Wanting Him
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Disclaimer: I do not own anything Harry Potter related, just the insane plots that I send the characters into.
Summary: Harry Potter wants Severus Snape, but doesn't think he could ever get him. Will one night locked in the Potion Master's personal lab make Harry think otherwise?
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A/N: I am sooooo sorry for the long update! I've had a writers block for this chappie, and I haven't had any good writing moods...I just had another fight with my boyfriend so I'm a little put out at the moment, but I guess I'll live. If he loves me like he says he does, a few forgotten phone calls or un-returned texts shouldn't matter, right? But anyway...Okay, votings have closed for both G or B Mione, Draco, and Ron. I've come to a conclusion for my Lipgloss fic too. I've got plenty votes of Drarry, a few on Harrius, and one on Snarry. Sorry, doll, but I voted out Sev. However, it was a good suggestion. Sorry, sorry, but I've desided to go with Lucius. For votes, Draco DID win, and I know I should go with the winner instead of the loser, but as one of my voters said, there are hardly any Harrius fics! Buut, here is the chapter where Sev and Harry officially get together.
(Oh! And in this chapter, there is a dream-sequence of Harry and his muggle boyfriend, Levi. This is one of the only chappies where he will be featured in this fic. If you like that part, I might write a story to it.)
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Chapter Six: Break Me, Shake Me, Love Me
Harry couldn't believe what he had done! He kissed him! He kissed him, he kissed him! He kissed Severus Snape! That was the only thought going through his head as he raced down the corridor, trying to get as far away from Severus' quarters as he could.
NO! He cried out vehemently. We weren't...we weren't kissing Uncle Vernon... Memories flashed before his eyes as he ran down the school hallway. As fast as he could without running into anyone, concidering his state. He never even noticed when tears started falling down his face. Kissing...Uncle Vernon...Levi...No, Levi! Levi RUN!
As he rounded the corner, he ran into Malfoy. Surprisingly, the young Slytherin blonde was alone, without his two croonies. Apparently he thought he was safe down in the dungeons. "Potter?!" He growled angrily. "What the hell is your problem?"
"I kissed him..." He heard Potter mutter. "I kissed him, I kissed him, I kissed him..." He chanted over and over, shaking his head. Draco grabbed his shoulders, shaking him slightly.
"Kiss who, Potter?" He demanded. Harry shoved at him, crying out. "PLEASE, GOD NO!" Draco was shocked. What the matter was wrong with him?
Harry yanked himself away and crouched low to the ground, covering his head with his arms. "Uncle Vernon...I didn't mean too! Please...! I didn't--" He cut himself short by sobbing. "Don't...please..."
Suddenly, Severus Snape rounded the corner. Seeing Harry curled around himself sobbing and crying out he went into a panic. Then he saw Draco standing there, looking at the boy with an expression of mortification adorning his Aristocrat features. Severus' eyes grew cold as he charged up to his God-son. Taking a fistfull of robes, the black-eyed man snarled, "What the FUCK did you do to Harry?!"
Draco was surprisingly scared for his life. He had NEVER in all his 17 years see his god-father this angry. "Nothing!" He protested. "He came hurling down the corridor, and he ran into me. He sat up muttering, I kissed him, over and over. So I grabbed his shoulders and asked who and he shoved me screaming: PLEASE, GOD NO!" He shuttered, the toe-curling scream fresh in his mind. "Then, he knelt down, clutching himself, sobbing. I didn't hear him at first, but then he started getting clearer. He started wailing about his Uncle...Vernon...Severus? Wasn't that his muggle uncle that Dumbledore sent Harry to live with?"
Severus was in a state of shock. He never thought that the boy-wonder would EVER have to suffer such pain. When Draco asked if it was the uncle of Harry, realization dawned on him. Vernon Dursley did this. His own uncle.
"I'M GOING TO KILL HIM!" Severus roared, his magic surging around him. He knew that a few wards would go off if a magical energy as strong as his at the moment went off in the school.
"Who...?" Draco asked fearfully. Now he was severly scared.
"DUMBLEDORE AND DURSLEY!" Severus screeched, seething. "Draco..." His god-son was visibly scared, and he was trying, desprately trying, to keep his temper in check. "Please take Harry to my rooms. I am going to go inform Dumbledore of Vernon Dursley's impending death..."
Draco nodded and carefully took the shaking teen into his arms. Now he noticed that Severus was having a painful effect on Harry. As gently as he could, Draco hastily made his way to Severus' rooms. Meanwhile, Dumbledore frowned at the instrument that recorded the wards. Why would there be so much raw engergy in the castle...?
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Dumbledore never had time to question it as a furious Severus Snape barged in his office. "YOU ARE DEAD ALBUS!!" The black-haired man snarled, drawing his wand. "I AM GOING TO KILL YOU FOR WHAT YOU MADE HARRY LIVE THROUGH!!"
Albus Dumbledore had never been so shocked in his life. He didn't have a possible clue as to what was making Severus act this way. "I assure you Severus, that Harry has been fine his entire life. The wards have never gone off, thus no dark beings have entered his house and..."
"THOES WARDS DON'T RECORD ABUSE, ALBUS!" Severus growled, his wand shaking as he still had it trained on the Headmaster. "THEY DON'T RECORD HIS FUCKING MUGGLE UNCLE ABUSING HIS OWN NEPHEW IN IHS OWN HOUSE, NOW DOES IT?!"
He was wrong. He was even more shocked now. Harry...abused...he had never known. "Harry...he...?"
"YES, Albus." Severus grit out between clenched teeth. "Harry HAS been abused by Vernon Dursley...and now, if you don't mind, I am going to show him what real pain feels like..." And with that, Severus sheathed his wand and left the office. Albus never made a move to stop him. He knew he should, really. But stopping an angry Severus Snape was like making a Dementor sing you happy songs while dancing around in a bunny suit.
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Severus managed to be at the dge of Hogwarts' wards in under five minutes. Seething, he apparated on the front door step of number 4 Privet Drive. Dumbledore had removed the wards from the home, knowing they would have gone off and alerted the Ministry if he hadn't.
Not even knocking on the door, Severus tried to yank open the door. It was locked. With a growl, he kicked it open and stormed in. "DURSLEY!!" He snarled, drawing his wand. At the sound of the door blasting open, Vernon and Petunia had wandered in the front entry way.
"Snape!" Petunia cried. Vernon turned to his wife.
"You know this man?" He asked. It was another one of thoes FREAKS. Petunia sniffed, raising her nose in the air. It eerily reminded Severus of Narcissa Malfoy.
"He was the freak friend of my sister's." She annouced haughtly. A spark lit up in Severus' eye. Freak? That's what they had been calling Harry all his life?
Growling, Severus marched up to Vernon and grabbed the man by his hair. Twisting his arm, he made the beast of a man fall down on his knees with a cry. Leaning down, Severus hissed in his ear: "Years of Death Eater work didn't make me weak. Now I'm going to show you what it's like to feel pain. Torture. What you did to Harry is unforgiveable, but what I'm going to do to you is going to be much worse."
Petunia gasped. Surely he didn't mean..."Vernon?" She whispered fearfully. She knew her husband had reqularly beat him but..."Vernon...you didn't..." She felt like she was going to throw up.
Severus turned to Petunia with a blank look. "You mean...you didn't know...your husband RAPED your nephew...?" He asked, his mask falling so he could stare at her with heated eyes. She shook her head vehemently.
With a blank mask, Severus turned to the Dursley male and hauled him to his feet. "Take me to the basement, Petunia. I'm going to show your husband what us Death Eaters specialize in..."
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About eight hours later, Severus returned to Hogwarts. He never MEANT to kill Dursley. It was an accident really. The obease man's taunting prooved to much and a simple Sectumsempra ended the suffering man's life. Oh, well...it wasn't really that big of a deal. It wasn't like Harry was going back there anytime soon. Surprisingly, he left young Dursley and Petunia alone. Both were oblivious to the state of abuse Harry was suffering, so he allowed them light ignorence.
Harry had cried himself to sleep in Draco's arms five hours prior to when Severus had returned to his rooms. Draco was sitting on the couch with Harry's head in his lap. The tear stains were still visible on his young love's face. The blonde Slytherin was reading a new book he found of Severus' shelf, running his fingers through the sweat-matted black locks absentmindedly every once in a while. If it hadn't been for Harry's love for Severus, one would think they were an item.
When Severus found them in his sitting room, he looked up with a greatful sigh. "He was crying for an hour straight, Sev. You should have seen him..."
Severus cut him off with a wave of his hand. "I'll take care of him now, Dragon. You may go back to your Dorm. Thank you for your assistance..."
Draco nodded, gently removed Harry's head from his lap and returned the book to the shelf. "I better get to finish that next time I'm in..." He said mock-warningly to his Godfather. With a slight smile, Severus nodded and Draco left his quarters.
With that done, Severus headed over to the sleeping Harry on the couch. "Harry..." He called gently, attempting to wake the man up. However, the green-eyed wizard would have none of that, and promptly turned away from Severus. Sighing, the elder man picked Harry up bridal style. "Well, if your going to sleep Harry, your going to do so in a bed..."
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Harry was happily indulging himself on a pastry that he knicked from the Dursley's pantry when there was a knock on the door. Frowning, the green-eyed wizard tossed the remainder of his food in the bin before answering the knock. He was surprised when he found the new neighbor, and Harry's current boyfriend, Levi, standing there.
"Harry!" He grinned. "Glad you answered the door and not your horrid relatives."
Blushing, Harry allowed the sandy-blonde haired boy into his Uncle's house. "They...they aren't home..." He mumbled quietly.
Levi grinned, taking Harry's hands in his and led the unknown-wizard to the couch. "Good..." He whispered, pushing the black-haired man onto the couch. Levi pushed Harry's hands above his head and held them there as he sat down on his lap. Their half-hard cocks rubbed together sensually, and they groaned together. Without another word, the muggle boy heatedly pressed his lips to his boyfriend's.
The kiss was like nothing Harry had ever experiensed before. In his 5th year, there was the "Wet-Kiss-Of-Doom" with Cho, as Ron liked to call it, and "The Red-Headed Mayhem" with Ginny in his 6th, as Hermione liked to call it. Now he was going into his seventh, and final year at Hogwarts, and he was sharing the most heated kisses with a muggle boy over summer vacation. Not like Harry cared...
"Gods, Harry..." The blonde haired-man moaned when they broke apart. "Your so fucking goregeous..." With that, Levi promptly ravished his boyfriend's mouth. Just then, the front door blasted open and Vernon stalked in.
"BOY!" He shouted. "FREAK! Get down here! I forgot my wallet and..." He cut himself short when he walked into the living room to find the two boys kissing.
"WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK IS THIS?!" He roared. "HOW DARE YOU BRING ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR FREAKS INTO MY HOME!"
Harry visibly winced. He was thankful that Levi thought his uncle was talking about the two being gay. "Uncle Vernon..." Harry whimpered, which was a surprise to Levi. Usually he was so strong and demanding, now...he was...uke. "He isn't...he's not...he doesn't..."
"He doesn't WHAT boy?!" Vernon snarled. Harry was shaking now, and Levi wrapped his arms protectivly around his boyfriend.
"He isn't a freak...He's not...one of my kind..."
Levi turned glaring blue eyes on Harry. "WHAT are you talking about, Harry? Me not being one of your kind. I'm just as gay as you are, which is about as straight as a bloody maypole!"
Harry winced again. Damn Levi for being muggle...
"Ohhh..." Vernon smiled gleefully. "So he DOESN'T know about you and your freakish ways..."
'Shit...' Harry thought. 'Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit...' He looked up at his uncle with desperate eyes. "Please...don't...don't make me tell him...I can't...I can't lose him...PLEASE!" Tears were leaking from his eyes. He hadn't cried since Sirius died.
Suddenly, Vernon wrenched Harry from Levi's grasp by his neck. "You WILL tell him..." Vernon snarled dangerously in his face. "I want him to know who you really are..." Spit was flung in Harry's face as he was shook. "...so that he'll see you for the freak you really are..."
Sobbing, Harry turned to his boyfriend. "I...Levi...please...I..." He couldn't. We wouldn't tell him...he didn't want to lose anyone else...
"Tell HIM BOY!" Vernon roared, shaking him harder by his neck. Slighly choking, Harry opened his eyes. "I...I'm...I'm a...I'm a wiz...wizard!" Harry half sobbed, half suttered out.
Levi turned shocked eyes to him. He was seriously joking...he must have been...but with the pained, desperate look Harry was giving him. He knew it was the truth.
"Please...don't leave me..." Harry whispered brokenly, the hurt of his heart showing on his face. "I can't loose anyone else...please..."
Levi gave him a look of sympathy. "Talk to me, Potter..." It took him a lot of strength to say that. "When your ready to speak the truth..." With that, he stomped out the door, but not without mouthing, "I'll. Be. Back." to Harry before he did so.
With a malicious glint in Vernon's eye, the whale of a man drug Harry up the stairs. "I'll show you real PAIN, boy..." He growled huskily in his ear and threw him on the bed before tearing off his trousers.
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Harry woke up in a panic. He didn't know where he was. It deffinately wasn't the Gryffindor dormitory. Then he realized he was in a bed. Then, in a bed next to someone. And that someone was male.
Closing his eyes tight, Harry wrapped his arms protectivly around himself and burried his face in his knees. Waking up in a stranger's bed in a foreign room wasn't pleasent. Just then, the body next to his stirred. "Harry..." Someone whispered, and he realized it was his Potion's Teacher.
His head snapped up. "Snape!" He shouted, shocked. Seeing the man in such a vunerable state made Harry's heart clench. The man looked so innocent at that moment. His green silk pajamas wrinkled around his lean body, his face slightly flushed, his actually not-so-greasy hair messy and in his face. He suddenly felt as if he was the luckiest man in the world to be seeing Severus Snape like this.
As quickly as the feeling started bubbling in his chest, Harry squashed it just as fast. 'No...' He thought with resolve. He wasn't going to put his heart on the line again; wear it on his sleeve. Severus Snape was NOT the one he was going to let see him break.
"Your awake..." He whispered, and Harry nodded. Suddenly, he was pulled into an embrace. Sev...Snape was...was HUGGING him. "I'm so SORRY, Harry!"
Said wizard blinked in surprise. "What...why are you sorry...?" He whispered back. Severus pressed a kiss to Harry's lips. It was gentle, sweet. Levi's kisses were boardering harsh and lustfull. They had never shared such a kiss as this. It was intensifying.
"You shouldn't have run away..." Severus whispered, his eyes catching Harry's. They were searching. Searching for something in the pools of melted Emerald.
"I'm sorry, Se...Severus..." Harry whispered, and kissed the black-eyed man passionately. Just then, it seemed that everything was right in the world again. There was no Voldemort threatening to kill them, no meddling Dumbledore...no homophobic muggles. Just them. The two men sitting right there in bed, vowing their love through a kiss, even though the two weren't quite ready to express it in words.
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A/N: Yay! Longest chapter I've ever written! 3,151 words to be exact! To explain the title: BREAK ME: Sev makes Harry re-live a moment with Vernon about his first love when Vernon finds them kissing. SHAKE ME: Draco brings the thought to the surface when he shakes him like his uncle did. LOVE ME: Obviously: Sev and Harry get together! Sorry for the wait, I was in depresso 'miss my boyfriend I don't care about anything in the world' moods again. Ooh, and now I've desided I wanted to try fic-requests. So if you have any ideas for a one-shot, or multi-chaptered story, let me know in a review or PM (I prefer the review, I STILL have problems with PMing people) and I'll get to it. Dedicated to the plot creator, of course!! Ohh, now that the polls are over, I have another one! YAYS!
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Tell me, did anyone like the part of Harry and Levi? Here is the poll: Should I write a fanfic on the pairing?
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