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Tracing Footprints
~Okikagu Fanfiction~
*Cerulean meets Crimson*
*Kagura's P.O.V*
Darkness…
Faint lights…
Silence…
I opened my eyes only to see those…
I stood up and looked at my hands,
Blood…
That's right, it's a dream, because the current me now is fighting, following my thirst for blood…
A bloodlust being who kills anyone who gets in her way; It's really absurd, I, who always curse those people who've hurt me when in reality, it's obvious that I'm the same as them, I'm one of them, I'm one of the 'monsters' I detest…
"Kagura…"
I felt my heart throbbed upon hearing my name from someone so vague yet so close…
I can't even count how much tears have escaped my eyes, numerous liters that reminds me that I'm still a 'human'…
Every drop contains so much pain,
Every drop contains so much hatred,
Contains so much regrets, suffering and loneliness…
I feel so light by this guy's embrace…
Comfort was a no at first when I saw his crimson eyes; I thought they were deadly…
A shade of pure red, blood colored eyes, it looks so ominous…
But compared to mine, his eyes were bright, full of hope…
He never fought back from my attacks nor even tries to move an inch; he continues to embrace me trying to share the feeling of reassurance which in return my current state, denies…
"Let go…"
I scream… but inside of me these words keep ringing into my head, contradicting what I just said… "…Don't go."
"Did we switch positions now China..?"
He mumbled as he placed his chin on my right shoulder, taking fatal damages as my body reacts on its accord,
"I'm the one who should inflict pain to you don't you get it? I'm the sadist here…"
He crack a faint chuckle then hugged me tightly,
"…So why am I the one taking so much distress?"
He lifted his head and looked me in the eyes,
"… Those eyes, don't look at me when you have those ones… boring dull eyes, it doesn't suit you…"
He showed me that face full of pain,
"… The China that I know doesn't cry when she's around me, she always have that sly grin on her lips she hates losing by the likes of me… so you better laugh now China, show me that grin again, those eyes filled with compassion and braveness, that face with an unfathomable will of surpassing and beating me…"
He held both of my wrists and stared at me, the distance between our noses were slowly decreasing,
"…I hate to see you like this, China… I hate seeing this 'strong' side of yours when you are crying because of it…"
His brows furrowed as he continue, my body moved on its own and I furiously kicked his stomach, letting him spit some blood,
Seeing blood splattered on the floor, my body began to tingle, brute force releasing out before I knew it, But when I was supposed to attack him once more, he swiftly grabbed my wrists again and pinned me down the floor using half of his strength,
"I said don't look at me with those eyes… Smirk! Grin! Laugh! Do whatever you want from these choices but please…"
His voice was shaky as he said those words, his deep red eyes slowly swallowing me…
"Don't cry… Stop it… Don't cry anymore!"
He shouted and turn away his gaze,
"Damn it! This is not the settlement I want… It hurts..."
He pulled my arms and made me sit down, beating him is my priority, but all in a while as I heard him say those words the rages I was dealing with sometime ago starts to leave me…
"It hurts you know that..?"
He placed his hands on my cheeks; as his thumbs wiped away my tears from my eyes,
"For years I've been lost in haze, convincing myself that you're gone… I tried… But my mind always settles at the thought that it is indeed, impossible for you to die just like that…. I know myself that, that rude unladylike behavior of yours would make even Satan reject you… I was not as surprised as the others when that old man finally speak out, just like you right now, I was consumed by my rage and confusion, I can't think straight… when Hijibaka and Danna talk to me it eases up a little bit, the frustration I was feeling suddenly settles up straight into something… Right from the thought that I want to save you whatever happens… So you better not cry okay? I hate it… You look pitiful, You're almost fragile, like a diamond that when broken into smaller pieces can't be fixed again… Don't cry because you are better than that… You're not a diamond, You're an iron… I know that even if they break you, You'll always stand up once again and fight when forged, you're better than this Kagura… so don't show me this weak side of yours… yes you're strong physically but you know it very much that you're lying within your heart … "
I tried fighting back but my strength fades away when he rest his forehead unto mine,
"I know it's uncomfortable China but bear with it, If I will not do this at this time I'll surely regret it afterwards, having this kind of moment is so rare, I better enjoy it for atleast for the time being…"
His husky minty breath tingles my nose; his eyes were closed as he smiles,
"You seem to calm down now…"
He sighed, He's right… I was so fixated on his eyes that I didn't even notice that my mental state is at stable again…
"Good…"
He was about to sand up when I grabbed his arm and clenches it, I looked at his eyes once again as I speak,
"D-Don't go…Who are you? Tell me your name…"
I plead; a shocked expression lingered on his face as he blinked thrice then raised an eyebrow,
"You're kidding!"
He exclaimed as he held both of my shoulders,
"What do you mean by that China?" He asked shaking me hard,
I felt my head sore a bit because of the word 'China', I just bit my lower lip and asked him again,
"Who are you? W-Why are you calling me China?"
"No way! Seriously!?"
His eyes were wide as they stared at me, Ugh! The pain…
"What's wrong?" he asked as I placed my right hand on my head,
"J-Just H-Headache… Don't worry I g-get this all the time…"
I tried to smile as I answered him; he looked at me indifferently then came with a conclusion,
"Amnesia?"
I answered him with a nod,
"How cliché!" He said as he scratch his nape,
"What do you mean by that? Ugh!"
I tried to sound sarcastic but dealing with this pain is so exasperating,
"…That's explains why…" he supported me,
"Explains what?" I asked,
"I seriously thought it was rare for you to not even try to escape or even send us an S.O.S letter, an amnesia would be a serious ordeal… *sigh*"
He sighed in defeat, a smirk was suddenly formed on his lips,
"What's with that smirk?!" I beamed,
"Since you still don't know a thing about me this will be great! But wait…"
This guy is insane…
"What?"
"If you don't know me, then why did you attack me when you've first opened your eyes?"
"…"
That made me think,
"My body act according to its own, the first time I saw you my blood rise up all I know then is that I want to beat you…"
"Some things didn't change for two years I guess…" He muttered, "Well, whatever I hate to do this but I've got no other choice…"
He sighed and sat at my front, he offered his back for a piggy-back ride,
"Get on…" he said, more like a command,
I was hesitant but then he pulled my hand and carried me like a sack of rice,
"Let me down! Gahh! The first one is more decent than this one! Let me down! I'll f****** kill you!"
I scream, wriggling my body out of his grip, he lets me go and sat at my front once again,
"Geez you're so despicable! GET ON YOU F****** CHINA!"
I rest my body on his back and he gladly carried me,
"You're so light… have you been eating these past years China?"
"The portions of the food are all distributed equally, no helpings at all…" I rested my head on his back, "They all taste bad…"
"Oh is that so…?"
It was quiet for a while as he continues to walk at the hallway of this basement,
"You've asked for my name right?"
He finally break the awkward absence of sound surrounding us,
"Yes…" I replied,
"…Do me a favor then…" He smiled,
"What?"
"Call me 'Sadist'…"
… A prick was resounded within my head,
"What kind of name was that…?"
"It sounds too weird but if you call me by my name it will be totally awkward… I wouldn't feel comfortable… You used to call me by that name, so do me a favor and call me that…"
He grinned,
"Yeah, whatever- LOOK OUT!"
*BANG!*
-To be continued…