A/N: So I do advise that you reread the chapters because I am adding a lot of stuff, like a lot of internal thoughts. So what do you think?? Like or hate????

BPOV

I fell back asleep after that silly dream but the idea really never left my mind. I mean I know it was just my mind mixing what Tanya said and what I have been doing my report on. Since I started to do the work for the project whenever I would see something that reminded me of what I read or looked weird, my mind would run away and I would think they were a vampire. I know that there is no real way that he could be a vampire, right?

I heard my alarm and moaned. I hated that sound. Why on earth did the alarm sound how to be so offensive? I rolled off of my bed and into the kitchen. I was going to need a big cup of coffee to deal with today. I saw Angela already sitting at out little table drinking a cup. I smiled at her and said, "You must be a mind reader."

She giggled, "No I heard you all night long. You had me really scared. When I heard you scream the first time I thought that some one broke in."

"Oh Angela I am sooooo sorry. I did not think I was screaming." I was suddenly very embarrassed. I did not know what Angela had heard about my dreams because I did not know what I had said.

"It's OK. I understand, long night. So how are you doing today?" Angela asked dropping the whole dreaming thing.

"I am fine. I am going to just going to let today be and see where it takes me. I mean its not like we are together or anything. I am not sure what I want to do with this, but I know there is a definitely some kind of pull between us."

"Well I would guess so it you two where making out when his girlfriend was there. I know you two were being quite, but I mean that is a risky move."

I poured a cup and slowly sipped the coffee. I loved to take it black; it was stronger and made me feel stronger. I am too much like my father; he takes his black to. "Yeah, I do not want to see her at all today. I have a feeling I am going to get into some kind of a fight today if I see her."

"Well she sure as hell was angry, and I mean you can't really blame her Bella. She was yelling and not even making sense while doing it."

"Yeah I know what you mean, I know what I did was wrong," I nodded my head and finished off my first cup. "OK I am gonna jump into the shower real quick, OK"

"No prob, take your time," Angela was slowly sipping her cup and turned on the TV.

I took a hot shower to try and clear my head. Whenever I closed my eyes I kept on seeing parts of the dream in my mind. I saw the beautiful castle. I saw Edward immuring from the darkness. I saw him sinking his teeth into me. I did not know if it was because Edward was a vampire or that it was super hot. I started to think it was the latter because I would get aroused when I thought about it. The whole dream even though slightly disturbing was also very sexual.

When I got out of the shower I wrapped a towel around me and walked into the kitchen to ask Angela what it was going to be like today.

"Sunny and warm. It's going to be around 70!"

"Really? Wow, there is gonna be sun?"

"Dress like its summer, you know this is a rare day."

I smiled and ran back into my room. It was going to be a wonderful day. The sun was going to be bright and sunny and I was going to talk to Edward. We where going to get all of our shit out in the open. It was about time the two of us had a good talk.

EPOV

I could kill Tanya. I mean really kill her. How could she say that right in front of Bella and Angela? I mean does she even think before she speaks. Does she not realize what could happen to not only her but all of us if THEY found out about that? I mean Kate, Alice, Jasper, and I would not have a problem because they would want us to join, but everyone else would suffer for her stupidity.

Also they would kill Bella for sure and Angela because they could. I could never let that happen. If I knew she died because of me I would fine a way to end my own life, it would not be too hard. To think of a world where Bella does not exist is sad and not worth being in. There was a knock on the door and then my family entered. I knew the Denali sisters would not be coming to see me for awhile. They would have to heal Tanya wounds, and I do not blame them.

"You fucked up Edward," Rose shot at me.

"Yes I know."

"How could you do that to Tanya?"

"What?" I asked stunned. I saw all of my family look at her with questing eyes. Even Emmett had the look. He always too Rosalie's side to avoid a fight, but he could not even hid his surprise.

"Tanya. Are we not here to talk about how Edward fucked thing up with Tanya?" Rose asked looking at her family. No one spoke up. She finally realized what we where here to talk about. "NO! We are not going to talk about the human. She is a bad idea and we all know it."

"Rosalie it is going to happen. The vision gets stronger and more in depth with the passing of every day," Alice chirped.

"Like Edward has said several times your vision are not always right Pixie. Do you really want to damn another human to this life?" Rose spat.

"I do not think it is as bad as all of you make it out to be," Alice admitted.

"Well you are a child."

"I am older then you," Alice shot back with a sly smile. She was right. In human years Alice was older, she was around 19 when turned. Also Alice has been a vampire longer. Rosalie always hated this because she always wanted to act like she was second in command, when actually she was the second youngest out of all of us. That really bugged her deep down.

"I am more mature," that was all Rosalie had and she knew it was not always right. Even though Alice acted a bit flighty and playful when it came down to it she was super smart and very manipulative. She is the kind of person you want on your side in a battle, whither physical or mental.

"So what are you going to do brother?" Emmett asked.

I shrugged. I had no idea how I was going to make things work with Bella. There are so many obstacles and things we had to work out. The sad thing was that this was all going to have to wait till Bella got done her classes. I could not attend classes today, because of the sun. I could not risk making it be known what I monster I am. So today I would sit around and wait till I could see her. I would over analyze this whole thing and drive myself and the family crazy.

"I think she will understand and forgive you if you talk to her," Jasper stated as fact.

"Will you be in the other room manipulating her emotions so that she is forgiving?" I asked with a joke.

Jasper smiled, "Only if you asked."

"No Jasper. If she is going to forgive me I want it to be on her own. I do not want to force it on her."

Alice smiled, "Thing will work out. She is going to be very happy with you Edward. Just tell her the truth. You will see that she was not so innocent in all of this either."

I glared at her. She knew something that she has been keeping from me. She was the only one in my family who was able to keep things from me. She truly was a very special creature.

"Well I am going to go and see the rest of my family. Tanya must be very upset and I can not believe none of you are going to console her," Rose shot and moved to the door. She shot Emmett a look which meant he had to go with her.

"OK guys I guess I have to go and console Tanya even though I do not think that it is needed. I mean she is older then all of us and had to know Edward was not into her. I mean he was all kinds of bland and dead to everyone and everything. Well except when Bella was there," Emmett said with laughter at the end.

"Shut up Emmett. You know that you can not think too hard, it hurt your head," I shot back smiling.

Emmett shot me a look for help. "You're the one who married her brother," I said and laughed. I could never understand how he was able to deal with her. Sometimes Rose was normal, and then when she got into her moods she was a force to be recon with. Those are the days I would hate to be Emmett.

BPOV

I walked down the hallway slowly with Angela hoping he would pop out his door. He was always really good at making an entrance when I walked by. When I walked pass Edward's door I saw it open. My heart skipped a beat, and then I saw who it was. Rose walked out with Emmett close behind. Rose gave me the death look. She must be on Team Tanya. Emmett smiled at me and winked. He was on Team Bella.

"Hey Bella. Did you have fun last night?" he asked and hugged me.

I was shocked when he wrapped his arms around me. I do not think that he knew how strong he was because he cut off my air supply. I tried to sputter something but nothing really came out. He laughed and relaxed his grip on me.

"Sorry I forgot how strong I can be."

"It's OK," I smiled at the giant man who I knew would never hurt me but still scared me a bit because of his size.

Rosalie made an over exaggerated huff of air and Emmett looked over at her. She eyed spoke to him with her eyes, demanding that he follow, and then turned his eyes to me and gave me the stink eye.

"Sorry Bella, my loving wife calls. I will talk to you later. Bye Angela," Emmett said and walked off.

We both said bye to Emmett and pressed the down button for the elevator. I saw Rosalie and Emmett walk into Tanya's room. I saw Irina's head popped out the side and she also gave me the same look as Rosalie. She was mad I messed thing up with Edward and her sister. I hopped for the elevator to move faster. The door open and I ran on and hit the door close button about ten times. When the doors finally closed I let out a sigh of relief.

"Well that wasn't TOO bad," Angela said.

"Yeah they could have tried to kill me."

Angela giggled and we got out of the elevator and went off to classes. Today was the first day since the fire that we were able to have photo class. Our teacher was going to give us till Wednesday to hand in the project that I was working on. I was glad I was smart enough to put the negatives in my pocket so I would not have to redo the whole project.

Angela and I walked the short few block distance to campus. She was telling me all about her and Ben. I had been such a bad friend over the past few weeks. I made everything about me. I was not giving her, her time to talk about her forming love. She was excited to be with Ben. She told me she always had a thing for him back at Forks, but never did anything.

We said our good buys and I promised to meet her for lunch. I was a little nervous when I walked into classroom. I had not been here since the fire so it was natural to feel like this. I kept on looking around to make sure that nothing was going to magically catch on fire. I felt like I was going to throw up my four cups of coffee. The teacher rambled on about how things in the syllabus where going to be pushed back due to the fire.

"Well if there are no more questions I am going to give you guys this class time to work on your projects."

No one raised their hand. After a few moments of silence the teacher motioned for us to go about our business. It was time for me to go into the dark room for the first time also. I took in a deep breath and walked to the door. This time I knew I was not going to be alone. There was a class full of students. If anything was to happen they would be there to help me. When I got back there I saw about six other people. That calmed my nerves a big because if we did get stuck I think that we would be able to get out if we worked together.

It looked the same back there. I went to the same projector that I was at before and started to work on my pictures. I figured that if I relived the whole thing now that I would get over this fear. There were two people also working on the projectors around me while others where mixing the chemicals and there was one girl taking the film out of her camera.

"You where the one locked in here during the fire, right?" a boy two projectors asked.

"Yeah," answered feeling sick again just thinking about it. It was like I could feel the smoke filling up in my lungs again.

"Was it scary?"

"More then you would ever understand," I admitted.

I now realized who I was talking to. It was the boy Mike from the party our first day. He lived on the second floor of our apartment building, I think.

"Your Mike, right?" I asked.

"Yeah. I was wondering if you remembered me."

"Well I had a little too much to drink that night," I said slightly embarrassed. That was the night I blew up on Edward the first time. I was hoping that I would see him today. I frowned as I worked on my picture.

"It happens to the best of us. Are you going to be at the Halloween party?"

"Yeah my friend Alice is hosting it. She made me already get my costume."

"Yeah it sounds like a blast. She was working it out with me a few days ago."

I smiled and let Mike keep on talking while I worked on my photos. He was a harmless kid, a lot like Mike Newton from Forks. I wondered if they where distant cousins. After way too long in the dark room listening to Mike talk I was done. I had all of my prints done and I was letting them dry. I told him to have a great day and I would see him around.

I now had the ten pictures that where needed. I was going to walk over to the local drug store to buy some supplied to mount them on and decorate it. It was only 11 and I still had an hour and half before it was time to meet Angela. The drug store was three blocks off the campus.

The warm sun light felt wonderful on my skin. It had been so long since I was able to be in the sun. Whenever it was nice at home I would drive down to La Push not only to see Jake but also to lie on the beach there. Seattle was a lot like Forks which meant that it rained/ was too cloudy to see sun 350 days out of the year. When I walked into the Rite Aid I asked the older woman upfront where to find arts and craft supplied. She pointed and I found what I needed. I grabbed an orange poster board and some markers. There were also some stencils that I grabbed to help make my project pop out more. I brought my purchase to the front and the older woman took her time ringing me up.

The day at school went by painfully slow. I did not see Edward once. As Angela and I walked back to the apartments around 5 I had a defeated feeling. The sun was going down and I whispered good bye to it knowing I would not see it again for a very long time. I also had not seen Edward, so my day was not going how I had hoped it would.

When Angela and I got to our floor and we walked slowly down the hall way. She knew why I was doing this. I was gad that she was willing to play along with me. She smiled at me. We got to our door and no one come out to see us. We opened the door and went into our room. I slumped down on the couch and Angela gave me a sympathetic hug.

"What do you want for dinner?" I asked.

"We can just order."

"No cooking will help clear my head. How about just pasta and sauce? I have some left over from the other day."

"OK sounds good. Can I help you in any way?"

"Nope I am good," I smiled and went about my business in the kitchen. I did not want to think about Edward. If he was not going to talk to me about last night that was fine with me. We would just act like it never happened. We had done nothing but act like the tension between us did not exist so I mean why not act like we didn't kiss.

Dinner was ready in an hour. Angela was going to invite Ben over to work on some homework together. I was going to bury myself in my room then. I did not want to interrupt things that might happen with them. Angela was cleaning up dinner when there was a knock at the door. My heart spread up as I walked to the door. I looked out the peep hole and saw the face I had been waiting to see all day. I smile and slowly opened up the door.

EPOV

I did not know how I was going to apologize for everything that had happened between us, but I was going to try. Alice had told me to try so I would. It took all of my strength to not throw my door open and pull her into my place when she walked by. She was with her friend and I could not appear too needy. She was a woman and she needed a man, not a boy. I was had been doing nothing but acting like a little boy but I now had to act like a man.

I waited a little while so that she would get settled in from a long day at school. After I assumed that she was done eating and had time to relax I went to her. The walk to her place seemed to take forever even though it was only a few feet. I knocked on the door with three firm knocks. I stood there and listened for her to approach. I knew it was her because of her smell. I loved that smell. I was slowly getting use to it. When ever I was around her I would force myself to take deep breaths. It was becoming a lot easier as time went on.

I heard the lock turn. She was about to open the door for me. I placed a smile on my face. I wanted to make sure that when she saw me it was happy. I saw her wonderful face which had a large smile. I was relived to see her smile.

"Hey Edward, what's up?" she asked trying to keep her cool. I knew the truth. I could hear her heart thudding away like crazy.

"Nothing I just wanted to come over and talk."

"Um, sure, we are just going to have to go in my room because Angela is having Ben to come over."

"That is fine with me," I told her with an even bigger smile. I love being in her room.

She moved away from the door and let me enter. She then closed the door and led the way to her room. I waved at Angela who was noticeably eavesdropping. When we got into Bella's room she closed the door, smart girl.

"What did you want to talk about Edward?" Bella asked sitting on her bed.

I climbed on the bed and looked into her eyes, "Well about us."

"OK," she said then waited for me to talk.

I sat there looking at her trying to think about what to tell her. I was not sure where to start there was a lot to talk about. Finally I spat out the one thing I wanted to wait to tell, "I slept with Tanya."

She had a confused look on her face, "Um, OK?"

"I'm sorry. I though of you whenever we did it," again not what I wanted to say.

"Um Edward, that is kinda creepy to say out loud," she giggled.

"Yeah…I know now. Sorry," if I could blush I would be right now. I did think about smashing my head into the wall, but then that would scar Angela.

"Well that is OK Edward. I slept with Jake when he was here."

I could feel rage over coming me. I was not mad with her but mad with Jacob because he had touched her body. Then I realized she had done nothing different then I had. She replaced Jake with me, I hope, and I replaced her with Tanya. Now I know what Alice meant about the incidents thing.

"I am sorry. I did not want to. I did not want to be with her. I was just empty. I mean I thought we had a connection, but when I saw Jake I flaked out. I thought that you had lied about the two of you. I though you where still with him and just jerking me along. I was sad and empty. Then we talked I just blocked you out. I was mad and stubborn. I was a jerk, an asshole, a douche bag."

She sat there thinking. I was nervous. I wish I knew what she was thinking. If I could just get inside her head I would be able to know what she was thinking. What was going on in her head!?

BPOV

I was surprised by his honesty; most men do not just throw their real feelings out there like that. It seemed that we where not too far off from each other. I did not want to fully accept what he was saying. What would happen if this happened again? What if we had another minor tiff and he freaked out again. I would not constantly put myself threw something like that.

"Yes Edward you were all of those things. There is a problem. How can I be sure you will not flake out again?"

"I promise you the next time that a situation like this arises we will talk about it."

I looked at him skeptically. I did not know him well enough so know how tell to trust him promises. I would also have to make sure not to do the same thing as him. I mean I am just as much to blame as he is, but he didn't need to hear that.

"Well we will see Edward. You can not come in here and tell me all of this and just think that we will end up happily ever after. We have to work at this, learn to trust each other. Then if things work out we can be together, that is if you want," I was not 100% sure if he wanted to be together. I did not want to force him into being together.

"I can do that. I will do whatever I have to, to gain your trust."

I nodded, "Is there anything else you wanted to talk about?"

"No I think your last statement kind of clarified anything else I wanted to talk about," Edward said.

"What do you mean?" I seemed surprised.

"I was worried that you might not be attached to me. I was worried that I had completely messed up my chances," he said softly.

"Well we are going to have to work at this like I said. But yes, I am attacked to you." I do not know how he did not know that.

He smiled at me. Well this had gone well. We had both gotten out what was needed to be said. I told him about Jake and me. He told me about Tanya. I am not going to ask about the human comment, I though that it was just a miss saying on Tanya's part. We covered what was needed for the night.

"Why were you not on campus today?"

"Oh, um, I just skipped."

"Oh, well did your whole family skip? I noticed that I did not see Alice or anyone else."

"Oh yeah we all hung out together."

"I had my first day back in photo."

"Are you OK?"

"Um sure…" I answered not sure what he meant.

"I mean where you OK with going back in there?" he rephrased the question.

"Oh yeah. Well I was a little scared at the start but once I saw there were people in there I was able to calm down. When I knew I was not alone I was fine."

"I am sorry I was not there for you. I will be there tomorrow though."

"Good I am glad. I kind of missed you today."

"I missed you too Bella."

I yawned. I looked over at the clock and it was almost 11. Since I did not sleep well last night I was tiered. Edward noticed and got off my bed.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"I am leaving so you can go to bed."

"Do you want to stay over?" I was a little nervous he would say no.

"OK," he simply answered.

I smiled and went to get changed. I gave him the same outfit he wore over before. I changed in the bathroom and he changed in my room. I knocked on the door before I entered. He was already laying in the bed waiting for me. I smiled and climbed into bed with him. I turned off the only lamp that was left on and snuggled into Edward. I rested my head on his chest and wrapped my arms around him. As I slowly drifted off to sleep I felt Edward rubbing his fingers along my face and kissing my hair.

While I slept a had the same dream from the night before. I woke up screaming and Edward was still there holding me. He calmed me until I was able to go back to sleep. He seemed stiffer as a fell asleep again.