AN: I meant to update it a lot earlier, I mean last week, but I have been too busy with school. Yes, I can blame the uni I started this fall and the new life I am experiencing. But here it finally is. I really hope you like it and you leave me something to read :) .
And happy NCIS day too ! New season airs tonight, I'll see it tomottow sometime, but enjoy the day.
L.
***NCIS***
Jethro had never been the person to feel a lot of mixed feelings. He was that type of person to love and hate a person at the same time. He either loved or hated, but feeling both was not his thing. He was torn. One part of him wanted to kill Jenny and the other wanted to marry her. He didn't know what he wanted the most. He might wanna be with Jenny and raise a child, but what if the father comes to picture ? Jenny got over him rather fast and had a baby. That is not a thing to forget and forgive. But what can you do, when your heart is stolen by that devilish woman and somehow you find it hard to take it back, because maybe you are not ready to take it back just yet.
He was startled by the phone ringing. Quickly he ran to the living room to see Jenny answering the phone. She spoke in English, meaning it was someone from NCIS. Gibbs came behind her and tried to listen, but he failed.
After a few minutes on talk, Jenny hang up.
"What was it ?" he asked.
Jenny would have been scared if she hadn't heard Jethro coming before and feeling him standing there.
"It was Will. We have a meeting with our new friends today. Will will come over and watch Cath, while we are gone. Get ready to go on a formal event with former KGB guys. We'll see Callan there, but we aren't officially met yet, so don't make a face like you have seen him before. We'll leave at 8," Jenny said and walked to the kitchen.
"Got it. Are you okay ?" Gibbs asked. He wouldn't dare to leave his daughter home with Decker, when he was working. He followed her to the kitchen.
"Why shouldn't I be ?" Jenny asked without turning to him. She hadn't done anything to make him concerned, yet.
"You're leaving your child alone. Most of mothers can't stand the idea, so I am asking are you okay ?" Gibbs explained. He sneaked up on her and stood right behind her.
"First of all..." Jenny started, but she didn't finish, because when she decided to turn around she crashed into a flat chest. Their bodies came to contact. Gibbs' hands fell to her sides in case she planned on falling over. She felt that and liked it too much. The touch.
She got her mind to work again and hit him gently on the chest. He took a step back and took his hands away as he backed off. She missed the contact instantly. His hands gave warmth.
"Of course I don't like leaving Cath alone, but I know she's safe and that's what a mother needs. We need to know that our kids are safe and happy. Cath likes Will. It'll be okay. You know, I never imagined raising my child like that, but I didn't have the choice. Leaving the mission was not an option. I was scared, but somehow everything worked out. My partner Ziva was amazing and somehow everything worked out. Now I am not scared anymore, because I know Will won't let anything bad happen to her either," Jenny said.
"Okay. I just thought that I can probably handle this on my own and if you want to stay home, then it's okay," Gibbs said and looked at her. He was hoping to see any emotion, but Jenny was good. She looked indifferent to him.
"Thank you for the offer, but you don't get to mommy track me. Yes, I am a mother, but I am also an agent. Yes, everything has changed, now that I have another life to take care of, but I am still me. You wouldn't have done that in Paris. And please don't do that here either. If this is how it's gonna be, then we can't work together again," Jenny said. She was still indifferent to him, but he knew, that she was on the edge of breaking. She was scared and he knew it. He didn't care if she admitted it or not, the fact is that he loves her either way.
"I didn't mean to... I just wanted to be the good guy for once," Gibbs said and left the kitchen. He knew she might read something from the words and feel guilty. But the other chance was that he would have brought out Paris, and then there would have been a big fight. Probably he would have shouted his feelings to her, but he decided he'll do it, but he has to find the right way for it.
Jenny felt bad about the way this argument ended between them. But she too also sensed that they could have ended in a nasty fight about Paris. Probably she would have shouted that she loves him and Catherine is his daughter, but it's not the right way to do that.
***NCIS***
They didn't exchange words since that kitchen argument. Gibbs was in his room and Jenny was busy with her cranky child. And at the same time they both had to get ready for the night. It was time, when Decker should be arriving at any minute.
Jenny had her red dress on, when she ran to the kitchen to get food for Cath. Jenny's dress brought out her natural beauty and all the curves she had to offer. It was to her knees. He back was exposed to the world, but it was covered enough to let people wondering what was hidden. Her cleavage wasn't also too covered, but enough to make her look like a decent woman and not a whore. Her hair was in a loos ponytail, because Catherine loved to pull them and leave food and other dirt in them. Jenny had no make-up on, but the truth is that she quit using it, when she was pregnant. Afterward she found that going with her natural look gave her extra time in the morning and she desperately needed those 15 minutes of sleep. So when she was going to a party, she just used a little mascara and lipstick. Sometimes she went without. She didn't have her heels on yet. Had gotten a bottle for Cath, when the doorbell rang.
"I'll get it," She shouted and went to the door.
She ran to the door and it was Decker. Just like she thought. He was dressed in casual jeans and jacket. Jenny greeted him with a smile.
"It's Will," Jenny announced and let Decker in.
Gibbs came from his room and took in the sight. It was good, he decided. Jenny still looked gorgeous in dress – pregnancy had done nothing to her figure. He was in his tuxedo already. It was black as usual. He decided to wear a red tie and now it seemed like a good choice, because it matched with her dress.
"Hey Gibbs. Your babysitter is here, you're free to go," Decker said to Gibbs.
"Good. Now we can go and charm some bad guys," Gibbs said.
Jenny just looked at Gibbs. He looked great as always. She snapped back to reality. Gave fussy Cathetine to Decker and ran to her room.
"What's with her ?" Gibbs asked. He came closer to Decker, who was trying to feed Catherine.
"She is just not ready yet. You know women and their time," Decker said. He was lucky, because Jenny was still in her room, out of hearing radius.
"Is there anything we should know about this event ?" Gibbs asked.
"No. All you need to know was in your intel. Today is just a usual ball those people like to make to celebrate a year of success," Decker said.
"Okay. Think we can make it," Gibbs said.
Then Jenny decided to show herself. She came out of the room, her red curls loosely on her back, she had high heels on and she had decided to put on some make-up. She looked gorgeous. Gibbs' jaw fell open, but he managed to close it right after she noticed it. She had her purse with her, as always.
"Wow. You really have overdone yourself this time. May I come with you instead ?" Decker joked.
"Nope. I already have a guy, but thank you for the offer Will," Jenny said and smiled.
"I'll keep that in mind. What you should do is just go there, dance and try to make a contact. You two should look in love. And judging by the way Gibbs is looking at you, then it shouldn't be a problem," Decker said.
Gibbs cursed in his mind. Jenny looked amused.
She took Catherine from Decker, who was calmer now. She looked at her baby girl and snuggled her. It was still painful to leave her, but she had a job to do, beside she knew Cath was safe. Jenny placed a kiss on her temple and gave her back to Decker.
"You know where the things are and call me if something happens," Jenny said.
"We're good. Cath loves Ded," Decker said and Jenny let out a small laugh. Gibbs looked pissed.
Jenny gave Decker a kiss on the cheek and followed Gibbs out. The drive was quiet. A music was playing quietly, but neither of them was listening to it.
They arrived soon and he parked the car. Gibbs shut it down and got out. He walked over to see Jenny already out. He offered her his hand and she gratefully took it. He pulled her a little closer as they started walking towards the entrance. Gibbs lead and Jenny entered the big hall. They left their coats and went to the hall, where people were. Most of them were dancing.
Some people noticed Gibbs and Jenny entering. Most of them were men, looking at Jenny. Gibbs didn't like it, but he had to admit that he would have done the same. He would have looked at Jenny, except he didn't have look at her secretly – he came to the party with Jenny and he had to play he was as love with her as he really was.
Jenny was kind of enjoying the attention, but Gibbs didn't like it. She felt him pulling her closer. Her lips formed into a smile for a brief moment.
"Wanna dance ?" he whispered to her ear.
"I do," she said back quietly.
He lead her to the dancefloor. One of his hands went to her back and the other held hers. She placed her hand on his shoulder. Gibbs took the lead as they swayed on the floor. They danced as slowly as other couples. Gibbs looked around the room and saw some men looking at Jenny with the wrong look. Jenny was better than that. Those Russian maffia wannabees shouldn't look at her like that, she deserves better.
The song ended and new began. Gibbs didn't give Jenny a chance to pull away, instead he pulled her closer. Jenny laughed at the gesture, but he didn't take a notice. Those men had to understand that Jenny is with him, at least at this party.
A couple of songs later a true slow dance came. Gibbs let go of her hand and instead wrapped both of his arms around her middle. Jenny's hands went to hug his neck. Her head fell on his shoulder and he enjoyed the scent of her shampoo. Both of them closed their eyes.
Suddenly there was a knock on his shoulder. Both of them turned to see one of their former targets there. It was Vladimir, the one, who was supposed to get out of the business. Vladimir lead them to the bar, where he started a converation.
"Jacques and Jeanne – finally here. We missed you around here and I truly missed saying your names. You two are a lovely couple," Vladimir said in Russian. He took Jenny's hand and kissed the back of her hand.
"Nice to see you again. We were busy, you know the business – had to work in Greece and Italy and Serbia for awhile, but now we're back here," Gibbs answered in Russian.
"I want to introduce you a friend of mine. He is also known in France, but he is American from birth, but moved to France, when he was little," Vlad said and signed someone to come over.
A man with very short hair, tanned skin and cocky smile came to them. It was Callan. The three of them shared a look, but it was too short for others to notice.
"You called, Vlad ?" Callan asked.
"These are those French friends I told about – Jacques and Jeanne," Vlad said to Callan and pointed to Gibbs and Jenny.
"Very nice to meet you two, I am Gerard," Callan said. He shook Gibbs' hand and kissed Jenny's hand. He held his lips there for a moment longer than normal, but it wasn't noticed by others. Jenny and Gibbs both said their fake names.
They had a small talk for awhile, but then Callan asked Jenny to dance. He knew that Vlad wanted to speak to Jethro without Jenny there. He lead their dance.
"Nice to see you again," Callan said to her ear.
"Same to you," Jenny whispered.
"How are you and Jethro ?" Callan asked.
"If you meant if Jethro is okay with Cath, then we're good. He seems to deal with it nicely," Jenny said.
"Does he know ?" Callan asked.
"No, but I'll tell him at some point," Jenny said.
Callan knew, because he knew the relationship and he put pieces together. He also worked with Jenny after she left Jethro. They shared some intel over missions and met a couple of times.
Jenny smiled and felt good dancing with her friend. Callan was her friend and he was Jethro's friend. He was their friend.
After a few songs Callan led them back to Gibbs and Vlad. Some other men had joined them and Gibbs had drowned a multiple glasses of vodka.
"I was just talking how lucky he is," Vlad said, when Callan returned with Jenny. Gibbs gave Callan a nod, when he gave Jenny back to Gibbs.
"Sometimes I am still wondering how I ended with a girl like her," Gibbs said and looked at Jenny.
She turned to red and smiled. Gibbs pulled her closed and wrapped an arm around her, the other held vodka.
"Now I have to look for my wife or she'll be pissed my friend. Gerard talk to Jacques about his first thing he has to do," Vlad said and left with his men. Only Gibbs, Callan and Jenny were left there.
"You have to beat up a guy named Vasja Stohhov. He fooled Vlad and now has to pay. I'll trust you're up for the job," Callan said still in Russian.
"No problem," Gibbs said and emptied his glass.
"I'm gonna use the ladies room," Jenny said and pecked Jethro's cheek. She left a faint lipstick mark there.
Both Gibbs and Callan watched her walk away. They noticed a lot of other men doing the same and looking at her with a wrong look. Gibbs wanted to punch someone. Instead he ordered another glass of vodka.
"How are you two ?" Callan asked, when Jenny was out of sight.
"We're getting along I think. Did you know that Jenny has a little daughter ?" Gibbs asked.
"Yes. She told me, when she was showing. We worked together for a short while," Callan admitted.
"I didn't know. I'm not supposed to ask this, but do you know who the father is ?" Gibbs asked. He was a little scared of the answer, but he might wanna know.
"Yeah. I know. She told me, but made me swear I won't tell anyone. Not even to you. But I can say that you know him and she promised to tell you at some point, but you can imagine that this isn't too easy for her either, so don't be too hard on her," Callan said. He was torn – he wanted to tell Gibbs some things, but he was also a friend of Jenny's and didn't wanna betray her.
"Okay. I'll wait. I don't know if knowing is better than not knowing, but I just know that I think I wanna know, until I realize that I really didn't wanna know. Does that make any sense ?" Gibbs asked.
"Yep. It does. At least I think so. She is a good woman and great mother. And I would only be guessing that you still love her," Callan said.
Gibbs just nod. He emptied his glass. Since he had never been a vodka type of man, he was starting to feel a little dizzy. He didn't manage to say anything before Jenny was back. He pulled her closer and ordered yet another vodka. Jenny was easy to come closer. His hand rested on her side, his fingers feeling the soft material of the dress. She leaned into him a little more and rested her head on his shoulder.
Gibbs and Callan fell into a conversation about sports while both men drank alcohol. Jenny was feeling them both getting drunker by the minute. She was sober there, she gave up alcohol, when she found out she was pregnant.
The party was slowly ending. People started to leave. Jenny tried to pull Gibbs to the door, but then Vladimir was back with some other guys. Jenny held onto Gibbs and he was happy. Men wanted to see if everything was in order. Jenny wasn't big fan of Russian, so she just decided to turn herself and bury her face into Gibbs' neck. Her back was to their Russian friends. She heard the other men admiring her and talking about it. Gibbs just kept on saying that he was lucky and loved her very much and also that they were happy together. She felt his hand drop to her ass, but she merely rolled her eyes. She knew it was to make sure others got that she belonged to him.
Jenny was lucky, when Gibbs announced that they have to leave. He might have added that they needed time alone with each other, but she wasn't sure. She got their coats. He was a little too drunk for her liking, but hopefully he could act.
They walked to the car. He held her hand as they walked.
"Give me they keys Jethro," Jenny announced.
Gibbs put his hands to the pockets and then found the keys. He gave them to Jenny and walked to the other side of the car. Jenny drove without the rush. The night in Moscow was quiet. Most of the people were at home and so the traffic was slow. It didn't took them too long before they were in front of their home. Jenny noticed the light in the living room, when they walked out of the car.
Decker had done good job – Catherine was asleep and he was waiting on the couch. As soon as the door opened Decker took his coat and almost flew out. He managed to get a thank you and have a good night from Jenny and Gibbs just gave a quick nod.
Jenny took off her heels before anything else. Then she checked if Catherine still was asleep. Then she went back to Gibbs. He was still standing in the hallway. She made him loose the jacket and shoes. Then she helped him with loosening the tie. Then he managed to walk to his room and she went to hers. She changed into the pajamas and went to brush her teeth, but she met Jethro waiting for her.
"You okay ?" She asked, when he kept on staring at her.
"You told Callan and not me," Gibbs said. They both know what they were talking about.
"I worked with Callan and he noticed so yes I told him. I needed to tell somebody about it," Jenny said.
"You could have told me. But no, you chose that cocky Callan over me," Gibbs said. He sounded angry and hurt – just like he felt, except he wasn't angry at Callan.
"Fine. You wanna know the truth ? But don't come to me, when you don't like it. I tried to save you," Jenny said.
"Saving me by hiding the truth ? Hah, nice Jenny, have to remember it for the next time," Gibbs mocked.
"I warned you," Jenny said under her breath, when she collected the strength to tell him.
"Come on girl. Just say it to me. It can't be that bad. Unless you slept with Anatoly or one of his friends and got pregnant," Gibbs said.
Even though Jenny knew it was the alcohol talking, it still hurt. It hurt that he'd even think like that. But she didn't want to let him think she was so low, so she just closed her eyes, counted to three and looked at him.
"You are the father of Catherine. Congrats," she said and pushed past him to the bathroom.