--MTAC –

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Kate.

I close my eyes for a full three seconds as I remember how quickly she was taken from me. The pool of blood, the instant shock…the pain that followed. I then opened his eyes to…

Ziva.

She'd almost died. How could I not have known that? How could she not have told me? I'm not sure if I should be hurt or worried. Maybe what I did with Jeanne had hurt our trust…maybe things seemed the same, but they weren't.

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Kate.

The boss was a loose canon after that day. It went on for months. I thought it would never end. I even thought he hated me there for a few days. But slowly but surely it passed…the pain subsided and a new body sat across from me before I was ready…

Ziva.

She was beautiful. Not more beautiful than Kate. Just a different kind of beautiful. There was something about her…something I couldn't quite put my finger on. Something I still cant….and am beginning to wonder if I ever will.

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Him.

Who was he? Does she love him? Is she in danger? With those questions and more racing through my mind I left determined to find out. Because whether the trust between us had dwindled and I would never know what that something was…I had a responsibility…a responsibility to protect her. I wasn't going to lose her too. Not like I had…

Kate.