Funeral

Disclaimer - Emmerdale & its characters do not belong to me, they belong to ITV

A/N - So, it's short and it's kinda depressing but I can't help it. I'm going to blame Randompast for the morbidness of this one. It's his fault! Sorry! :) I need to blame someone.

The fact he was sat in a cold, damp, dark cell didn't bother him. He'd been there before and more than likely he'd end up here again, one way or another. No, what bothered him what was he was missing. "Nothing's gonna stop me being there" he could remember saying those words to Hazel not that long ago and now? Now it looked like he was going to miss it. He had no idea how he was going to handle that.

Since that day, that day when he helped Jackson die all he'd wanted was Jackson's body to handed back to them, he wanted to do everything Jackson wanted. Jackson had left a plan of his he wanted his funeral to go and Aaron had followed it to the letter, apart from Ashley obviously but that was a different matter. Jackson's funeral was planned, he'd planned it all, knowing that Hazel wouldn't be up to it. If he was honest with himself he wasn't up to it either, not really but focusing on the funeral helped take his mind off of other things. It stopped him missing Jackson if only for a little while.

He didn't get much sleep, actually he didn't sleep at all. He lay down on that cold hard thing that they call a bed and stared at the wall. He stared at it so long he could have sworn he saw Jackson's face but then, he was seeing that everywhere. Wishful thinking, he missed him, oh how he missed him. How could anyone think he murdered him? He hadn't wanted him to die, he'd begged him to change his mind but in the end he knew. He knew that even if Jackson agreed to keep living that he wouldn't be happy. He no longer had that spark in his eye that Aaron loved, Jackson, his Jackson was slowly dying and he couldn't watch it. He helped him, the only way he could at that moment. He didn't want to go to prison, of course he didn't but if it meant Jackson was free that somewhere, somehow he was happy then he'd go because that's all he wanted in the end, Jackson to be happy and he helped him get there the only way he could.

The funeral was at eleven thirty, at eleven thirty he was sat in the holding cells of the court waiting to be called. He had no idea if he would get bail or not, he prayed he would. He needed to get to that grave, he needed to get to that funeral. He knew his chances of getting to the funeral were futile and he couldn't help the stab he felt in his heart. Who would carry Jackson in his place? His absence would please Jerry. He wanted to be there for Hazel, without him she had no one, he promised Jackson. He was breaking one of the last promises he ever made to his boyfriend, all because of the stupid police. He hated them. Why couldn't they have waited until after the funeral? If they had he would gladly have slept in the damp, dark cell all weekend, he just didn't want to miss that funeral, yet here he was, missing it.

He was sure they were doing it deliberately; guys that had been brought in after him were being called up first. Finally, at twelve they called his name and he climbed the stairs to the dock. At precisely 12:33pm Aaron walked out of the court, he had been released on bail and told not to contact the witnesses which included Hazel. He couldn't do that, he wouldn't do that. Hazel needed him, he needed her. She was all he had left of Jackson, apart from pictures and memories of course but an actual physical link, she was it.

The moment he left the court he knew where he was going, there was only one place he wanted to be. With Jackson, after a quick stop at a shop, to pick up a couple of cans he continued his journey back to Emmerdale.

Back in the village he didn't want to see anyone, after getting off of the bus and checking no one was around to see him he took the back way to the cemetery, ensuring no one could see him. He may have missed the funeral, missed Jackson's video message but he could say goodbye, only this time it would be a private goodbye, just between him and Jackson, maybe it was better this way. At least alone, he could cry and not care who was around to see him because no one would be.

Xxx

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