A/N Ok here is the alternative ending to I had it all. Please feel free to review and let me know which one is your favourite. I would love some feedback. I hope you have liked this story and feel free to read my short story 'After all this time.' As always HP is not mine, I do not own it, it belongs to J.K Rowling.

Chapter Five

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Never did I dream I would fall in love again. After being so broken by it the first time I wanted nothing more to do with the concept Albus bloody Dumbledore used so much. It hadn't been this amazing wonderful thing that was so magical and breath-taking. It had been painful and hard, and left nothing but destruction in its path. So after my divorce I made a vow that I would never let myself fall in love again, that I would never put myself in such a vulnerable position. That I would never be weak with my feelings and emotions like that, except to my son but he was different.

But then Draco happened. We had been friends for years and I considered him my rock even before my split with Severus. But after having my heart broken he was the one who had been there for me, supporting me, taking care of me, loving me. He never pushed or expected anything. He was friendly and gentle and kind. But at the same time he didn't he treat me like something that was so fragile I would break. When I needed it he would be tough and realistic.

Piece by piece he put my heart together again, soothing the cracks over with gentle caresses. He was my glue.

And despite my vow, despite the screaming in my head and heart not to, I slowly, very slowly fell in love. I was nervous and terrified because Draco had only ever been my friend. I didn't believe for a second he would love me in return. And with that belief I knew I was setting myself up for more heartbreak, but I couldn't seem to stop.

It was one night when Samuel was staying at Severus's house, I sat curled up on the sofa, after a couple of glasses of my favourite red wine and balled my eyes out. I couldn't believe I had been so stupid, to let my heart feel that way again. Then when I didn't think things could get worse, Draco appeared through the floo. One look at me and my once again deranged appearance and he was straight over holding me tightly against him. I buried my head into his jacket, inhaling his scent and feeling comforted by his warmth. In his arms I felt safe.

"Mia what's the matter." He asked in his gentle tone.

I shook my head not wanting to speak, just wanting to savour being in his arms that little bit longer, before I told him how I felt and before he pushed me away with disgust.

"Mia you know you can tell me anything." He kissed the top of my head and smoothed down my frizzy hair. "Talk to me please."

Pulling away I looked at him briefly before walking to get my wine. Drinking the last of it in one large gulp I squeezed my eyes closed.

"I can't do it Drake." I whispered my voice close to breaking.

"Do what?" The confusion was evident in his voice.

"Do this." I gestured around the room before finally pointing to him.

"Mia love I have no idea what you mean."

I sighed giving myself a moment before I next spoke.

"I can't do us Drake. It's too hard. I-I want more." I avoided eye contact at all cost as my cheeks blushed furiously.

"Mia what do you mean?" His body was stiff but his voice was soft as he spoke.

I hung my head in defeat, not wanting to see the look when I told him.

"I-I've developed feelings for you Drake. I don't know how or when, but I think I've fallen in love with you. I'm so sorry I know-" The next thing I knew Draco had swept me up into his arms and kissed me with so much passion and with so much heat that I was actually left breathless and stunned. I had no idea what was happening but I knew I didn't want it to stop.

Hesitantly he pulled away from me, resting his forehead against mine and smiled, his hands cupping both of my cheeks as he stared straight into my eyes. I could see every thought and every emotion play out in them.

"Mia you have no idea how happy hearing you say that makes me. I love you; I always have done since our last year at school together. Why do you think I never had a relationship with anyone else? Because I wanted you. Only you."

My eyes widened with shock and surprise at his declaration. I had never seen his feelings for me before I was so blind. I could feel my heart beat rapidly in my chest and I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Draco felt the same. Draco loved me. Draco had always loved me.

"You do?" I asked feebly causing him to laugh before kissing me again.

"Of course I do Mia, can't you see it."

And that was how our relationship started. That night had been wonderful we simply sat cuddled up talking, every now and again one of us stole a kiss. And for the first time in a long time I laughed and felt happy. He was gentle with me again, not wanting to rush things, letting me go at my own pace. He was simply wonderful.

And now here I am sitting looking into the mirror on my wedding day. My hair was done; my makeup was done, as I sat in my dusty pink gown. I felt white would be in an appropriate colour considering I was also a divorcee.

My nerves were all over the place, especially after seeing Severus the night before my wedding. Seeing him standing there, looking at my with those obsidian eyes I loved, brought so many emotions to the surface. My biggest being regret. Regret that we hadn't worked, regret that perhaps I too had been at fault in our marriage ending, and regret that I was happy and marrying another. I still loved Severus, of course I did he was my first love, the man who had been my first in more ways than one. He was also the father of my child. I would always love him. Perhaps now I could forgive him after all this time.

I didn't have anyone walking me down the aisle, instead I held onto the hand of the most important person in the world, my son. When my eyes locked on to Draco's I knew it was right. I knew everything would be right this time. The feeling he brought out in me was the feeling of being home.

20 Years Later

Today is an important day as my beautiful son Samuel finally makes an honest woman of Sarah Hamilton. I am so terribly proud and of course I am a complete wreck, as I let my baby boy go to some other woman.

"Pull yourself together woman." Severus mocks, as he holds out a crisp white handkerchief to me.

I blow my nose so unladylike, as my husband sniggers from beside me.

"It's all right for you pair to laugh and mock, but I need to share my boy with another woman." Samuel had always been a mummy's boy, and now the realization that he wouldn't need me anymore hit home.

"Really Hermione do you mean to sound like Molly Weasley." Severus again mocked. I elbowed him playfully in the ribs for that remark. "Offt. Damn it Draco control that wife of yours before she does an old man an injury."

Draco laughed and shook his head.

"Sorry Sev but you just compared her to Molly Weasley."

"Thank you sweetheart." Sanding up on tiptoes, I brushed a chaste kiss to his lips.

"Eugh honestly you two get a room." Severus pretended to look uncomfortable around us but truthfully he was so used to it now.

"We have one, in fact we have several." Draco said with a seductive wiggle of his eyebrows.

Now it was his turn to get elbowed in the side and Severus to laugh.

"See it's not so funny now."

Some people may think it's strange being so close to an ex but for us, now, it wasn't. After Draco and I got married, we soon found out we were going to be parents, to twins, Alice and Michael. I of course had been terrified out my mind after what happened the last time I had a child. But Draco had been wonderful, and incredibly supportive with all of my anxieties. And for Samuels's sake we both felt like it would be better to make a bigger effort with Severus.

I won't say it was easy for either of us, for that would be a lie. It took me a long time to get over the hurt and humiliation and to finally forgive him. And it took Severus a long time to come to terms with me being married and mother to someone else children.

It was a lot of hard work, there were arguments and tears and shouting matches of 'you did this' and 'you did that'. But over the years things did get easier. They got better not just between Severus and me but also between Severus and Draco.

A tentative friendship formed between us as well as a truce. I wouldn't say we were best friends or anything like that, but he did mean a lot to me.

As far as I'm aware Severus never got into another serious relationship. He dated but it was never anything more. I came to believe that he was like one of those wild horses who could never be tamed. He needed to roam free. And I think that's what our problem had been. I know he wanted the normal life after everything he had been through but because he had never seen a normal life or felt deserving off it he didn't know what to do with it.

Severus has always been a very complicated man and I think I just expected too much from him, perhaps he expected too much from me as well.

We did eventually discuss what went wrong in our marriage and I realized that it wasn't just him being unfaithful that was the problem it was us as a couple. We wanted different things from each other, and had different needs from each other. We were never on the same page. We did love each other, that was true but in our case love just wasn't enough.

He needed freedom and although he wanted a child and a family he didn't want his freedom taken. I wanted commitment but at that time I didn't want a child. I wanted a career. And I think our different needs oppressed the other. So when his needs weren't met he looked elsewhere, and having a child at the time had suffocated me. This, on both sides, turned into a resent of such. I took away his freedom by wanting commitment. While he suffocated me by insisting on having a child. Therefore we were destined for disaster.

Now standing between my husband and ex-husband I truly feel happy and at piece. They both mean so much to me and I am grateful to them for what they have both given me.

I link both my arms through there's as the wedding march starts and I watch my boy marry, thankful that I have two wonderful people for me to lean on. With these two strong men by my side, and my twins close by I stood watching as my first born married the woman he loved. And I realized that we really did have it all.