Why hello there people! I would just like to say sorry for not posting in a long time. It's harder for me to write chapter stories. But before you read I'd just like to say that nothing about this is tragic, I don't like tragedies! To quote Panic at the Disco "I write Sins not Tragedies." But anywhere here it is. Hope you enjoy and Review. P.S. this is where good Bella goes Bad.
BPOV
When I opened my eye I felt everything hit me at once, everything but understanding and remembrance that is. I felt the sand on my bare back, the wateron my toes, the rain on my skin, and the humidity smothering my face. I felt my heading pounding like a thousand drums and my stomach was in too many knots to count. I sit up trying to remember what happened last night.
Then I see the eleven empty bottles and then I don't have to wonder anymore. I spent the night with the boys. I don't know why I even wondered it has been the same thing every night for the past two weeks. Sit in my truck all morning, go get a hot dog for lunch, read all afternoon, and then go get wasted with the boys.
Well let's see how much I drank last night…there are seven of us. All of the boys drink only one drink except for Vinny who drinks as much as I do…so it looks like I drank 3 bottles of Vodka last night. Well I bet Malik was entertained, he always enjoys the show when I'm drunk. And seeing as I'm only in my boyshorts on and no idea where the rest of my clothes are; I'm guessing it was a good one. That's the only bad thing about a night with the guys; I always wake up alone.
I look to my right hoping to find my clothes instead I see him walking towards me. Well damn, I don't have any clothes on, I should at least try to cover up. He smirked at me! That evil best friend of mine. Bet I gave him a scare when I disappeared for almost a month. Well I wasn't going to go to my pregnant mother's house. The word still hurts. I'd have to watch her stomach grow while her child grows inside her. Doesn't she have enough kids? Where are my children? Don't I have a happy ending too? Of course not, the fucking family of grade-A liars made sure of that. Why do I even think about them anyway, I just get even more pissed off and just go meet up with the guys and drinking their existence away.
"What the hell, Izzy? Have you been here this entire time?" He looked pissed but he voice was laced with agitation.
"Well I usually end up here by night time, yes." I answered him somewhat seriously but then I just stop caring and added "What's wrong did you miss me? Or are you just here for a show too?"
"Don't fuck around with me Izzy! Seriously what the hell happened to you last night? You know what never mind I don't want to know. Come on, take this blanket and let's get you back to Renee's. She's been worried sick about you! God, Izzy you reek of alcohol! Come on let's go. Now!"
We went to my truck and I got "cleaned up" which consisted of me getting dressed and covering up with makeup to make it look like it used to while Christian waited outside.
Our story was simple and boring; I took a wrong and got lost and it took me this long to get here. Well if they believe that bullshit good for them if not…well I always got the beach. But, first lunch with Istian, big fun. It will most likely be him asking me a million annoying questions, lecturing me for drinking and taking my clothes off in front of people I just met and why I haven't gone to Renee's yet. Well if he's buying then at least I'm getting something out of this whole thing.
IPOV
This girl has lost her mind. When I found her on the beach she looked like she was smiling at whatever happened last night. I don't even want to think about it. Her eyes though they still looked dead. When I saw her trying to cover herself up after she saw me I couldn't help but smirk. Hide your body from me but risk showing it to random pedestrians who could have walked by earlier. Classic Izzy; always trying to hide from me what the world already sees. Well now that we are done being awkward let's go take our best friend to lunch.
The diner close to the beach is as good as anything else. Izzy was dressed like her normal self again sort of. I mean her shorts are a little bit shorter and she's wearing a really small dark purple tank top with black lace instead of a t-shirt but it's better than nothing.
As we walk into the diner this weird song is on.
…Even "St. Elmo's Fire" Where's the mini-skirt made of snakeskin?...
She rocked out to Wham!
Not a big Limp Bizkit fan
Thought she'd get a hand
On a member of Duran Duran
I look over to see Izzy at the jukebox changing the song. Thank goodness I was about to hurt someone that song was so annoying.
"Hey Izzy what song are you putting on, please let it be better than that last one."
"Well no promises but I feel the need to listen to Evanescence right now, and they only have one of their songs so it's this or nothing."
I was about to ask what song it was but I was interrupted by the music filling the diner.
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where i've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping Somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
I looked around the place was basically empty but what few people where here were completely absorbed in their own conversations to even notice the music change.
Wake me up Inside
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
"Izzy come on let's see and look at the menu" I said by the time I got to her. She didn't move an inch so I nudged her.
"Come on, Izzy I'm getting mighty hungry." Then she finally noticed me and we sat down.
"Lost in our own little world weren't we Izzy?"
"I have no idea what you're talking about Istian I was simply enjoying the music."
"Sure you were."
And with that we are looking at the menu and sticking our tongues out at each other every few minutes. I try to stay focused on the menu but the song is distracting me. Like a ghost whispering in my ear.
Save me from the nothing i've become…
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life…
Before i come undone
Save me from the nothing i've become
Bring me to life
I've been living in lie, there is nothing inside…
The song was creeping me out I don't know why Izzy choose it. The songs end doesn't bring much comfort to me but at least some relief that hauntingly beautiful voice will finally be silent.
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life
"You must think I'm crazy don't you?" Izzy's voice interrupts my thoughts.
"Always have but this is a whole new level of crazy."
"I know first you find me on the beach half-naked surrounded by empty vodka bottles, then I come in here playing suicide songs. Yeah, I'd say about three new levels are in order."
"Speaking of the beach, what happened last night?"
"Thought you didn't want to know?"
"I didn't but I have to know."
"Okay in that case … I got drunk"
"I know that much but you'd be dead if drank that much so what happened Izzy?"
"The usual happened I got drunk with my friends and passed out you know typical teenage behavior, happy?"
"Hell no, you're not the typical teenager and we both know it! And who are these 'friends' you're talking about?"
"Some guys I met when I got here." She said it with so much indifference, it shocked me.
"Some guys?"
"Vinny, Malik, Gino, Anthony but everyone calls him Tony, Damon, and Brent a.k.a. the guys"
"And how old are the guys?"
"Now you sound like my mother and I will not talk to my mother about this."
"Izzy what have you been doing with yourself the last two weeks?"
"Throwing caution to the wind and living a little maybe you should try it sometime"
I grabbed her arm before she could leave and just stared in her eyes for a minute. They were still dead, full of anger, but deep down there was a small spark of happiness. If doing stupid things make her happy I'll just have to be there when she does it so she doesn't do anything too stupid.
"Maybe I should but I would have to learn from the master, Master Swan."
"Oh I'm no master. If you want the master you need to go to Gino."
"So speaking of Gino how did you meet him again?"
"That's a long story and we don't have that long."
"Well you could just sum it up for me?"
"Well..."
It was then the waitress decided to ask us what we wanted.
"I would like French toast, sausage, scrambled eggs, and orange juice."
"And for you Miss?"
"I'll have the mushroom omelet and hash browns, thank you"
"Do you want all of the peppers, tomatoes, and such on it?"
"Yes, everything on it"
"Do you want something to drink?"
"Coffee"
"Any cream or sugar, Miss?"
"No thank you, black is fine"
"Alright your food should be out soon"
I was staring at Izzy the whole time she ordered. The last time we had breakfast together we both got pancakes, eggs, bacon, and big glasses of chocolate milk. Sure that was a few years ago but Izzy didn't get anything that she used to eat.
"Well that's a different way to eat breakfast."
"All of the junk you got would make me sick to my stomach I ate them now except for the eggs."
"So why not get the eggs?"
"Why are the eggs so important to you?"
"I just wanted to know why you didn't get them"
"I have my reasons."
"Which are?"
"So how have things been with Phil and Renee?"
"Fine I guess"
"That's all I get is fine?"
"Pretty much" I really don't feel like talking about this right now.
"Well I'll get it out of you eventually."
"After I get you to tell me about how you met the guys"
"Do you really want to know that badly?"
"Yep"
Again this waitress has terrible timing every time I almost get it out of Izzy she comes! Frustrating the hell out of me! Hello we are talking here.
So, we eat our food in silence. It wasn't an awkward silence but there was some unusual tension there.
"So you really want to know?"
"Yes Izzy I want to know"
"Well it started like this..."
Okay guys the story shall unfold some more next time. See like I said nothing tragic that's next chapter this chapter was just a little bit of sinning! Well I know I've taken forever but I like it tell me if you did. That's my sneaky way of saying REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! Okay and if you have suggestions for next chapter tell me, I have it planned out but I take suggestions and criticism! Hopefully more chapters to come soon lygs!
P.S. The song was Bring me to Life by Evanescence