I'M ALIVE!
And kicking.

And I'm updating this story?
Hm…

To be completely honest,
I have no idea where I am going with this.

(Don't kill me)

Don't worry!
I will keep writing!
I'm just gonna have to plan it a little better.

So,

Here.

This chapter is shorter.

Blaaah.

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I clutched Edward's hand and turned to him, curious about his mind. I concentrated on hearing his voice in my mind.

Sorry, love. I've had this gift long enough long enough to know how to block it. And he began to hum my lullaby in his head.

I scowled at him. He smiled that breathtaking smile and had me dazzled once again.

"If I can't hear yours, you can't hear mine," he whispered playfully into my ear.

"Wish the rest of us got the same consideration," Alice mumbled, suddenly appearing next to me. I heard mutters of agreement around me.

Alice turned to me and smiled sweetly and tugged me away from Edward.

"Try mine next!" she was absolutely giddy. She held out her hand and I took it tentatively. Minutes went by as I stood there awkwardly, not sure of what I was supposed to do.

"Maybe you should tell her how your power works, Alice," Edward said. I smiled gratefully at him. Alice giggled and gave my hand a slight squeeze.

"Well of course!" he smile turned serious as she began to explain.

"My talent works a bit differently than my brother's," she nodded towards Edward, "It, as I've told you, is a fallible gift and is all up to choice. My visions don't always come immediately and sometimes they come without me having to do anything." Alice's eyes seemed to sparkle with excitement as she continued, "If I need to know a certain outcome or the future of a certain person, I will concentrate solely on that person. The more attune to that person you are, the easier it is to See."

Concentrate, that seemed easy enough.

My thoughts automatically centered on Edward and I pushed the other nagging thoughts to the back of my mind, to worry about later.

I waited for something to happen.

Nothing did.

I became increasingly aware of the stares of the others and my mind wavered in its concentration. I closed my eyes, and pushed everything except my angel's face out of my mind.

I waited.

All of the sudden, Two figures flashed in front of my eyes, unfocused and hazy. They soon came into focus as if someone had adjusted a lens on a camera.

I gasped.

"How could you have done this to her?!" The tall, dark skinned boy shouted.

Jacob Black was trembling violently with fury. My insides squirmed with guilt as I watched my best friend. I hadn't talked to him since he found out my intentions of becoming a vampire. He wouldn't take my calls and Billy would always make up some excuse for him not being there when I came over.

He would hate me now. Werewolves and vampires were natural enemies.

"She would have never been in this danger if she was with me!" A tremor shook his frame and I knew he must be close to phasing.

"You were sent to kill her," My eyes snapped to Edward when I heard him speak. He stood, half submerged in darkness. His voice was calm, but he was in an attacking stance, "I won't let you succeed," his eyes flashed menacingly.

"She's already dead!" Jacob snarled. His whole frame shuddered violently and I watched in horror as Jacob exploded. A russet-colored wolf stood in his place. Edward tensed, and crouched lower.

They began to circle the clearing; their eyes never deviated from each other. The wolf let out a fierce snarl and Edward returned it with a rumbling growl. Jacob crouched lower and Edward matched him.

Then the tension broke, and they attacked.

My eyes fluttered open. The vision had left as abruptly as it came. I felt oddly disconnected to my surroundings as my mind reeled from the vision.

I was not even aware of Edward shouting my name or the other Cullens huddled around me.

My mind would not stop conjuring up the images I had just seen.

My best friend will be sent to kill me.

No.

One of them would be killed.

No.

All because of me.

My knees buckled beneath me. I fell to the grassy ground, but no blackness accompanied the fall. I wanted the blackness to come. I wanted to forget those horrible images. But that comforting blackness would forever evade me now.

My mind snapped back to reality. Edward had me cradled against his chest, his eyes were searching my face for answers.

"Bella?" his voice was frantic.

"I'm okay," I lied. My voice was unnaturally flat, giving me away instantly.

I looked up at the family standing around me, all with curious and concerned expressions.

"What did you see?" Carlisle broke the silence. Edward sent him a glare, obviously wanting to avoid that question, seeing my reaction to the vision in the first place.

"Jacob," was all I was able to get out. Edward stiffened beneath me. Edward and Jacob were not on the greatest terms. My mind flashed to them flying at each other. I flinched.

"What about Jacob?" Carlisle prodded. The shock was beginning to wear off, but the fear still clutched my insides.

"He will be sent to kill me," The words tumbled out of my mouth before I even knew what I was saying.

Edward's grip tightened around me.

"I won't let that happen," His voice was trying to soothe me, "I will die before he gets to you,"

A strangled sob ripped through my chest.

"I know," My voice broke, "That's what scares me,"

I had to do something. I was not about to let anyone die for me.

Especially not Edward.

I looked up at the faces which surrounded me.

It suddenly hit me, it was not only Edward or Jacob that would lose their lives because of me. This war could take any one of my vampire family.

Or all of them.

I suddenly knew what I had to do.

I lifted myself off of Edward and turned to look into his eyes. He smiled, but his smile faultered slightly when he looked into my eyes.

"Bella?"

"I love you," I whispered.

I tore myself away from him and sprinted towards the opposite end of the clearing.

I leapt into the air without turning to look at the shocked faces of my family that I had left behind.

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Wow.