Two Lonely Souls ch. 6
I chased CR down as she walks robotically towards the park away from the school before sitting down in front of the duck pond and I could tell that this place holds a special place in the AV member's heart. She stares at water lost in thought and I wasn't in a rush while she figure whatever happen in the science room out in her head before deciding if she wants to tell me but it gotta be huge as she buries her face in her hands. I hear her sniffles softly and I feel uncomfortable because I've never been good with emotions or comforting people as I place my hand on her back, rubbing circles. It was awhile before CR finally calmed down wiping the tears away from her eyes.
"I fucked up, dude. I fucked up real bad"
"What happened?" I asked curious.
"Stacie's pregnant. She says it's mine"
"W-What? Are you sure that it's yours? I mean I heard that Stacie sleeps around a lot"
"I can't say for sure but the way that she looked at me. She's scared Beca and I'm scared too because I don't know what I'm going to do if it really is mine. I can't take care of a baby cause I can barely take care of myself. This is situation's so fucked up" Cynthia-Rose said covering her face with her hands.
"I know that you're not ready to have a baby and that you're scared but just imagine how she feels. You gotta sack up and we'll figure something out. I got you" I said wrapping my arms around her shoulders.
"Thanks Beca" Cynthia-Rose sniffles.
"No problem"
We sat looking out at the water when someone calls out towards us and we looked to see that it's the guys as they dog-piled on us and I think it was a welcome distraction for the heaviness of the earlier conversation. Jesse was talking about trying to get me to watch a movie with him after I made the mistake of saying that I didn't like movies while Benji practices his latest magic for CR and Luke was trying to pick girls that walked past. The craziness of the group was natural and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I have somewhere that I belonged that I have people that accept me for me even though I wouldn't admit it to anyone. By the end we left the park, it was already getting late and I was getting hungry so we went our separate ways as I came home to find the last person that I would expect sitting on the couch with my step-mother, drinking tea.
Chloe.
What the actual fuck?! What the hell is she doing here? Why did Sheila let her in her for? The two looked up from their conversation to see me standing at the door when Chloe gets up to hug me and practically lifts me off of the floor as I awkwardly pat her on the back until she finally let me go.
"Beca, why didn't you tell me that you have a date with Chloe coming up? She was waiting for almost an hour for you to show up" Sheila said shaking her head lightly.
I looked at Chloe incredulously but the redhead just smiles at me like she hasn't done anything wrong as I rub my head, feeling an oncoming headache coming on before heading toward my room. I lazily closed the door behind me, sitting down on my bed and turning on my laptop as place my headphones over my head , opening my mixing app to take my head off of this draining day. I didn't get too far with my mix when I feel the bed slightly to see the singer crawling on the bed, laying next to me like she's done this before, snuggling up to my side. I tried to move away from her but she moved closer to me until I was practically sitting on the net of the bed and there was no way around this as I tried to ignore the girl and focus only on my music. Chloe didn't tried to distract me from what I was doing except for playing with the hem of my flannel shirt when I was almost done with my third mix was when she pushed my headphones off of my ears.
"Go out with me" Chloe said like it was the simplest thing in the world.
"Why? Why do you want to go out with me so badly? You know nothing about me and yet you're practically stalking me"
"Because I want to get to know you and I think that you're cute especially when you're flustered" Chloe said nuzzling her nose against mine.
"S-Stop that" I said jerking away from her.
"Too cute" Chloe giggles.
"I'm not cute. I'm a badass" I said crossing my arms.
"Whatever you say but you didn't answer my question. One date is all I want. Please Beca, go out with me" Chloe said nuzzling her face into my neck.
"Ugh fine if it's gets me you to leave me alone" I said giving in.
"Yay, I'll pick you up tomorrow at seven" Chloe said bouncing up and down excitedly.
I rolled my eyes when she grabs me by the face, kissing me on the lips and it's like fireworks exploded behind my eyes and a fire ignited in my lower belly as she pulled away, following her to capture her lips again but she stops. The singer looks me in the eyes for a moment and it seems like she's trying to communicate something with her eyes but I don't know what as she pecks me on the lips then placing a lingering kiss on my forehead. The bubbly redhead gets up from the bed and leaves without another word, leaving me confused on what I just gotten myself into when Shelia walks into my room, sitting down on the deckchair.
"She seems like a nice girl and she's really into you" Shelia said smiling.
"Yeah for some reason, she wont leave me the hell alone" I snorted. "She's so damn perky"
"Maybe so but you know how the saying goes opposites attracts" Shelia giggles.
"That might be true but she shouldn't get involved with me. I'm damaged goods" I said placing my headphones over my ears.
Shelia shifted onto the bed, lowering my headphones looking me dead in the eyes with a fire in her eyes almost scaring me as she gently takes my face in her hands, making me look at her.
"Rebecca Marie Mitchell, listen to me and listen well because I'm not repeating myself. You ARE NOT damaged goods. You have been dealt a shitty hand in life with people didn't deserve an amazingly talented young woman as their daughter but I am lucky enough to call my own. You deserve all the love and comfort in the world if you find someone that wants to help you reach your goal and thinks the world of you then you should shall them to see the real you" Shelia said running her thumbs across my cheeks.
I can feel the tears prickling in the back of my eyelids, burying my face into my step-mother's shoulder so she wouldn't see me crying because I've been so many tears to never show tears, to just suck it up. Ma never comforted me when I had a nightmares or when I used to think that there was monsters in my monster or when I was afraid during thunderstorms. She would tell me that I was too bad to be afraid of such ridiculous things and that I needed to grow a pair, to man up or other jabs so she wouldn't have to deal with me or simply lock the door so I was completely alone. Shelia barely knew me yet she's holding me, comforting me like a mother should her child, allowing me to let go all of those emotions that I've bottle up for so long as the relief washed over me, making me feel like the small child without skyscraper high walls. I held onto her like she was last lifeline and in some ways, she was and before I knew I had fallen asleep, being held and it felt nice feeling protected.
I drove home, feeling like a child finding out that their parents are taking them to Disneyland because Beca agreed to go out with me but I still have to figure where to take her but that can wait until later because I'm too excited that she said yes. Nothing can bring me down. I walked through the front door to see Mom and Dad waiting in the living room waiting expectedly for and it's totes obvious that they weren't happy but what else is new as I sit across from them.
"Where have you been? You come in at nearly eleven and please don't tell me that you were at Aubrey's because we called her and she says that she hasn't seen you since school let out. Explain yourself, young lady" Mom said raising an perfectly sculptured eyebrow.
"I made a new friend and I lost track of the time. No big time" I said shrugging my shoulder.
"It is a big deal because if you're gonna be late for curfew then you should have the decency to call explaining the reason" Dad chimes in.
"I don't see what the use would be since neither one of you are hardly to notice that either one of your daugters isn't home" I scoffed.
"You will not take that tone with us and we have to work to provide a rood over your head, the food in your belly, the clothes on your backs but I don't have to eplain myself to a child" Dad said fronwing.
"Just because you work doesn't mean that you should be neglecting your children but golfing with your buddies or shopping with your girlfriends is more important than actually raising your children. Do you even know when Charlie's birthday is or there for her first soccer game?" I said frowning.
"January 22" Mom said like it was obvious.
"No, it's July 24. I was there to help her with her homework, making sure that she's fed, make sure that she bathe and in bed at decent hour when you're too busy to bother. I'm more of a parent to my little sister than the both of you and I practically raised myself, learning things that my parents should've taught but never bothered with. For a long time I actually believed that you didn't care about your children since all you ever done is throw your money at us instead of raising us. I don't know why I'm raising my breath to be honest" I said walking up the stairs.
I walked up to my room, slamming the door behind me and flopping down on my bed, screaming out of frustration into my pillow because I told my parents everything that's been piling up for years. It felt good to do but what's the point was it doing to change but I can't help to hope that they might wake up and realize that their children are growing without them, that we need them to be parents although it's starting to feel hopeless when my door opens and my arm is shift as a small body snuggles up to my own. I turned my head to look into a pair of blue eyes, running my hand through a mop of red curls as the door of my room opens again to see Candy flopping down on the bed next to Charlie without her phone in her hand.
"I'm sorry"
Charlie and I looked at each other then at Candy like she grow a second head as she rolls her eyes at, shifting so she's laying on her side.
"I know that I haven't been the best sister to the both of you and that I never bothered to look after you like I should've but I guess that I resented the both of you because the 'rents never put as much pressure on you to try and be the best at everything. I hated everything that they forced me to do that you didn't have to deal with and it was just easier to care about myself. I'm sorry, you guys" Candace said apologetically.
"It's okay Candy" Charlie said hugging her.
"Yeah, we're gonna need each other to look after take care of each other" I said holding her hand.
"Yeah, you're right and thank you" Candace said smiling tearfully.
~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off
End of ch. 6