Chapter 6

I stared into the mirror trying to reconcile all my determination to do no harm since my awakening with my current desire to mutilate – rip – tear – obliterate everything in sight. I couldn't focus. Visions began shifting behind my eyes faster than even I could process them as my internal fight wore on. For every vision of myself feasting on the humans so near to me I lost a vision of the golden-eyed trio that I had already begun thinking of as my "family". For every vision of myself destroying the entire building I gained a vision of figures in robes advancing upon me. Dancing within all these visions was another vision of two boys and a woman with blood red eyes welcoming me as their own.

A clear divide – apparently my actions led to one of three paths; one with the golden-eyed trio and a house, one with a red-eyed trio and eternal sating of my hungers, and one of death. I shoved both hands into my hair and began tearing at fistfuls while frantically shaking my head back and forth to clear my vision. I spiraled further into anger – I didn't want this, I knew I wasn't supposed to be this way, and I hated everyone out there who was normal. I couldn't process the visions enough to figure out which actions led to which outcomes and the frustration fueled my fury. Unable to think anymore, pure instinct and rage took over.

Turning on my heel with a spin too fast for a human eye to see, I struck my arms out and pulverized the walls surrounding me. The drop ceiling immediately collapsed over my head, coating me in dust and insulation. Instead of deflating my anger as physical exertion is supposed to, the ease and lack of resistance I felt in destroying the walls further incensed me. I shrieked a mindless cry that reverberated off the walls (well, what was left of them anyway) and belted through the rubble to continue back to the E.R. and further the destruction. Nothing in my path was safe from my hands; curved into talons, reaching for revenge.

As I approached the populated section of the E.R. my pace increased. My feet barely touched the floor as I anxiously anticipated the oncoming horrors I was about to inflict on these woefully oblivious humans. My anger peaked as I approached an obvious mother-daughter duo from behind. The sight of the mother, her arm draped over her daughters shoulders as they attempted to comfort each other in some unknown crisis made me bellow with rage. They never had a chance to flinch in fear from the sound for I was on them in the same instant. I buried myself in the mother first, snapping her neck in my frantic search for her throat. The daughter instinctually tried to pull herself away in an ill-fated attempt to save herself, but the iron bars that were my arms held her against my breast in a mockery of a mother's embrace while I simultaneously drained her mother. I ignored the thousands of images flashing behind my eyes as I turned the daughter to face me. To face pale-skinned, red-eyed, uncaring death. I lowered my head to send her off to meet her mother and heard her softly whisper the last thing I could have expected to hear.

"I'm so sorry."

Sorry? Why is she apologizing to me after I've just slaughtered her mother in front of her, and prepare to do the same to her? The shock caused by hearing these words caused me to pause just long enough to look at her – actually look at her innocent face and infinitely sorrowful eyes, and to see the compassion behind them. Though they were a different color the intelligence and understanding in her eyes reminded me so strongly of the golden-eyed man I had referred to as Carlisle in my vision. Both sets of eyes were direct portals to the souls behind them, souls that with just one look you knew were good.

And I was evil.

I ripped her head to the side and began to drink.

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A/N: I know you are all out there screeching in horror and preparing to hunt me down right now…. But I swear you won't regret it if you stick with me just a little while longer! The next chapter will be posted tomorrow and it's a looooooong one. I just figured I would post this so that you would know I am still at work!