Why am I so bad at updating, I usually bust out a few chapters a week. Sorry for my shitty updates.
Forgive Me
Frustration couldn't even begin to describe how she was feeling, she was angry, she was annoyed, and most of all she was let down. To get all worked up for nothing, to get so close to what she wanted and then to get what was the term people used? Cock-blocked, yeah that, she finally got why that term seemed so horrible, it wasn't the word itself that was so bad it was the meaning behind it. She couldn't decide if she was more angry, more embarrassed or more annoyed with herself.
She wanted to be mad at Lisa, she really did, but she couldn't be because every single thing she said was right. Her and Shinji barely did anything at all and she was already feeling in over her head, she couldn't help it though. She still wasn't experienced enough to be used to that sort of thing, and Shinji wasn't wasting anytime showing her exactly what she wanted. She wanted to be mad at Shinji too, if he wouldn't have been stalling for so long everything would be done and over with. Who knew how long he would stall now.
She needed to punch something, or cry, but with her luck she would get caught crying and then she would have another reason to be embarrassed and angry at whoever caught her. She was supposed to be tough, and sure of herself like she always was, or at least she pretended to be. But now she wasn't sure of anything. She was just going to go to bed before she did anything stupid, or even worse embarrassing. She didn't think she could face them right now, and she didn't want another one of those stupid talks they were constantly trying to give her.
She was old enough to make her own decisions, and she was sick of everyone trying to change it. That was between her and Shinji, and if Shinji wanted out, all he had to do is say so. She kicked her door shut with so much force she was surprised it didn't break, and she even double backed to lock it for good measure. Everyone could just leave her alone for the night, and probably most of tomorrow Hiyori felt so stupid for crying, she kept trying to fight her tears, but it was no use. Why the hell was she crying over something so stupid? This was something she wanted so bad, and a year ago she wanted the exact opposite.
Shinji new he was in shit, he definitely fucked up this time, he just knew Hiyori was going to yell at Lisa, and she was going to find out he was the one who asked her to come in the first place and Hiyori was either going to beat the shit out of him, or even worse never talk to him again. Either way he was screwed and he was just here waiting for the shit to hit the fan. He paced his room back and forward looking up at the door every couple minutes so he could brace himself for the fight he just knew was about to start.
Hearing her door violently slam didn't help things, at least she wasn't kicking holes in throughout the warehouse, yet. The fact Hiyori left his room without a word let him know how upset she really was, usually she yelled and screamed and threatened everyone around her, but that was just normal Hiyori, her silence was truly the dangerous thing here. After the first thirty minutes he gave up pacing, and was trying to figure out the best way to apologize. Should he admit everything to her, he would have felt way better if he was honest with her, even if she was going to be pissed with him?
Even if that was the case, he would feel a lot better being honest with her, than having sex with her under false pretenses just to save his finally got his nerve together, he was going to try his best to talk to her, and explain himself before she blew up. He was just hoping he can fix things, before they got any worse. He tried the handle on her door and it was locked, she never locked her door, it wasn't like he couldn't pick it or force the door open. It's just that he didn't want to make things worse than they already were, he was just going to have to find another way in.
As hard as she tried she couldn't fall to sleep, all crying did was give her a headache, and because of it she couldn't relax. She wiped her face one last time and stripped down to her underwear, if she couldn't sleep she might as well get comfortable, she let her hair down and switched off the light in her room. She was going to at least fake sleep so everyone would leave her alone. She hated being all wound up, and she hated feeling stupid, but for some reason she felt like every one knew something that she didn't.
She winced when she felt a sore spot on her neck, and she had no idea where it was from, she didn't have any bruises early, not that she remembered anyway, but when she reached up and touched the spot with her finger she knew she had to have picked it up somewhere without noticing. She started to notice other sore spots on her body, and she was wondering where the hell they came from. There were multiple places along her hips, and a couple more on her neck, she even noticed a slight one or two on her along her sides.
She hasn't even spared with anyone lately, and the only contact she had lately was when she when she was either fighting with Shinji or kissing him, and he should be the bruised one from that. That thought made her even more frustrated, her thoughts had her in the middle of blushing and scolding. She just wanted to go to bed, but her body wouldn't let her.
Yep I suck at updating, what is this chapter even about? That's what happen when I write at 4am in a hospital. Most likely rewriting this!-Chesxca