Stepping into the room, Clary kept her eyes to the ground. She was nervous, and the sound of her heartbeat was like a drum in her ears. For so long she had waited for this moment, but now all she wanted to do was run back to her room and bury herself underneath the covers. Out of the corner of her eye she could see him standing by the bed, but could not bring herself to look at him. What was he like?
She knew she could not avoid him forever, so taking a deep breath, Clary slowly looked up. First she saw his legs, he was wearing black denim jeans, with several rips in them. Then his torso. He was wearing a black dress shirt, and through the fabric she could see his hard muscles pressing against the shirt, and she resisted a shudder. And finally, she saw his face. Pale and unshaven, with a narrow nose and half a smile on his lips. His hair was the colour of snow, delicate and light, and slightly spiked up. But his eyes... his eyes were the exact colour of a midnight sky, and reminded Clary of a bottomless pit.
Good God, he was beautiful.
"Hello." He said softly, his gaze meeting hers without fear. Even his voice was attractive. This was the first thing he had ever said to her in person. Clary tried to reply, but found the words were lodged in her throat. All she could do was stare. She felt like she was making a fool of herself, but the man didn't seem to care, only looked at her longingly.
"I can see you're finding it difficult to grasp the situation. It's fine. My name is Sebastian," He continued, smiling at her to reassure her. After so long of knowing him as this nameless and faceless creature, he finally had both. Sebastian. It sounded so strange for him to have a name now. This was the man who had held her here all these years. Who clothed her, fed her, watched her sleep. All these years of trying to guess who he was, she never imagined he would be this beautiful.
"Would you like to sit down, so we can continue our discussion?" Sebastian asked. But Clary couldn't force her feet to move towards him. It was like they had been nailed to the floor. Sensing her hesitation, Sebastian slowly moved towards her, almost afraid that if he moved too fast she would run away. Clary watched as Sebastian came over to her, her breathing getting heavier by the moment. Every time they had been this close, she had never been able to see him. Having him this close to her now was overwhelming. When he reached her, he slowly raised his hand up to touch hers, their fingers slightly brushing. Clary drew in a shuddering gasp, feeling herself grow weak at the knees. Sebastian smiled at her, and intertwined his fingers with Clary's, raising their hands up together. Seeing themselves linked as one made Clary feel slightly lightheaded, combined with the ever-constant gaze of Sebastian. He slowly lead her over to the bed, and Clary obidiently followed.
The two of them sat on the edge of Sebastian's bed, the exact same one they had shared the other night. Clary knew she was in for a long discussion, but she was unsure of how to start it. But somehow, having Sebastian's hand in hers, made her feel just a little bit stronger.
"I'm sure you have many questions for me, Clary. Go ahead. I will answer them truthfully," Sebastian said, keeping a strong hold on her hand. Clary decided to start from the beginning.
"Why did you take me? Why did you keep me locked up here?" Clary's voice was barely a whisper, but she was determined to know. This question had plauged her mind for so many years.
"Because you were lonely. I can see people's souls, Clary, and yours was a lonely, sad and abused one. You didn't have a very good home life did you?" Sebastian answered. How had he known about her family. Clary slowly nodded in reply to his question.
"You didn't deserve that. So, I gave you a place where you were looked after, and free to be yourself and do whatever you wanted to do. I understand that I did nothing to ease your lonliness, but you were the first person I had had any interaction with in so long. I was afraid. But I have always tried to make you comfortable, as best as I could. Seeing you grow from a small child to almost a woman has made me feel something I never thought I could feel again Clary. You gave me a reason to be." Sebastian confessed, moving his hand on Clary's cheek and stroking her face gently. Clary stared in shock, his confession having sent her back to silence. Surely she could not mean this much to him?
"Why have you decided to reveal yourself to me now, after so long?" Clary enquired, still trying to process Sebastian's confession.
"Clary, you're 16. When you reach the age of 18, you can no longer leave. I wanted to give you the choice to stay or go before you reach that age. If you don't, the house will consume your soul, and you will be trapped here forever. I didn't want that to happen to you," Sebastian told Clary, his eyes full of regret.
"Is that what happened to you?"Clary asked. Sebastian's eyes grew wide, and Clary swore she could see tears forming. He quickly turned away from her, staring at the ground hard in an effort not to cry. Clary immediatly regretted her question.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to pry," Clary apologized, reaching up to cup Sebastian's cheek. When she touched him, he closed his eyes and leaned in to her touch, reaching his own hand up to hold hers in place, as if her very touch soothed his pain.
"It's okay. I don't want you to remain trapped here without a choice. In the morning, if you wish, I will open up the entrance and you can leave. All I ask is one more night with you. That's all, Clary," He said, his grip tightening on her hand.
Clary silently gasped. She could go home? After all these years, the opportunity was being presented to her to see her family again. So why did she feel a hesitation to leave? Why did she feel bad about leaving Sebastian all alone again? Even though he had never shown himself to her until now, she had somehow felt a lot less lonely living here with him than she ever had at home with her parents. And who knows, after all that fighting and having Clary go missing, maybe they'd finally gotten a divorce.
"Okay. I will stay with you tonight." Clary said, feeling a little happy at the thought of spending the evening with Sebastian. When he heard her say she would stay, Sebastian's head shot up and a full grin emerged.
"You have no idea how happy that makes me Clary!" He exclaimed, and held Clary's face in both his hands. They were big and soft, and Clary could remember the other night when he had his fingers inside of her, caressing her sweet spot over and over again. Her gaze faltered from his eyes to his lips, and she vaguely wondered what they would feel like against her own. Sebastian noticed this, and slowly leaned towards her. Part of Clary knew she should move away, but the other half was screaming for his touch. Quickly making a decision, Clary leaned towards Sebastian and their lips met softly. Her first kiss. He was gentle, sucking at her bottom lip while his one hand ran through her hair. Clary was still, not knowing what to do with herself. She slid a hand up his chest, feeling his taut muscles, and hearing a groan of pleasure escape from his mouth. She latched both of her hands around his neck, trying to deepen their kiss, while Sebastian wrapped his arms around her waist. His tongue flicked out to drag across her lips, seeking entrance. After reading quite a few romance novels, Clary understood what he wanted. So she opened up her mouth, allowing his tongue to slip through, and they entered in a passionate battle for dominance.
Sebastian stood up with Clary in his arms, and she wrapped her legs around his waist. Still kissing, the two of them fell on to Sebastian's bed, with him hovering over her. Breaking the kiss, Sebastian moved his lips downwards to suck at the soft skin of her neck, and Clary arched upwards, gripping his ivory locks tight in her fingers. He continued to move downwards, his lips trailing all across her skin, sending shivers down her spine. All Clary could to was whimper and moan softly. When Sebastian reached the hem of her dress, he looked back up at Clary, asking permission with his eyes. Clary nodded, and Sebastian pulled her dress off, leaving her in just her underwear. She could feel her cheeks flushing in embarassment, and she closed her eyes. Sebastian moved back up to her face, and stroked her cheek with his long fingers.
"You're beautiful, Clarissa," He murmured, pressing a soft kiss against her parted lips. Then he reached behind her back, and unhooked her bra. Clary's eyes shot open, suddenly incredibly nervous about being naked in front of Sebastian. But before she had any chance to protest, her bra was off and Sebastian's lips were locked around one of her nipples. Any words she had were gone, replaced with a high pitched moan as Sebastian sucked at her breast. Clary arched her hips up, and gasped when she rubbed against the bulge in Sebastian's trousers. Desperate for the friction, she began to rub harder, relishing in the moan Sebastian let slip from his mouth. He quickly released her nipple from his lips, and moved downwards to her now soaked panties. Sliding down them down her legs, Sebastian quickly relieved himself of his shirt,trousers and boxers. He was huge.He began tracing up the inside of her thigh up to her entrance, and Clary shuddered with eager anticipation and impatience. Reaching her pussy, Sebastian began playing with her clit, smiling when Clary moaned loudly and arched her hips up to meet his hand, begging for release. Deciding to give her a little extra, Sebastian bent down and removed his fingers, replacing them with his toungue. He sucked hard and her clit, lapping up her juices. Meanwhile, Clary was moaning with reckless abandon, grabbing hold of Sebastians hair and pressing him harder against her, desperate to feel more of these amazing sensations. Sensing she was coming to a close, Sebastian pulled away, holding in laughter when Clary made a soft sound of protest. Scooping up some of Clary's juices, he lathered the tip of his cock with them, making sure entering Clary wouldn't hurt her too much.
Clary knew what was coming next, and she knew it would hurt. She tensed up, gripping the bed sheets hard. Sensing her worry, Sebastian crawled on top of her, stroking her hair to reassure her.
"It will only hurt for a moment. Then after that you will feel nothing but pleasure. I promise, I will be gentle." Sebastian said, kissing Clary on the forehead. Believing what Sebastian said, Clary nodded and pressed a gentle kiss on Sebastian's lips. He then grabbed his cock in one hand and positioned it at her entrance, sliding it up and down her wet slit. Clary shivered, and arched her back up, desperately wanting Sebastian to take her. Sebastian slowly entered Clary, pausing when he reached the barrier that seperated him from her virginity. He looked up at her one last time, and when she nodded in confirmation, he thrusted into her. Clary squealed in pain, and clutched Sebastian tight against her. Sebastian placed butterfly kisses all over her face in an effort to calm her down.
"Shh, it will fade soon," Sebastian whispered, licking the lobe of her ear. Clary felt the pain slowly ease away, and lifted up her hips to test if she was ready. Sensing no pain, she gave Sebastian permisson to carry on. He began thrusting in and out of her slowly, filling her to the brim. His thrusts were hard, but slow, always making sure he wasn't hurting her. He brushed against a spot inside Clary that made her throw her head back and moan, and she began meeting his thrusts, begging him to go faster. Obeying her commands, Sebastian began to mercilessly pound into her, his eyes shut tight in pleasure and concentration. Clary's moans filled the air, as well as the slapping sound of flesh against flesh. She hooked her legs around his back, asking him to go deeper. While her nails scraped down his back. She felt faded scars embedded into his skin, and gasped in shock. Who had done this to him?
All her thoughts vanished from her mind when she felt an electric buzz in her core. With each thrust, the feeling got stronger. Her moans increased in volume, and Sebastian picked up speed, as well as his breathing. With just a few more thrusts, Clary felt fireworks go off inside her mind, and an intense feeling of pleasure she had never experienced before spread through her whole body, and she shook with the intensity of it all. Just a few seconds later, Sebastian followed, yelling out her name as he shot his load into her. Exhausted, it took all he had not to collapse on top of her. Both of them were panting heavily, trying to get their breath back. Sebastian looked at Clary blissfully, while Clary smiled in pleasure. He pressed a kiss to her nose, before sliding out of her and collapsing on the bed next to her. He drew the covers on top of them, and pulled Clary towards him, holding her tight in his arms. Feeling absolutely drained, Clary snuggled up next to Sebastian, the last thought on her mind being 'I will definitely miss him if I leave'.