughed, looking down at his feet; breaking our strong eye contact that I have grown to love. With KC, he never would dare stare me in the eyes, he'd always look away or down - he acted as if looking me in this eyes was unbearable. "How's Ellie?" I said, smiling after.

"She's.. Cool." Eli awkwardly answered, I was hoping he'd say 'She's annoying and I hate her', but he didn't..

"I really hope you two work out - you guys look really cute together." Lies.

"Yeah." He murmured, "I'm going to get back in there - so people don't think we're having sex in here." He joked - I couldn't help but giggle.

He exited the kitchen - entering the room filled with people. I let out a deep sigh and looked up at the ceiling.

Why was I having these thoughts? Why was I thinking of Eli, as if he was my boyfriend? I didn't want him. I couldn't have him. I refuse to think about Eli, the way I should be thinking about KC. I needed to find a way to focus all my attention on KC, rather then Eli.

Hopefully; this will all work out in the end.