When they finally got into the apartment Rachel threw off her shoes.
"Those hurt my feet so bad." Finn chuckled and pulled his shoes off too. Rachel took his hand and started to pull him into the bathroom. "We gotta clean your face." She sat him down on the edge of the bathtub and got a wash cloth to wipe away the blood from the cuts.
"Your face is really bad." Rachel touched the cuts and bruises. They decided to go up to Finn's room in the frat house so she could help take care of his face.
"I'm fine." he reached up and laced her fingers with his smiling crookedly.
"If you're so fine then why did you agree to me helping you?" she stared down at their intertwined hands."So I could do this." with his free hand he pulled her down to sit on his lap.
"I've never done something like this." she said breathlessly while his face inched closer to hers.
"Like what?" he kissed the side of her mouth. "Like kissing?" he moved down and kissed her neck then.
"Not this kind of kissing." she breathed out as he sucked, bit, and licked a spot on her neck.
"Well do you like it?" he moved to a different spot when he felt successful with that one.
"Yes. Very much so." she moaned then. "Let's lay down on the bed."
He quickly stood up from his desk chair lifting her in his arms and carrying her with him. He laid her on the mattress and quickly hovered over her. She giggled when he had a hard time pulling his shirt over his head. Finally he got it off and attacked her lips again.
"Finn.." he kissed down her neck. "Finn we need to talk."
"You talk. I'll listen." he said while reaching the exposed skin of her upper chest.
"I'm a virgin." he quickly detached his lips from her skin and looked in her eyes.
"Seriously?" Rachel nodded biting her lip. "Does that mean you don't want to do this?"
"No, I want to do this. I'm almost a senior in college. It's about time I lose it but I just wanted you to know because I don't want to be just a hook up. I like you, Finn." she took a deep breath "I want this to mean something."
"Of course. So do I." he lied easily.
"Really?" she beamed.
"Well yeah. You're different. I knew that from the first time I saw you." he brushed some of her hair out of her face while telling her half the truth. She was different and he liked that but he can't be in a relationship with someone who has dreams and a future. He'd just pull her back from being able to reach those.
"Let's do this then." she giggled. "Wait you have a condom right?"
"Yes." he mumbled before attaching his lips to hers once more. A hook up couldn't hurt. He'd deal with the consequences later.
Finn couldn't stop staring at her. Her face was just perfect. Her eyes were blood shot from the tears but she never looked more beautiful to him.
"I think you need to put something on your eye." she lightly touched his eye. "The swelling is pretty bad."
"I'll be okay." he reached up and grabbed her hand. "Thanks for taking care of me though." She looked down and blushed.
"It's no problem. It's the least I can do." she grabbed his other hand with hers. "Even though I think violence is never the answer, I appreciate you standing up for me."
"Anytime Rach." he smiled at her before lifting up one of their intertwined hands and smoothed some of her hair behind her ear. "I'm always here for you."
She smiled and pulled his hands to wrap around her. He caught on quick and pulled her to him. Their lips were almost there when the front door slammed open. They pulled apart quickly and anxiously left the bathroom to see what the sound was for.
"I can not believe this!" Kurt yelled while slamming the door shut behind him. He noticed them then. "What the hell are you guys doing up this late?" Kurt noticed Finn's face. "Damn Finn! Did Rachel finally have enough?"
"No I got in a fight when I went to go walk Rachel home." he mentioned while looking down.
"I don't even want to know!" Kurt threw down his bags. "I had a horrible night. So I was at that guys house right? Well it turns out that no one in his family knows he's gay. His older brother popped in for a visit and he made me hide in a closet for six hours until his brother went to sleep so he could sneak me out."
"So that explains why you didn't answer my calls and texts." Rachel says.
"Yeah I dropped my phone before I was thrown into the closet." he huffed. "Anyway! I'm going to take a shower and then I'm going to bed." Kurt stormed off to his room and closed his door behind him.
"I think I should probably get to bed too." Rachel patted Finn on the shoulder. "I'll see you tomorrow?"
"Yeah okay." Rachel smiled and went into her room with Finn on her mind.
...
"The play opens in two days!" she exclaimed while plopping down on the couch besides Finn. "The director is working us to the bone. I can do the play backwards in my sleep."
"It gets better after opening night, right?" Finn asks while reaching over and grabbing her hand and pulling her to him. They haven't done anything more than cuddling since their almost kiss a few weeks ago. Finn didn't want to push her into anything and make her upset again.
"Usually but I just want all of it to be over. All this pressure is getting to me." she laid down on the couch and put her head in his lap. He combed his fingers through her hair while she spoke.
"Well lets watch a movie or something to get your mind off of everything." he suggested. "I could put a DVD in-"
"No!" she interrupted. "Just keep doing what you're doing." Finn smirked and continued to comb through her hair.
"So you like to be petted? That's what relaxes you?" he humored.
"Yep." she smiled up at him before closing her eyes and getting comfortable. After a few minutes Finn knew she was asleep. She started to do her cute little snore that he adored.
Not wanting to wake her up, he gently moved her head so he could get up. He reach over and put his arms under her back and behind her knees lifting her easily off the couch. She was weightless in his arms so it was easy to move around the apartment and bring her into her room to lay her on her bed. He gently took off her shoes and pulled the covers around her. He turned to leave the dark room but before he could her voice called out to him.
Rachel's head laid on his chest afterwards. Finn's hand ran through her hair. "How are you feeling?"
"A little sore" she turned and placed a chaste kiss on his lips "but other than that I feel amazing."
Finn chuckled as she laid her head back down on his chest. It was quiet for a few minutes. Finn thought she had fallen asleep until she whispered. "What happens when I go back to New York?" Finn gulped. He knew she was going to eventually ask this.
"We'll find a way to make it work." he combed through her hair. "Let's just enjoy this week and worry about it when the time comes." Rachel thought about it for a second before nodding.
"Okay." she turned and looked at the clock. "Shit, I have to get back to Mercedes' before they figure something is up." Finn chuckled.
"I'm pretty sure they'll sense something off about you." she tilted her head to the side confused so he explained. "You're not a virgin anymore. You got that certain pip in your step now." Rachel giggled.
"I'm pretty sure I won't even walk straight after tonight actually." she pulled the sheet that was covering them with her as she looked around the room for her clothes while Finn pulled on a pair of boxers. She quickly found her clothes and started pulling them on.
"Will you walk me back to the dorm?" she said as she zipped up her dress. "It's two in the morning. I don't know what psychos are out there."
"Anything to keep you safe." they walked quietly to Mercedes' dorm room hand in hand. Rachel had never felt more happy in her life and Finn never felt more guilty.
"Will you call me tomorrow? We can hang out when you don't have class." she suggested as they finally reached the door to the dorm room. Rachel could hear Kurt and Mercedes giggling about something.
"Of course." he kissed her deeply. "Bye baby."
"Bye." he kissed her cheek again before turning and walking back to the frat house.
"Finn." he turned around quickly. "Will you sleep with me tonight?" he chuckled and closed her door before taking off his shoes and pants and climbing into bed besides her. She cuddled up to him and kissed his shirt covered chest before whispering "Thank you" and falling straight to sleep. Finn pulled her closer to him and soon fell asleep too.
Finn woke up and immediately knew where he was. He looked over at the girl in his arms. She was still asleep and lightly snoring. There was also I pool of drool on his shirt where her mouth was but he didn't mind. They had been spending a lot more time together. Rachel was taking things slow and Finn desperately wanted to speed things up but neither of them had time with her play about to open and him so close to becoming a fireman. He had even been on some of the calls with the guys and it made him even more excited for when he could officially join them.
Rachel started to stir then. She opened her eyes, wipped her mouth, and rolled over onto her stomach turning her head to face him. "Good Morning." she whispered while smiling at him. "How'd you sleep?" he rolled on his side and rubbed his hand up and down her back.
"Amazingly." he found a patch of skin in between her shirt and shorts and started to rub there. She hummed in agreement.
"Are you coming to my opening night tomorrow?" she asked after a few minutes of silence.
"Would you like me to?" he asked while lifting her shirt a little and rubbing more skin.
"I would love you to."
"Then I will." she smiled at him and he smiled back.
Her door opened then and Kurt stormed in. They all froze. Kurt was surprised by the position Finn and Rachel were in.
"What the HELL?" he demanded. He looked between them until the shock had passed. "How long has this been going on? And how come no one told me anything?"
"First off, I told you to knock before coming into my room." Kurt rolled his eyes. Rachel turned over and sat up. "And second, there's nothing going on!" she huffed obviously annoyed.
"Yeah sure there's nothing going on! Finn just randomly comes in here and takes off his pants and gets into bed with you!" Kurt said while pointing to Finn's pants on the floor by the bed.
"Kurt will you just go? Please? I just got up and your over dramatics are killing me." Finn huffed while pulling the covers up to his neck.
"Whatever Finn, I talk Rachel into letting you live here because you had no where to go because you refuse to speak to our parents and this is how I'm treated!" Kurt leaves then and slams Rachel's door after him. Rachel looks over and sees the hurt in Finn's eyes.
"Finn-" she's cut off almost immediately.
"I have to go get ready. I have training today." he raised out of bed and grabbed his pants and shoes before quietly leaving. Rachel sighed and laid back against her pillows. "Great." she whispered to herself before getting up and getting ready herself for rehearsals.
...
Rachel came home that night to a strangely quiet apartment. Usually Finn was home before her and was watching tv in the living room but not tonight. There was no one in the living room and she knocked on both Kurt and Finn's doors without getting a response.
She sighed and decided to get a bubble bath since her muscles hurt from being over worked all day. She was in there for about an hour before she heard things coming from then front of the apartment. She hurriedly dried off and threw a robe on so she could go see who it was. Hoping it was Finn so she could talk to him about this morning.
"So then he shot himself. Boom!" Finn said loudly to the guy who was dragging him through the door. Finn looked up and noticed Rachel. "Rach! Hey look it's the girl I was telling you about! Rach, this is my friend from training!" Rachel had never seen Finn drunk like this before. The guy holding him up looked over and smiled at her. "His name is Fuck."
"It's Puck actually. Sorry, he was a little out of it at training today so I suggested going to this bar I know and well he had a few too many drinks." Puck explained.
"It's okay. I'll take him from here." she walked over and wrapped Finn's arm around her. "Thanks Puck." The guy nodded and left then.
"I'm such a screw up, Rach." Finn mumbled while she led him to his room slowly.
"No you're not." she got his door open and pulled him to his bed sitting him down.
"Yeah I am. I wasn't good enough for my dad to stick around and I wasn't good enough for the army or for my mom. I'm not good enough for you and I'm just just-" he breaks down then. Putting his head in his hands while the tears fall. Rachel was shocked. What he said broke her heart. He really thought this low about himself.
"Hey." she pulled his face up to look at her. "You are an amazing guy. Don't let anything or anyone make you feel otherwise." he looked away. "I'm serious Finn! You're amazing and you can't even see it."
"Can I just go to sleep?" he whispered while trying to lean over and take of his shoes nearly tipping over. She pushed him back and took off his shoes herself. She looked up at him failing to unbutton his pants. "I got it." she told him while pushing his hands away after she took his shoes off and doing it her self. He laid back on his bed after she pulled them off. He crawled under the covers and sat up for a second to take his shirt off. Throwing it on the floor and laying back under the covers. Rachel made sure he was covered up all the way before heading out.
Right when she quietly shut his bedroom door and turned toward hers Kurt walked out his.
"Ahh so you sneaking out on him?" he mumbles while passing her and going into the living room. Rachel followed.
"Actually no. Nothing is going on Kurt." Kurt just rolled his eyes. "I'm serious. We're not together. We might be soon but not now. I'm sick of your attitude." He sat down on the couch and ignored her. "You know how hard things have been for me since my dads died. You shouldn't be pushing me like this to tell you everything."
"You never tell me anything anymore." Kurt said quietly.
"Kurt, you're never here!"
"I am here just not when you are!" he turned toward her and she could see tears in his eyes. "Nothing is the same anymore. We use to talk all the time and tell each other everything. I feel like ever since your dads died and you had the miscarriage it's been going down hill."
"Kurt, you promised not to bring that up again!" she hushed hopping that Finn was in his drunk slumber by now.
"Yeah well you promised to tell me who the baby's father was eventually but that never happen and ever since then you've been keeping secrets." Rachel could see the hurt in his eyes and it hurt her to keep this from him.
"Kurt, it's not that I don't want to tell you. It's just that I don't want to open up old scars." she looks down. "I've been working to forget that for seven years now."
"I just want a name, Rachel." Kurt pleaded. "All I know is that he went to OCU and you guys had a one night stand and you didn't hear from him again."
"Kurt, stop." she warned as tears started to fall from her eyes.
"And then you find out you're pregnant a month later and then two months after that you had a miscarriage. I was there with you through all of that!"
"Kurt, I said stop!" she yelled.
"You had a miscarriage?" both heads turned to the unexpected voice that came from the hallway.
"Finn." Rachel breathed out.
"You had a miscarriage and you didn't even bother telling me? Wait you were pregnant and didn't even tell me that?" he was definitely angry which wasn't good because he was still drunk.
"You ignored my calls after that night and I knew it would have been a worthless cause to try to talk to you then." Rachel defended herself. "I didn't know what to do!"
"You could have told Kurt to tell me!" Finn yelled.
"I didn't want him to think differently of me! He always talked about the whores that fell for his brother! I didn't want to be one of those whores." Kurt looked between them obviously confused.
"Well news flash, Rachel. You kind of are. You got pregnant by me after all." Kurt gasped. Rachel looked over and saw the hurt in his eyes for not telling him it was Finn mixed with anger at Finn for what he just said to her. "Rachel, I'm sorry that was-" she slapped him then. Her hand stung as she stormed off to her room putting on clothes and packing a bag before leaving the apartment ignoring the calls after her as tears poured down her face.